This ride is so scary.
There are so many drops.
I pray for the uphills.
But yet, they’re so small.
Sometimes I wish for the ride to be over.
But, it continues to go on.
It seems like when an uphill starts coming up,
Unexpectedly, I turn a different way,
And head down another drop.
How much farther down can I drop?
It seems that I am already so far down.
People try to help me reach the uphills,
But they always fail and I fall right back down.
So many people have already given up.
I wish I could give up too,
Because all I see ahead are drops,
But I see no end.
It’s still so very far ahead.
It’s almost like it never ends.
All the pain.
The suffering.
I wish it could end.
But alas, it is hopeless.
I am a coward.
I will have to continue,
Living through my, which seems, never ending nightmare.
As people take advantage of me and I no longer care.
Or do anything to stop it.
Because it is hopeless.
I am hopeless…
As I sit here,
Slowly dying inside.
Losing all hope.
And all I can see now is darkness.
As it surrounds me,
Taking me away from those who care about me,
And I let no one in,
‘Cause I am afraid to be hurt anymore.
For if I am hurt anymore,
I may break,
And never be the same.
I will no longer be the girl everyone sees me as.
I will be nothing.
A forgotten memory.
In my place will lie glass,
From my shattered dreams.
Fog,
From my thoughts that were never shared.
A shadow,
From my destroyed heart.
And a small ball of light,
From the hope,
That I have lost…
