Illegal Love; So Sorry

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Illegal love

It sounds so romantic and so bad

But when actually faced with it

To have to either give up the one I love

Or go on without blessings

Is so confusing, so stressful

I don’t think I can give him up

Even through all he’s done to me

It’s been three years since we admitted it

Admitted we loved each other

And I don’t think I can let go because of your age

I’ll try but I don’t think it possible

When you really love someone, and are faced with this decision

I think you’d make the same choice

I can’t let go of him

So I’m just going to wait here

Wait for him to come back

And I’ll forget about his birthday

In nine days he’ll be 18

I’ll forget that too

And we’ll be happy.

I’m so sorry this is happening..

But we can get through it!

Can’t we?

I’m Sorry I Left All Of You

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I’m really sorry I left you all

But like how I had said I cried every time I saw you all

And when I saw you all memories came flooding back…

I tried to block them out…But it’s like they want something from me

I never wanted to leave…Every day I keep asking myself to questions

Did I do the right thing by leaving?

Will the memories ever leave?

I want someone to answer those two questions so bad

I want to know who has the answers

But not only bad memories come back to me

Fun memories also come to me

Like when I met them all…How I met them all

And everyday I cry

And everyday I want to see you all

But like I told you all…If I see you all

The bad memories will come back

I want these memories to start fading

But it seems like they will be clear in my mind forever

Every day I whisper “Im sorry for leaving you all.”

And I truly am sorry

None of you have to forgive me…

I just want you all to know Im sorry

I’m so sorry for leaving you all

I want to get back

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Im sorry that I blew up in your face.

It really wasn’t nice, in that case.

I hope we can get back to good terms.

This all is eating at me like a corpse with worms.

I thought about it everyday after.

I miss all the jokes and laughter.

I told you something very personal.

I did it in the wrong way, that little kernel.

Just read my message,

It explains more.

I really want to get back,

To at least half the way it was before.

You left

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You left and didn’t come back for awhile

So I forgot about you…

‘Cause well you never texted or called…

So I thought you found someone else

And I did too

Then one day you  came back…

You rang my doorbell and I told you what I thought

You got mad…

But it wasn’t my fault that he left and never called

Not my fault…

Im sorry I found someone else but you never told me

And well I’m just sorry…

But you left…

And didn’t comeback for awhile

I’m sorry I will be happy

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Im sorry I’m being so depressed.

I’ll try to pick myself up.

I’m just going through some stuff.

Im sorry.

Thank you to the people who care.

Thank you Faye.

Thank you Min Min.

Thank you No Name Girl.

Thank you everyone.

Im sorry. I will be happy.


To the people who made me sad.

Thank you for inspiring all of these,

And please, be careful of what you say.

Im sorry.