How Do You Fix a Life Gone So Badly Wrong

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I open my eyes
But it’s better they stay closed
For what misery today will bring
I just don’t know

Every day is like the one before
I find I’m more hurt and lost
Than ever before

I can’t remember a time
Where I was happy and smiling
It feels like forever
That inside I’ve been dying

It’s strange
But I’ve got used to it
Being this way
It’s part of my life now
Depressed everyday

I thrive on the sadness
That tears at my heart
I find some sort of comfort in it
This pain that rips me apart

I was once smiling
Once warm
And so care free
Now I look at myself
And say
“What has happened to me?”

What made me this way?
So cold and lost
Were the memories so bad
That I forced them to be forgot

How can I break free?
And leave this behind
I’m tired of being this way all the time

I just want to be held close
But I know I will push everyone away
I’m too scared to let anyone in
Because I know no one will stay

How do you fix a soul
Which has pieces long gone
How do you fix a life
That has gone so badly wrong

How do you save a guy
Who can’t save himself?
How can you hear him
When he silently cries for help?

How do you save me?
When I’ve fallen so far
How can you heal these wounds
Which have turned to scars?

This is who I am
Every day and every night
Sad isn’t it?

May God help me!

Moon on Fire

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She tries to light the moon on fire,

Standing on a hill in the night.

She strikes a match and holds it high,

As she reaches for the moon.

For if the moon were to burn,

Then what a world it would be.


When the sun would set, everyone could be free,

For nothing but the darkness would remain.

There would be no people,

Only voices.


No one could see your

Skin colour,



Or scars.

Everybody equal, under the power of darkness.


She sees this world,

With every match she lights.


But with every match,

She misses the moon,

And burns her skin instead.


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is all I feel any more,
my whole body intensely sore,
I toss and turn in my sleep,
trying to clean cuts so deep,
every dream I walk to the cliff and leap.

Ravages my very being,
nothing left worth seeing,
the emptiness still thrashes at my soul,
for her my heart once burned like coal,
now my tears overflow any bowl.

Is all I am,
waiting to be slaughtered like the lamb,
around my neck is the noose,
checked twice so not to be loose,
and end life that is so maleficent,
to be with her who is so magnificent.

The End

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I wish my whole life away
Everything’s so dull and grey
The pain is unheard of
The emptiness of no love
The shattering of loneliness
The crashing of sadness
It all comes to an end
The day I can no longer bend
And put a gun to my head
Pull the trigger and end up on my bed
Everything’s be said
Nothing can mend
So to go my soul I will send

My baby is worth it

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With tears in my eyes I’m going to write this
Its not easy but i will try
This is my life till i die
I cant change it
Even if i wanted
Cause my baby is all that matters
Ill pretend if i have to
Ill give in to whatever i need to
But seeing my baby happy is worth it
Her smile and laughter will be my heart
Her hugs will be my beat
And her love will be my goal
To achieve this ill have to keep being myself
Someone fake and unhappy
Willing to give her life
With tears and heart ache i will keep living
Even if reality sinks in like nails that on my skin are digging

Depressing Poems