I just want this road to come to an end
No more turns, no more bends
this pain that I go through
the sh*t just cannot be true
how can someone go through so much
with everyone around just not giving a @$!?
they say they care
but no one is ever there
There when I need them most
to just have someone hold me close
you see my heart
it didn’t look like that in the start
It was so beautiful, so big
now look at it crumbled up like some twig
how could you hurt someone you love
but still put eveyone above
Put up there like I don’t matter
leaving my life to be shattered
My life, my mind, my soul so blurry
but you still ain’t worried
Are you supposed to be
or do you think just that little of
I want to be loved too
Can you promise your love to be forever true
No you cannot, can you
how about this…
Can you grant me my death wish
then you could be the one left to reminisce!!

I’ve been there for you through the good times and the bad,
And was there to wipe your tears away, whenever you were sad.
Always tried to make you happy, whenever you were mad,
And gave you everything you thought you’d never have.

All those magical nights that we kissed,
Those are the days I will always miss.
I loved every single one of those days,
And that’s why it hurts me to say what Im about to say.

I loved you unconditionally,
No matter what happened between you and me.
And I was blind, but now I see,
That you just wanted to be friends with me.

But I cannot just be your friend.
Because my broken heart will never mend.
You didn’t want to lose me,
but you lost me in the end.
Because I Love You too much,
to just be your friend.

When I needed her the most she wasnt there:
all this pain within me I just cannot bear,
Whos to say that lifes a gift, and not an evil threat,
Maybe im pacing in hell because i lived in regret
People change but some stay the same,
others are considered insane,
When life is through
will we know the truth,
Im confused now,
it hurts so bad but I cannot forget

It hurts to no that i have lost your trust.
the one that use to mean so much.
it hurts to no you chose a guy over me.
some friend you turned out to be.
i thought that you would be the one that would always care.
but when it comes to guys you never share,
you could of had any guy but you chose him.
with you K*i*t* you can never win!

Why am I here?
Why don’t I die?
Once I was happy, confident and carefree
What happened to the days when I could be me,
On the surface I smile and act like Im alright,
But when I get home I cry all night,
This pain I feel why won’t it go away?
I wish they’d stop what they are doing
coz its not okay.
I don’t know what Im doing
and I don’t know what I’ve done,
I wish they’d just leave me alone
because they know they’ve won,
I wish that they could see,
That they’re killing me!

It’s so hard to believe…
I was just a joke to you…
We went out for so long…
Was this relationship even true?
Im hurt so bad…
I have one last breath…
My throat’s swelling…
The happiness is gone…
It’s now ended in death…

You didnt know,
How you hurt me so,
You didnt know,
That i couldnt let go.

You never knew,
How i felt about you,
You will never know,
Cause I will never show.

These feelings I hide,
Are taking over my life,
But you dont care,
You werent even there.

How long will it take for you to see?
That you and me were meant to be
I dont know how i can show,
What you yourself, can never know.

I bring the gun to my head,
thinking of the nights I dread.
Im not going to let him hurt me anymore,
the pain I feel is eating at my core.
Why cannot I just get the courage and turn him in,
I know that what he does to me is a sin.
I cannot live like this,
he used to have such a tender kiss,
But now he’s not the same,
Im tired of playing this sick game.
I pull the trigger, now Im dead.
The nights are now behind me,
the nights I used to dread.

Thirteen years
of pain and tears
my love for you
was always true
The things I’ve done
I know not why
I see the hurt
well up in your eyes
When you’re not here
a part of my soul does die
Each night in bed
alone I cry
Soulmates once
but now no more
My heart bleeds for you
right to the core
I love you so
and always will
Regret is always
the bitterest pill

During the happiest days of my life,
I prayed to God you’d be my wife.
But now you’re gone,
And my heart is in pain.
My life went from great,
To being…..just plain.
And everytime I close my eyes,
I see your gorgeous face.
And now I pray to God,
My feelings……to erase.
Because with my feelings gone,
I will hurt no more.
And my little heart,
Will no longer be sore.