Life isn’t suppose to be upside down,
It should go in a smooth way,
Mixed with problems and happiness,
Life should be shared with a person,
That we truly LOVE………
Sometimes when we search for the person,
They won’t be there,
But when we turn back and see,
They are actually there but we didn’t notice them,
The person is our special LOVE……
Many people are living in this world,
They may come and go in our life,
There will be one person that we’ll truly love,
The person that cannot be erased in our heart,
That is when we see our true LOVE……..

I know that Im being selfish when Im in front of you,
I know that you think Im a fool who is behind you like others do,
but let me tell you one thing that
Im the only one who more than my life loves you..
But there is no compulsion that I would get love in return from you
because I know that you think Im a fool who is behind you,
and I don’t want to hear it from you
that the one made for me is not you,
But let me tell you one thing that
Im the only one who more than my life loves you
and only loves you……

Damn there is no word as “hope”, “wait” or “things may change”,
for now I have opened my eyes from the deadliest dream,
now that there is bright side all over, no black clouds, no rain
I feel like I’ll die and won’t be able to face the ray
you never loved me, just go away, far far away..
you broke my heart into trillion pieces,
so many lost,
some drowned,
some got burnt,
I can’t even see those pieces for me to fix them all again..
not only heart but my entire body aches,
Im shaking and Im crying,
you never loved me, just go away, far far away
I always felt like I could console my self with your lies,
I could wait for you to still come up,
with pure feelings, a true heart and a new you
I always felt like I could ignore and forgive your mistakes,
that one day you’ll change,
like an angel, a pearl so precious,
a one I could see in 8 billion people…
I hate you for who you are and who you turned me into..
You never loved me, just go away, far far away
Just leave me alone and go away, far far away
I’ll never be happy without you nor being with you..
you never loved me, just go away, far far away..

As I think of all
The years gone by
Of the dreams that time did bend
I can’t help but wonder
Where and when
This trail will come to end

Will I be forced
To stand alone
As I try to face the day
Or will I find love
And a gentle touch
To help me find the way

There was a time
Of hopeful dreams
And joy came with each day
And though it was
But years ago
It seems a lifetime away

I do not know
Where that young man went
His eyes did shine so bright
But I miss him
Just as I miss her
Each and every night

In the days of youth
The world was but
An oyster in its shell
With each failed attempt
To open it…
I found another kind of Hell

I found the Hell
Of knowing that
All I held so dear
I couldn’t have
Despite my dreams
But, God, it felt so near

It felt so close
I was so sure
I could touch it any day
But now it feels
Within my heart
So very far away

What I wanted most
Was just someone
Special to call my own
And I’d hold her close
Through every night
And we’d have a happy home

I had not dreams
Of grand design
Nor of mansions in the air
Just an honest love
To withstand time
But I find there’s no one there

Every night I lie
In my bed alone
And I rise each day the same
I have no one
To share my life
No one to share my name

I walk the days
With a painted smile
And I feign a happy heart
And when someone says
“Friend, how are you?”
I gladly play the part

But deep inside
Im so alone
And though surrounded by my friends
I have an empty
Void inside
And the bottom never ends

My friends are great
I love them all
And I know that they mean well
But when they say
“Friend, how are you?”
They don’t want me to tell

For as long as I
Say all is fine
Then they don’t have to deal
With the emptiness
With the loneliness
That every night I have to feel

So I spare them
For if I say
How I really feel
I know they’ll say
“Oh, it’s all right,
It’s really no big deal”

But they go home
To where they live
To where they have a spouse
And I go home
To sleep alone again
In this empty little house

You see for me
It’s a “big deal”
I face it every day
Every night I face
The empty void
Of wanting love to stay

I can’t run away
And hide from it
Although I’d like to try
For every night
When I look at it
A piece of my soul dies

And I don’t know
How many nights
I can take and still be me
Im afraid one day
The man I am
Will be a part of history

He’ll be replace
By someone else
Someone who shows emptiness
The once gentle eyes
Will be replaced
By ones of bitterness

The lonely nights
They do strange things
To a man once brave and bold
They take the laughter,
The warmth of heart
Then turn it to something cold

