It was a cold, windy night,
all surrounded by light.
It wasn’t the best of years,
as it all ended in tears.

It was dull, wet and very grey,
nothing to do but sit and pray.
As my granddad was very ill,
then that night he just stopped still.

The feeling you cannot explain,
but you could see, he was no longer in pain.
He was warm, still and had colour,
but after an hour his colour turned to sorrow.

Then the men came and took him away,
‘Why’? is all I could say.
After the days had past,
I got to see him at last.

I can still see him now,
all dressed in a suit,
He felt as hard as marble, I wondered how?

Then the final day approached,
no more granddad, I got ill but managed to cope.
I still remember the person he was,
the laugh’s, the jokes and the love he had for us,
I’ll never forget or give up hope,
that I’ll meet him again,
until then I’ll have to cope

*If Only Charene you were here,
I would have the chance to whisper in your ear
How much I love and miss you.
*If Only I would have left with you that day,
I could have found a way to make you stay.
*If Only they knew who stole your soul,
that fool with a heart of straight coal.
*If Only you would have stayed home,
We wouldn’t have gotten the horrible news over the phone.
*If Only he wasn’t so stupid,
you wouldn’t have been with him like he was cupid.
*If Only you saw what we did,
you would have completed your life with your two kids.
*If Only you would have come home that night,
you wouldn’t have had to worry about that crazy fight,but instead a new life.
*If Only I had a chance to say I love you,
it now wouldn’t feel like a dream come true (if it happened)
*If Only he had a heart,
you would have had a great new start.
*If Only I could have said goodbye,
I probably wouldn’t stay up at night and cry.
*If Only your children could have knew you better,
they wouldn’t think that there was no one caring.
*If Only they had their mom right now,
but they don’t call their fathers a coward.
~The son thinks you didn’t love him, and the daughter’s smile is very grim.
~~So really IF ONLY is the only thing I can say now,
because I cannot tell you I love you and couldn’t say goodbye.
So now all I do now..IS CRY!

your case will be solved ..if it takes me all my life.

For My Sister Ingrid Charene Jacobs
1981~1999

Quickly and quietly I went for the camera
as the sunlight kissed your face.
You rested there in the living room
So quiet and full of grace.

I wondered what you were dreaming of.
Were they days of long ago?
When you ran through river waters
or frolicked in the snow?

Were you off on some adventure?
Or resting from a swim?
On a bluff above the river
About to jump right in?

You used to do so many things
You could no longer do.
And as you slept in dignity
I was glad that I knew you.

I was happy you still had courage
though you could no longer bark,
That you made my daughter feel so safe
when the world around was dark.

You watched with joy as the other dogs
Would frolic to and fro,
and you hopped on hobbled hip-joints
as your legs refused to go.

Last night you left our family,
eyes closed one final time.
When you woke your legs were straightened
and your eyes could see just fine.

For the One who watches sparrows
Had seen you when you fell,
and He caught you when you closed your eyes,
and then He made you well.

We will always miss you, Bessie
No dog will fill your place.
I will think of you forevermore
With the sunlight on your face.

For Bess, 1988-2003

I loved putting my head on your shoulder,
You kissed my forehead,
And told me it’s alright.
Now you’re a ghost
Invisible to my eyes
Haunting my heart.
You completed my thoughts and sentences
Because you knew me better than I knew myself.
The only thing that wasn’t fleeting in my life,
And now it’s gone.
Who am I,
And what am I supposed to do next?
Im on the edge again
Not knowing the real me.
Being someone and something Im not.
Save me from myself.
Im falling through.
On the edge again.
I need my wings.
I want to be alive,
Safe,
At home,
In your arms.

When you were on your death bed
we all thought you were gonna make it,
but as the days passed you seemed to worsen,
all we could do was watch you fail everyday,
cause there was nothing any of us could do,
when we lost you, we all lost our cool, and we started to cry.
The final day came on Saturday July 17, 2004,
we were all hoping for you to recover but that didn’t seem to be happening,
as you were lying on your death bed I felt sorry for you,
we still aint recovered yet, I know it takes time,
I miss all the good times we shared together,
you were well loved by family and friends,
I wish we could’ve shared one last night together,
you are my guardian angel now, Im glad of that cause you really didn’t leave this place,
Till the day we burried you, you were loved by family and friends,
and as our lives go on you will always be rememberd.
I Love You Aunt Lynn!!!!
In Memory Of Kathy Lynn Sabourin!!!!

