What I Feel

My head is pounding
My heart is aching
I don’t know why
I feel so lonely
For a while I was lost
I could not feel a thing
I tried so hard, but I could not fake
Cos I don’t fake.

It hurt so much
It does hurt bad
Sometimes I cry
Sometimes I smile
Sometimes I get scared if losing you.

Is this LOVE,what I feel?

It can’t be…

I need to wake up!

This can’t be happening to me.

I hate it and I love it.
But I don’t want it.
It is too deep.
It kind of hurt in a pleasant way.
I wanna wake up.
Wake without this feelings.

Come to think of it.
you might not even feel this way about me.
Maybe It is Just a joke to you.
Maybe I took you way to seriously.

I think I will pretend it is a joke too.
We are both acting.
That way it might hurt less
and it might be easier
Well I might not feel like so tomorrow
Cos tomorrow is full of surprises.

Maybe it is okay to feel this way once a while

Maybe I am missing you so much
It can be so lonely …
So frustrating too… So much uncertainty…
Fear of what lies ahead…

Maybe I Just let things be
One day at a time.
What will be will be
I will hold on to the knowledge that for now,
What we feel is real.
Even if it fades…
I will forever cherish the fact that it was, and it was as real as can be.