I look happy on the outside,
Because the inside is what i’m trying to hide.
A bullet has pierced my heart,
now my whole world is falling apart.
This time I thought I had it,
but now it’s hurting me quite a bit.
I close my eyes clench my fists,
wondering if to cut my wrists.
A dark cloud sits over my head,
o how I wish I was dead.
I sit here with a big frown,
wondering what I did wrong.
I did everything I should,
to me things were going good.
I was so nervous to ask,
it seemed like a huge task.
When I asked I lost the air in my lungs,
but then she said o I was too young.
I thought she was joking,
but then I felt my heart-broken.

My heart was stolen
And was returned broken
Because of so much love
I set you free like a dove
And because of the love I fail
My heart was put in jail
I promised not to love again
Since the day my heart was broken

You become a distant memory.
Im thinking to myself, this is exactly how it outa be.
Anxious to see what the future has instore for me.
and I was so proud to see how much I’ve grown,
if it wasn’t for the heart breaks, I never would’ve known.
since you left I was doing so good,
but when I was you again, feelings came back that never should.
me ? broken hearted ? No one could tell,
because I promised myself I wouldn’t fall, until I fell.
and now my heart again, is locked up in a cell.
but something about this story is amazing to see,
how of course you meant the world to me,
but my eyes just refuse to leak,
like my tears know it isn’t worth rolling down my cheeks <3

How could you do this to me?
How could you leave me like this?
Sad and dying inside.
I feel like Im rotting away inside.
Little dead pieces of me fall off as I fade away slowly,
drowning in depression.
My heart stopped beating when you stopped talking.
My mind focused, like a starving dog staring at a piece of meat,
waiting for some glimpse you might care.
But you never call.
Even the air freezes around me in discontent and sadness.
A feeling of empty, a feeling of grief and sorrow.
My stomach aches with knots of confusion
and head fills with clouds of misunderstanding.
Boxes of information opened and poured out without hope of solution.
Fingers of blame thrown in the air
and words of anger fill the ears of a negativity drowned victim.
Falling into pieces that can’t be glued.
Beyond hopeless, suicidal and filled with doubt of life’s meanings.
You left me here like this.
Not giving me the time of day filling your self up,
like a glutton, with selfishness.
Warped sense of mind.
How can you separate yourself like that?
How can you go on with you smiles and laughter
when you left me to lie here.
My chest open heart barley beating.
You never turned around once.
Now Im bleeding out,
my lifeline fading as I drown in my own tears.
After all we have been through,
after all I have done and sacrificed in the name of our love.
If all your time was wasted and all you love has died.
Then what was this?
Who the hell was I?
but after all we have been through,
obstacles leaped over,
tears that have been cried.
You left me here alone,
left my heart broken like a shattered mirror
reflecting pieces of what used to be me.
now i lie here slowly dying, loosing all that once was
and everything that will never be.

O’ beloved, why did you have to go ?
Leaving me all alone, all by my own,
Why didn’t I recognize you?
Why did you behave so good when all you were was rude,
Why did you promise me your heart
and act so smart when all in fact you were a retard,
Why can’t you see the little pieces of my heart,
so hard to pick up those broken one’s
that you have scattered on the ground,
Why can’t you feel my pain,
tears filled my clothes with stains and hurt inside my veins?
Why did you leave me not to see a single star,
but a billion scars,
single moon but broken soon,
no hope but only tears that drop…

My tears won’t stop dropping
My heart won’t stop racing
My body won’t stop shaking
Im wondering if you care about me as you said
I just can’t stop crying.
The night so fresh, so sweet,
I did not sleep, I want the morning.
The days so noisy, so tiring,
I want the night. Nothing is as desired.
My eyes tear red from crying,
my heart was bruised strength to groan,
but this is unbelievable, you in me has not changed.
I watch the flowers fading, as it fades you and me.
No odor, nor life.
Life is short but no one knows where she will take us
it’s like the passing wind, but no one knows where it goes.
You and me is over but I have memories.
I feel your wind, but it is not rest.
My hands are cold and my withered heart.
I feel choked because you promised me to blow on me.
Im only watching the time passing
and it made me see that everything comes, everything goes.
I wish I would just close my eyes on you but my heart won’t let me.

