Depressing Poems

My nights are spent
in chilling fright.
The sounds hum
over the excitement.
I look beyond…
to find awareness
outside the misty
windows.
I hear sirens, birds wildly swaying,
crying, whispers of horror and
gore and crimes of hatred.
I’m not far from the sounds.
They are right near me in the
walls.
They are hollering, wailing,
punching…
Where are the music,
the love tales, the parties?
I’ve disassociated myself
from them.
I live in fright
from night to night.
The mockingbird
is at my perch…
mocking me…

You are wearing me out,
you’re wearing me down,
all you’ve left is this heavy crown
and a depressing frown.
my heart was yours
now the blood’s on the floors,
its writing is clear “I need you here”.

• I’m falling down
• Can’t get back up
• I cannot hold on
• To what you call hope
• When will this end?
• This depression and anger
• Which keeps me
• Chained down inside
• …
• I’m falling down
• Please help me up
• And just when things
• Were starting to become
• Hopeless
• You turned around
• And saw
• That I needed
• Your help

I’m going to quit before I start…
in the end I’m going to fail anyway,
so what’s the point of beginning?
Life is hard and even harder when no one loves you.
I get tired of the pain and tired of the shame I feel inside everyday.
My heart beat begins to slow…
There’s nothing in my day that encourages my life to be thrilled or amused.
All there is,
is a painful nocuous burning sensation in my stomach that just won’t go away.

All the prescription pills
and all the alcohol can’t make the pain go away.
It tears apart the soul
and eats away the heart.
Days quickly turn to nights
and months blow by in the blink of an eye.