There is a Long Road Ahead

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I’ve lost something very precious today,
I’ve lost something that never ever was,
I have lost the core of my soul today
And I mourn in despair for my sad loss.

I have lost what I once believed was true,
I’ve lost what I once thought would surely be,
I have lost what I have believed in for years
And I cry out in my sorrow – why me!

A lugubrious expression on my face,
I do try in vain to our story retrace.

The memories are hazy, but very strong
And I woefully wonder, “What what went wrong?”

Teary-eyed I remember those parties –
Oh, the fun the joy the laughter – so hearty!

Our school festival -how we danced! How we sang!
And throughout the day and night, our voices rang!

Then, we were all the Children of Innocence,
Then, pride, greed, jealousy were of no essence.

We all believed in living for the moment,
And our time together was very well spent.

We were oblivious to the world outside
And our immaturity, we did not hide.

We walked hand-in-hand without a single care,
Our hopes, our dreams, our ambitions we did share.

Some said that we were more than just childhood friends,
Others said we would stick by each other to the end.

But we did care little to what people said
And with our own lives, we simply went ahead.

‘Friends Forever!’ That’s what we declared to all,
We would stand united, we would never fall.

But Alas! The sands of time have changed us now,
I just don’t see why No I just don’t see how.

You now confess that you’ve just been using me,
And my heart cries out aloud, “How can that be!”

I trusted you! Oh, I confided in you!
Now that you’re gone, what am I supposed to do?
I believed you
When you told me that I was your best friend.
I believed you
When you said our friendship would never end.
My heart would skip a beat
Each and every time you’d give me that smile.
My heart would skip a beat
Every time we would stop and talk a while.

I ask myself, “Why did it have to end now?”
“Is there nothing we can do some way somehow?”

But you give me the answer loud and clear –
You don’t need me close, you don’t need me near.

You now say that you don’t want me any more.
With those words, you kill my heart from the core.

You now say that we were never ever friends,
You just needed me to achieve your own ends.

And now that you are happy, you are content,
You wish to take back the “friendship” you had lent.

You tell me that I must move on in my life,
There is a long road ahead a lot more strife.

I sniff but say, Yes, I will move on, My Love,”
“I shall take wings of hope and fly like a dove.”

Your memory will live on deep in my heart,
But with my faith and hope, my life will re-start,

For we often lose those whom we love, we trust,
But to learn to move on in life is a must.

I’m hurt, but I will be okay, I will be fine.
Between self pity and strength is a thin line.

I sigh as I look back at my so-called friend.
We were wrong, My Dear, our friendship did end.

You have moved on now and so shall I, in time.
To be sad, to be insecure, is no crime.

But I won’t give in to these feelings of mine,
I shall move on in my life, I shall be fine.


I am forgotten

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I am forgotten
I am overlooked
I am ignored
I am underestimated

I am beginning to get used
To this treatment
I don’t know how to
Change it

I don’t know how to
Get others to treat me
With more respect

Everyone does it
Family, friends
Even strangers
People on the street

I am so alone

I wish I would just die
I am so tired
Worn out
I want it to be over

I’m tired of the
Constant pain
The pain of living
With no joy
No happiness

Everything is a chore
Even the task of
Taking a shower
Is an effort

There is no light
Anywhere to be seen
Just darkness
No love, no touch
No whisper
Of love in my life

Why am I here
What purpose do I serve
Why don’t you want me
To come home God?

Please God let me come home…….


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I would stand by the ocean for hours.

Seeing your face in the sea.

The sand castles crumble, as the waves pound against them.

And I see your face once again.

Hands in my pockets, head to the ground.

I’m leaving marks in the sand.

Beauty surrounds me, as if you were near.

The waves like your hair,

The sun like your eyes,

The sand, as soft as your lips.


You left me with nothing.

Nothing but the ocean,

And the vision of us by the sea.

My heart’s like those sand castles;

Gradually wearing away,

And there’s nothing to hold back the waves.


I’m getting closer,

And you are coming back to me.

Every step towards the blue,

is a step closer to you.

I see you, as if you were here,

You’re not far away.

I can feel your cool skin,

As the cold wraps round my legs.

I can feel your hands again,

As mine glide through the water.

I can hear you calling to me.

I am coming.

It’s getting higher,

And I’m getting deeper,

But I am not afraid.

Soon I’ll be with you.

Drifting Away…

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Why did it come to this? How could I do this?

Fears are slowly surfacing, overflowing with a river of sorrow…


It’s all falling apart, It’s all drifting away…

Everyone, everything… is slowly drifting down memory lane…


When one reads into a situation, one is left with deep regret…

When remorse consumes one, one loses focus on one’s life…


When one continues to question one’s own existence, one loses grasp to reality…

When reality is lost, one’s own life slowly disappears in the distance…


Why is it some mistakes can be fixed?

Yet others would seem never…?


Some people, some creatures find love, yet… some never do…

To those whom don’t, will they… perhaps in another life?


It’s sad, but it seems one little mistake can cause everything to disappear.

Fears creep in, disgust, and hatred overwhelm, and life once again is hopeless…


Anymore this hopelessness is normal, nothing new, and bound to happen again…

Sometimes, when fought back, the results are inevitable, and it all drifts away…

Eternal Sadness…

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As the tears fell from the sky, I wondered why…

Why won’t my tears fall, if happiness is a lie?


The tears of reminiscence hold a sad story for all…

And for all, a different story is held…


As the tears of heaven fell, I asked why…

Why I continue to drown in this false hope…


The presence of tears linger, with a shower of questions…

Questions yet to be understood, misunderstood questions full of sorrow…


Will the sharp tears be sempiternal? I continue to ponder…

When will the storms calm, if all seems futile?


The infinite coming of tears fall as life flows on…

In a world such as this, how is happiness possible?


Why do these tears exist? Often questioning my own…

If there’s no hope, then why hope at all?


The tears won’t dry. As they fall, I still wonder…

When will my tears fall, as I continue to fall…?

Everythings changing

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Are you happy now?

did you forgive me?

am i finally forgiven and free from the grudge you had in your head?

is everything okay like it used to be?

or are you holding it all in?

and just making this up to screw me over?

is it revenge so i fall for you again and then it just breaks me in half?

’cause if it is, don’t plan on doing that

Your  wasting your time ’cause you hurt me so many times that Im no longer feeling pain.

it just feels like feeling the same sadness all over agian.

and eventually, after having the same feeling,

I begin to get strong over that pain and just get used of it.

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