We shared the joy
And shared the pain
Of four forgotten years
And as my heart
Recalls the joys
My eyes recall the tears

For although life
Is never perfect
And things were not quite right
I miss the silence
And the peace
I felt deep in the night

In our great plans
Of future
There was a tiny flaw
You grew to know me
As no other
And rejected what you saw

This rejection come
Has filled me with
Despair and uncertainty
And I’ll spend my days
Searching my soul
In hopes of finding me

I feel to be
So unimportant
To future and to history
I matter not
To the World
And least of all to me

The feelings of
Incompetence
They fill me up inside
And leave me wishing
That I could
Just lay down and die

I feel to be
Not good enough
For our society
I want to erase
My own existence
From future history

I feel to be
Simply not worth
The effort took to kill
For broken hearts
And shattered dreams
Have took with them my will

I felt that my
Profound words
Would help someone, someday
And now I turn
To them myself
And try to find the way

I felt to be
Going somewhere
Some great destiny in time
But now I feel
There’s nothing left
In this destiny of mine

I once taught that
Everyone’s life
Regardless of how bland
Was still worth living
If nothing else
To see the beauty in the Land

But now the Land
It has been changed
And it holds beauty not
It holds instead
The piercing pain
The future’s presence brought

I was a man
Of simple dreams
Who held my life so dear
I held a vision
Of the World
As someplace very near

But now the World
It seems so small
So distant and obscure
And my purpose here
Within the World
Is something that’s unsure

My purpose once
Was to show the World
Some peace and serenity
But now the meaning
Of life and world
Seems utter insanity

When we were married
We were so young
But we loved all through the tears
But then one day
As prophesy fulfilled
You left me lonely to face the years

And we had problems
Throughout the times
Yet still we held the love
And then one day
You forgot the times
And quietly died the dove

And we had children
From our love
Their faces shown so bright
And as I think of all
The events I’ll miss
I cry through the long night

For they shall never
Know me well
Although they’ll come to see
But I’ll not be “Daddy”
In my children’s eyes
Just a piece of history

I’ll not be important
In their lives
Just an old forgotten toy
I’ll not get to share
The everyday
Sadness and the joy

They’re innocence
And dancing eyes
Is something I will miss
A little hug
An “I love you Dad”
A daughter’s goodnight kiss

The quietness of
A saddened heart
When life’s not understood
When things could not
Be explained
They’d know that Daddy would

I long so much
To see their eyes
And hold them oh so tight
As they tell me of
A child’s broken heart
In the stillness of the night

Just to be there
Every morning
Every night and every day
To hold them and
To love them so
And to quietly guide their way

To know the pleasures
That come with
Being Father of my girls
And to know that it
Will never be
Puts heartache in my world

But of all the things
That hurt me so
I still don’t understand
What took my life
Away and left
Me alone to face this land

For although love
Is never perfect
I thought ours to be strong
Until the day
You came to me
And said it was all wrong

And then you turned
And walked away
And you took my future too
But what hurts me most
Is the pain I feel
Matters not at all to you

I do not know
What made you change
And do these things to me
But the promises
Of love we made
Hurts me ironically

The promises and
The love we made
It filled my life with verse
And now the same
Which brought life joy
Brings to my life a curse

Im cursed to walk
My life in pain
In fear again to care
‘Cause if Im hurt
Like this again
My soul will disappear

And though I know
That you care not
Of my future History
I ask that when you see the moon
You’ll quietly think of me

For somewhere out there
In that night
Lies a man who loved you so
A small and feeble
Little man
With a broken heart of gold

And although he’s
Been all used up
And struggles with each day
He’d give up for you
His very life
Then quietly go away

So I will live
My life alone
And try to wait patiently
And I’ll always hope
Against the odds
Someday you’ll return to me

So now that time
Has ended
And all my days stand still
I leave with you
In honest hope
My last testament and will

To you I will
My smiling eyes
You saw at mornings light
And for my girls
I will to them
A soul of endless flight

Please keep and guard
Them closely
As you pass throughout your years
When you see the moon
Recall a man
Who’s living dead and filled with tears

And in my heart
There holds the hope
Of a beautiful white dove
But until that time
Could be again
I’ll just say…Goodbye My Love

I used to believe in happily ever after
Nothing else matter
Against all odds
As long as we’re together
Indeed time passes by
Lullaby seems to die
You’ve said sad goodbyes
Heartbreaking , yes
Indeed, I almost die
Foolish I, dust in my eyes
Oh why, oh why
You’ve made me cry
Love blossoms and suddenly dies
I do, I do In sickness and health
For better or for worst
You got better
Truly, I feel the worst
Perhaps true love will come
The day you’ve said Goodbye…