Some say I could have stopped this crime
but I swear it happened too fast
as I watched her escaping
escaping her past
just in time
just
in time

And some say she’s trespassed these walls before
but I swear she’s just looking for light
as I watched her steal this heart
steal this heart tonight
just once for
just
once more

Shooting stars keep a night sky alive
and calm dark waters are rippled by a feeding fish
With our back against the dewy grass, you whisper,
“they dont last…..so make a wish.”

They burn so bright, then drop out of sight
I would spend a lifetime to take it all in
Maybe our fires done burning
and like those stars…..weve fallen

Our past sings through swaying trees
and words break silence like a distant wind chime
Maybe this is only the beginning
and we will burn brighter in time

So tonight I share my wish
to the girl with the broken smile
ill throw it all in the water
and ask her to stay a while

Can’t you see? Don’t you care?
I want to die.
don’t you listen? Can’t you hear?
my silent cry.
wont you turn?can’t you hold?
me to your heart.
are you afraid of what might follow.
once you start.
would you rather not belive?
im in such pain.
that all your sense and good advice
must be in vain.

It’s easier for you to just walk away
Than it is to reach out to me
It’s easier for you to just turn around
Than to see the depth of my despair
It’s easier for you to just look through
Than it is to see the “real” me
It’s easier for you to distance yourself
Than it is for you to care

It’s easier for me to just look away
Than it is to see the betrayal in my eyes
It is easier for me to cry
Than it is for me to speak
It’s easier for me to walk alone
Than it is to face rejection
It’s easier for me to keep to myself
Than it is to create a new projection

It’s hard for me to smile
When Im hurting
It’s hard for me to talk
When you don’t understand
It’s hard for me to reach out
When I need help as well
It’s hard and wounding
Trying to get up without a hand

If only once you’d really look at me
And see who I really am
If only once you’d really listen to me
And only try to understand
Why I want you to care about me
Without asking why
Then maybe you’d validate my feelings
And realize why I cry

Will I?
Why ask?
“You don’t
love for ever.”
That is why she
isn’t looking.
“Good.”…..
……………
…Good looking
isn’t she?
“Why is that
ever for love?”
Don’t you
ask why?
“I will.”.

Let me give you a knife
and my arm
and you can cut it for me
so you see the anger in my eyes.
You say mean things to me
but it doesn’t stop there
No, your words go deep inside
and stay with me forever.
Im taking this hard
but why shouldnt I?
I look at you with disgust
as I see you walk by.
The silence it kills me
but it’ll always be the same
But Id take silence
then have to replay those memories in my head
What did I do to deserve this?
Im sick of making excuses for you
So lets just leave,
Pretend it never happened.
Somebody pinch me
please tell me Im dreaming
Let me wake in the morning
and it’ll not be my reality.

How can you know so much about me
and not bat an eye, but want to know more?
You know when Im mad and say all the right things
We fit so well together, but I dont wanna do this.
You dont wanna know how I feel
It would eat you up inside, tearing your soul from your body
Devouring it whole.
You know so much, but theres still so much more
Stick around, and maybe you will learn something
You’re gonna get tired of me soon
everyone always does.
Its such a disappointment that everything good
goes away in the end

The door is always open and unlocked
this is where I will spend most of my time now
I know….Im alone here, but it’s getting a little crowded
And I know…. you wanted to take everything with you
but memory still speaks your name

So sneak into this room I call my thoughts
tear down these black curtains
Let me stare into the sun, I’ve forgotten how it feels
break open these frozen windows
Let me stare into your eyes, I’ve forgotten how it feels

Im trapped between four corners too familiar
and a ceiling much too low
You said you wouldn’t help me tear down these walls
but ripping away these posters of regret
is the least you could do

For now I will lay in this empty bed
and hide under these sheets once again
waiting while I fade away once more
this blanket still smells of you
I don’t want this again

I give this to you
through this pen and to a heart you call your own
A letter…
A dilemma…
A poem…
A notice that I’ve given up.

Shadows of clouds darken the already night sky
for now I will focus on the snowy white peaks
that mask on the silhouette of mountains
that face above the approaching highway
The song on the radio serves a timely reminder
as I await before the final intersection
idle before the motionless lights
I watch the windshield wipers
push the water of these raindrops
my favored casualties
my intolerable souvenirs
I’d like to think this red glare
would stay forever
but it will soon turn green
and I will have to move on
To a bed, just to rest my head
heavy with the thought
of how I could just turn back
and do it all again

Life is full of memories
With family and friends who care
But of course we have enemies
And those we don’t care to share
Life is full of love
Whether it be good or bad
If it’s good, you soar like a dove
If it’s bad, you’re just very sad
Life is what you want it to be
You make your own decisions
What you do is what we see
So don’t make it look like a bad incision
Go down your path of life
And you will find your inside
You may soon find your husband or wife
When you find that special one, hope they will abye