I don’t want to be
That man I see
Standing down that lonely path
But he comes closer
Every night
And that tears my heart in half

For there’s so much love
Inside of me
I have so much to give
But shattered dreams
And broken hearts
Have took my will to live

Yet I live on
Despite the pain
Though no one can understand
I fake a smile
While deep inside
Im a hurt and broken man

Now I find you
And you give me hope
Even though Im afraid to share
You let me stay
Or you let me go
And you’ve got the nerve to care

You see my Love
I’ve been so hurt
That Im afraid to let it go
And only when
We’re both alone
Can I let my feelings show

It scares me so
To even think
Of letting you inside
‘Cause I’ve done it before
And when she left
The man I was then died

I don’t see why
You hang on to me
Do you see a diamond in the rough?
Or will you come
To me one day
And say you’ve had enough

Then will you leave
And take with you
My heart, my very soul
Knowing all along
I must face it
Every night as I grow old

Oh, why does love
Come to an end
Why does it always go away?
Why can’t I have
That Special One
To hold precious every day

But for now I’ll stay
Just where I am
And keep distance from you
It’s not because
I do not care
I just know not what else to do

But I want you to know
That every night
As I lay down to sleep
I pray to God
To stop the pain
And give me someone to keep

Are you her?
I do not know
And Im afraid to say
But every night
I face the void
Then struggle through the day

So when you see me
Once again
Tell me in your special way
That it’s all right
For me to feel the pain
But that I’ll be OK

Then give to me
That loving kiss
Let me feel that special touch
Then look at me
For what I am
With those eyes I love so much

Let me know
That Im allowed
To grieve for something dead
To feel the pain
Then to let it go
And get it out of my head

Don’t be like the rest
Please look with me
Stand beside and hold my hand
For I can’t face it
All alone
Not in this empty land

‘Cause it’s not all right
Part of me died
But it would help more than you know
To have someone
Who’ll stand beside
And to know she will not go

For I can never love
With all my heart
I can never let it be
‘Till Im allowed
To feel the pain
Then put it behind me

‘Til I can say
“It’s no big deal”
I can not allow myself
To love again
I must put my dream
To gather dust upon a shelf

I do not know
How long that will take
I dare not to even guess
For every night
When I face that void
It makes my soul a mess

You see every night
When I look down
Into that empty space
I see the remains
Of what life was
And tears come to my face

Then I cry so hard
From so deep inside
Though no one else can hear
When I see the love
That could have been
And I shed a silent tear

But perhaps one day
When I trust again
And can believe it to be right
I’ll put aside the pain
And be allowed to feel
Your loving arms…Every Night

We shared the joy
And shared the pain
Of four forgotten years
And as my heart
Recalls the joys
My eyes recall the tears

For although life
Is never perfect
And things were not quite right
I miss the silence
And the peace
I felt deep in the night

In our great plans
Of future
There was a tiny flaw
You grew to know me
As no other
And rejected what you saw

This rejection come
Has filled me with
Despair and uncertainty
And I’ll spend my days
Searching my soul
In hopes of finding me

I feel to be
So unimportant
To future and to history
I matter not
To the World
And least of all to me

The feelings of
Incompetence
They fill me up inside
And leave me wishing
That I could
Just lay down and die

I feel to be
Not good enough
For our society
I want to erase
My own existence
From future history

I feel to be
Simply not worth
The effort took to kill
For broken hearts
And shattered dreams
Have took with them my will

I felt that my
Profound words
Would help someone, someday
And now I turn
To them myself
And try to find the way

I felt to be
Going somewhere
Some great destiny in time
But now I feel
There’s nothing left
In this destiny of mine

I once taught that
Everyone’s life
Regardless of how bland
Was still worth living
If nothing else
To see the beauty in the Land

But now the Land
It has been changed
And it holds beauty not
It holds instead
The piercing pain
The future’s presence brought

I was a man
Of simple dreams
Who held my life so dear
I held a vision
Of the World
As someplace very near

But now the World
It seems so small
So distant and obscure
And my purpose here
Within the World
Is something that’s unsure

My purpose once
Was to show the World
Some peace and serenity
But now the meaning
Of life and world
Seems utter insanity

