Deja Vue

Its deja vue ive seen it before
Now you wanna be friends but nothing more.
I guess what we had ment jack squat
You think im handling it well but on the inside im not.
Smiling on the outside, but crying deep within,
they say that I will get over you but I really wanna know when
I was in love with you, but I wouldn’t say it
cause I blocked my heart so you couldn’t break it.
I felt in my heart it was you that I loved,
I felt in my soul it was you I could trust.
I opened my heart Still you tore it apart
I feel so stupid I feel so dumb
My hands are shaking my body is numb.
In my head I wonder what to do
but know this scotty im still in love with you.

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You see her in the hallway

You see her in the hallway
and all you do is stare
she skims you down like your prey
Approach her if you dare.
you think shes different cause she has black nails
you think “oh what a freakshow” for sure shes doomed to fail.
She does not wear her hair in curls
nor does she dress the same.
She does not wear diamonds and pearls
so now you think shes lame.
She does not wear little mini skirts
She does not wear high heels
She does not wear glitter belly shirts
So lame you make her feel
but does she care? Hell No She Doesn’t!!
Will she change? Hell No She Won’t.
So go ahead stop and stare
Shes a freakshow, but she doesn’t care.

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Everything im not

Im not a princess im not a queen
Im not your typiCAL everyday teen.
Im not a girly girl, and no I don’t like pink.
Im not a quiet girl I will tell you what I think.
Im not the smartest thing on the street
but that doesn’t mean I will fall head over feet.
Im not as pretty as the girl next door
Im not a slut im not a whore.
Im not anerexic so I guess that makes me fat?!!lol
but I don’t give a fuck if your offended by that.
Im happy with who Im and who I will continue to be.
Everybodys different, and well im just me.
Im not a fake ass girl, be myself is my plan
But everything im not,shows you everything Im!

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I cannot seem to let you go

What is it about you I don’t really know.
but whatever it is I cannot seem to let you go.
You cheated on me time & time again
but you’d come crawling back, and id forgive your sins
“I love you Brittany” but those words are just for show
I know your doing me wrong but I cannot seem to let you go.
I thought that you cared
I thought that I could trust you
I let my guard when I told you I loved you.
Who you really are is now the person I know
Even thought I hate you
I cannot seem to let you go.

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Im in love with you but you’ll never know it!

I see you in the hallway I throw you a glare
but in my heart I really really care!
I make fun of your clothes I make fun of your shoes
but in my heart I wish I had you!
I act like you’re a freak, and I call you names
but deep in my heart I know we’re the same
I say I hate you but you don’t even know
all those words are just for show!
you will never know how I really feel, cause Im too scared to show it!
Im in love with you but you will never know it!
it’s a quiet secret, waiting to be freed
I say I don’t WANT anyone but its you that I NEED!!
I guess that I will have to get over you
cause if I don’t I know that Im screwed!
cause I bottle it all inside and its my true feelings that I hide!
Its not like you will expect me for who I appear to be!
but I wish that you knew my true identity!
I wish that you would expect me for who I really am

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Life

Live life to the fullest, that’s what I say
cause you never know if today is your last day
Take a chance take a risk
everyday is a thrill, you don’t wanna miss!
Like the old saying “Lifes what you make it”
Seize a moment capture it, take it!
Do what you want do, as you may!
Think what you want, not what people say!
They’re themselves and so are you
Don’t be the same try something new!
Be yourself, stand out in the crowd
Lifes a book read it out loud!
Don’t have a label be who you are!
They’re the stage!…But you’re the star!!

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Words cannot describe this love I feel inside!

Words cannot describe this love I feel inside
When your lips touch mine everything else is fine
The moment we met, to you my heart flew
You caught I said its yours now take it
love it cherish it but please don’t break it
Im in love with you I cannot deny it
I want true love and you supply it
Words cannot describe this love I feel inside!

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The time is right

The time is right
to say goodnight
to this world Ive come to fear
This place filled with pain heartache and tears
Ive tried so hard to give it a try
but still in my heart I just wanna die
I pull the razor out of my pocket
My soul cries keep going don’t stop it
I put the razor to my wrist
so I can end this dark abyiss
as blood trickles down my arm
Im happy to say Ive done my self harm
Endurance pumps through my vains
I feel the rush not the pain
I lay in my bed and away goes the high
I think to myself why me god why?
Why do I live my life in such pain
All these feelings are driving me insane
I think about it day and night
Maybe just maybe the time might be right!!!!

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Empty Suicide

She sits in th corner
Pills cover the floor
She’s 15 years old and they call her a whore
they call her fat
they call her ugly
When she cries
they think its funny
they pushed her to the limit till one day she snapped
She took the bottle and opened the cap
she swallowed nine
hoping she’d die
Now her lifeless body lays on the floor
with a suicide note taped to the door
So think twice before you end up like her
and know that theres always something better in store!

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