Seeing you lie there,
no movement, no life, no soul
broke my heart and
pushed me to the ground.
I began to cry and reached for love
but the one i loved had gone away
leaving me alone
to face the ever trying day
My head knew you were gone for ever,
but my heart held onto the hope you were just sleeping
for the all moments I saw you alive,
was a treasured moment worth keeping.
Now I need to let go for good,
but it is the hardest thing to do,
to let something go you love,
to have nothing there and nothing to do.
I had never loved something so dear
and for days i let my tears flow
until the realization hit me,
I had to let you go.

I miss my Jake,
His bright face,
His steady pace,
It never seems to leave me,
When i dream,
I dream of him,
I dream of all those times he licked my face,
Beat me in a race,
Now that i cannot see him anymore,
i wish, i wish that i cud,
Just to see his fuzzy little face one more time,
would bring the world back into orbit,
But Jake,
Because your not here, My life well sucks,
There is no one here telling me it’s ok,
there is no one here telling me that I will make it through,
Jake finding you in the pool was the most grief night of my life,
there was only one of you,
Now there is none

Is there really a point to being here,
What’s the point?,
What’s the fear?,
If I only knew,
How to help my friend,
She wouldn’t be there,
Well I guess here,
In the hospital,
With a babe in her arms,
If I hadn’t let her sip some,
She would have thought strait,
She would have hidden in her cape,
Not holding a babe from an unfortunate rape!.
It’s all my fault.

One day, me
and my boyfriend
were walking on the street
We just came back from the mall and
we were turning a corner
Suddenly a car came swiving around and
my boyfriend was hit so
he was on the windsheild
The car was still moving
and we were both screaming
I ran after the car as it tried to stop.
Then, another car turned corner
and the car my boyfriend
was on crashed into it
My boyfriend was thrown off
and slid under the other car
I then knew he was dead
I screamed and tried to get under the car
The ambulance immediately
came and people were gathered around
Now, all I can remember of my
boyfriend
is his death and his smile
I love you
Jason

A story is told about a soldier who was finally coming home from the war. He called his parents from San Francisco. Mom and dad, Im coming home, but I’ve a favor to ask. I have a friend I’d like to bring home with me. Sure, they replied, we’d love to meet him. There’s something you should know the son continued, he was hurt pretty badly in the fighting. He stepped on a land mind and lost an arm and a leg. He has nowhere else to go, and I want him to come live with us. Im sorry to hear that, son. Maybe we can help him find somewhere to live No, Mom and Dad, I want him to live with us Son said the father, you don’t know what you’re asking. Someone with such a handicap would be a terrible burden on us. We have our own lives to live, and we cannot let something like this interfere with our lives. I think you should just come home and forget about this guy. He’ll find a way to live on his own. At that point, the son hung up the phone. The parents heard nothing more from him.

A few days later, however, they received a call from the San Francisco police. Their son had died after falling from a building, they were told. The police believed it was suicide. The grief-stricken parents flew to San Francisco and were taken to the city morgue to identify the body of their son. They recognized him, but to their horror they also discovered something they didn’t know, their son had only one arm and one leg.

The parents in this story are like many of us. We find it easy to love those who are good-looking or fun to have around, but we don’t like people who inconvenience us or make us feel uncomfortable. We would rather stay away from people who aren’t as healthy, beautiful, or smart as we are.

Thankfully, there’s someone who won’t treat us that way. Someone who loves us with an unconditional love that welcomes us into the forever family, regardless of how messed up we are. Tonight, before you tuck yourself in for the night, say a little prayer that God will give you the strength you need to accept people as they are, and to help us all be more understanding of those who are different from us!!!

There’s a miracle called friendship that dwells in the heart.
You don’t know how it happens or when it gets started.
But you know the special lift it always brings
and you realize that Friendship is God’s most precious gift!
Friends are a very rare jewel, indeed.
They make you smile and encourage you to succeed.
They lend an ear, they share a word of praise,
and they always want to open their hearts to you.