When we were married
We were so young
But we loved all through the tears
But then one day
As prophesy fulfilled
You left me lonely to face the years

And we had problems
Throughout the times
Yet still we held the love
And then one day
You forgot the times
And quietly died the dove

And we had children
From our love
Their faces shown so bright
And as I think of all
The events I’ll miss
I cry through the long night

For they shall never
Know me well
Although they’ll come to see
But I’ll not be “Daddy”
In my children’s eyes
Just a piece of history

I’ll not be important
In their lives
Just an old forgotten toy
I’ll not get to share
The everyday
Sadness and the joy

They’re innocence
And dancing eyes
Is something I will miss
A little hug
An “I love you Dad”
A daughter’s goodnight kiss

The quietness of
A saddened heart
When life’s not understood
When things could not
Be explained
They’d know that Daddy would

I long so much
To see their eyes
And hold them oh so tight
As they tell me of
A child’s broken heart
In the stillness of the night

Just to be there
Every morning
Every night and every day
To hold them and
To love them so
And to quietly guide their way

To know the pleasures
That come with
Being Father of my girls
And to know that it
Will never be
Puts heartache in my world

But of all the things
That hurt me so
I still don’t understand
What took my life
Away and left
Me alone to face this land

For although love
Is never perfect
I thought ours to be strong
Until the day
You came to me
And said it was all wrong

And then you turned
And walked away
And you took my future too
But what hurts me most
Is the pain I feel
Matters not at all to you

I do not know
What made you change
And do these things to me
But the promises
Of love we made
Hurts me ironically

The promises and
The love we made
It filled my life with verse
And now the same
Which brought life joy
Brings to my life a curse

Im cursed to walk
My life in pain
In fear again to care
‘Cause if Im hurt
Like this again
My soul will disappear

And though I know
That you care not
Of my future History
I ask that when you see the moon
You’ll quietly think of me

For somewhere out there
In that night
Lies a man who loved you so
A small and feeble
Little man
With a broken heart of gold

And although he’s
Been all used up
And struggles with each day
He’d give up for you
His very life
Then quietly go away

So I will live
My life alone
And try to wait patiently
And I’ll always hope
Against the odds
Someday you’ll return to me

So now that time
Has ended
And all my days stand still
I leave with you
In honest hope
My last testament and will

To you I will
My smiling eyes
You saw at mornings light
And for my girls
I will to them
A soul of endless flight

Please keep and guard
Them closely
As you pass throughout your years
When you see the moon
Recall a man
Who’s living dead and filled with tears

And in my heart
There holds the hope
Of a beautiful white dove
But until that time
Could be again
I’ll just say…Goodbye My Love

I sit here now
And I look back
At my life across the years
I recall the joys
And all the pains
The laughter and the tears

The mistakes I’ve made
The lessons learned
The times that I’ve been wrong
As well as all
The happy times
That life did bring along

Im amazed
That Im alive
I think I should be dead
From all the things
That’s happened here
Both to my heart and head

So now I sit
And try to think
Just what life means to me
Both what life is
And what I hope
The future years will be

Life is such
A confusing thing
As you sow, so shall you reap
You must pay a price
For what you learn
And the answers don’t come cheap

And we’ve all had dreams
That slowly died
As the hourglass passed its sands
And it’s true that life
Is what happens while
You’re making other plans

For the dreams do not
Always come true
That rarely is the case
And as soon as you
Get to your feet
You fall back on your face

Then there are those
Who’ll gladly take
Your dreams and hopes from you
Then leave you standing
As an empty shell
Not knowing what to do

They’ll take your heart
Then take your soul
They’ll promise to be around
Then at first sign
Of troubled times
They’ll drop them to the ground

Then as you pick
The pieces up
From all over the place
The one who said
They’ll always care
Laughs right in your face

And as you stand
With teary eyes
And a sad and broken heart
You can only watch
The one you loved
As they turn and they depart

For there is no way
To keep them close
Or do what they will not do
Just as you can’t
Will a rose to bloom
You can’t make them love you

So you let them go
Even though it hurts
You must let them go away
For it’s to no avail
If you’re not wanted
To try to make love stay

And then begins
The empty nights
And the long and hollow days
But the road back to
A healthy heart
Can take so many ways

It can take you down
So many paths
With only one as the right trail
And the times you’ve made
A wrong turn or two
Are impossible to tell

But with the help
Of Special Ones
And from God above
You reclaim yourself
As you reclaim
The capacity to love

Yet still you fear
To love again
To give freely from the heart
‘Cause you’re so afraid
One day they’ll leave
So you hesitate to start

But deep inside
You know that
To give it any less
Would only be
An invitation
To make good love a mess

So here Im
My Sweet Angel
I stand before you now
Offering to you
All that I am
I hope it’s enough somehow

‘Cause even though
I sometimes fear
I know you do not lie
And I entrust to you
My heart each time
That I look into your eyes

Please know my love
That every time
I touch your auburn hair
And look into
Those smiling eyes
I see my place in there

And when I draw you
Close to me
As your breath mixes with mine
I taste your lips
And I know
I could stand by you through time

Then all at once
From deep inside
I feel things I’ve never felt
And Im so glad
I’ve played the cards
That life so cruelly dealt

For without them
I would not be
The man that Im now
And to love someone
So totally
I just would not know how

And if we’d met
Before all of that
Before life made us search our heart
The precious love
That we have found
You or I would tear apart

But perhaps now
That we both know
Of the pain that love can give
We’ll play no games
With the other’s heart
Just share the life we live

I once said I
Would live my life
In fear again to care
For if Im hurt
Like that again
My soul would disappear

But I now say
That’s a chance I’ll take
Just to be with you
‘Cause nothing ventured
Nothing lost
Means nothing is gained too

Despite the fears
Im not one
To live my life alone
I’ve always wanted
That Special One
And a kind and gentle home

And it’s not a question
Of being afraid
To have no one by my side
It’s just that it’s
Not who I am
And from it I will not hide

And you have a Son
From your own past
I accept him as my own
I hope he will
Accept me as Dad
So we’ll have a happy home

For we both have
Our troubled pasts
That we must both forgive
And learn to accept
If side by side
We ever hope to live

I’ll never be
A wealthy man
I knew it years ago
I can’t offer you
An easy life
As through the years we go

And Im not perfect
I have my faults
I don’t ride a gallant steed
Im not a knight
In shining armor
Just a human being with needs

But I’ll give to you
A gentle hand
And two arms to hold you tight
And I’ll try my best
To let you know
I love you day and night

To promise more
Would not be right
Just promises in vain
We’ve had enough
Of them broken
We know that cutting pain

So with a lump
Stuck in my throat
With nervous, shaky hands
I offer you all
The love I have
From a bruised, big hearted man

If you can live
With all I am
With all the good and bad
Then I can live
With yours My Love
Through the happy and the sad

I’ve no idea
Where we would live
And how I do not know
But I have faith
The Lord shall provide
As through the years we go

Now I ask you
To stand by me
As the years do pass us by
And know that I
Do love you so
And that I do not lie

For when I say
‘Till death do us part”
I pray that it shall be
I know not what else
To say except…
Cindy, will you marry me?

I love you, I really do.
i’d do anything to prove this to you.
i’d walk on water,
i’d swim in the ocean.
My love for you is like a witch’s potion.
i’d climb the highest mountain,
i’d fight the best of boxers,
to let the world know that have gottcha.
i’d walk trough rain, sleet or snow,
now have got you I will never let go.
i’d do all this over and over again,
to the point i’d go insane.
now do you believe? my love is true,
and there could be no other but you.

I wish you knew how much I loved you,
I wish you knew how you made me feel.
You’re always on my mind,
Im thinking about you all of the time.

I love your wonderful smile,
I love your beautiful eyes,
But I hate that we don’t talk no more
And the way you act like I’m not alive.

I can’t get over you,
I miss all the times we had together,
All the memories that we shared,
Forever in my heart you will be there.

Someday I hope you’ll love me,
Like I love you now.
I hope that someday comes soon,
Cause I’m lost without you around!

I think of you so often
and it always makes me smile
Becuz you’re the type of person who makes my life worthwhile
and so this lovely message is coming from my heart
It says I love you dearly
and we’ll never be apart