Monthly Archives: March 2011

If time could stand still

In this moment

I would wish for you

If time could stand still

In this moment

I would only stare at you

Counting every feature of your face

Kissing every inch of you

Piece by piece I would examine you

And feel your soft lips

… Continue reading If time could stand still

Sadness crept inside my heart

My mind stood still

On one thought

I could not move

I could not speak

As the tears welled up in my eyes

And my mind wondered off

Trying to find a way out

Out of the sadness

Brought to my heart

I could not … Continue reading Your Silence

I wish I could express my love

In a thousand words

Just to you

Emotions are just to feel

Hundreds of them I have

But, I can hardly speak

When I see you

I show no emotion

Nor do I

Speak a word

Because all I can do

Is feel … Continue reading How much I love you

Taking chances is just the beginning

When you do not know the outcome yet

Daring the future

Playing with fate

You know it is fire

It might backfire

Hoping for the best

Taking chances

It is a bet

How the outcome may be

It is a chance you take

Hoping … Continue reading Taking a Chance

Reality is so cruel

It gives pain

Anger and restless nights

I wish my dream

Could come true

Reality is so strange

It gives pain, unhappiness  and hate

I wish my dream

Could take over now

Reality is filled with facts, hopelessness

And unchanging path

I wish my dream

Shared by two

… Continue reading Long to live my dream

Tried understanding your mind

When it was your heart speaking to me

Did not know it then

Took long for me to realize

The trueness in your words

Thought it was a game-

You played with me

Anger crept inside of me

Because I thought

It was a game

Now … Continue reading The Trueness In Your Words

I want to be with you now

In your arms

I want to stay

I want to stare into your eyes

And never look away

I want to be with you now

And feel your tender touch

I want to feel

The passion evolve

And the love so strong

I … Continue reading I want to be with you now

I am thinking of you

And the times we had

I see your face

You are smiling right at me

Your eyes

Filled with love

For me alone

How I wish

I could be in your arms

But, there you go

Once Again

You had to leave

And I have … Continue reading For Me Alone

Wherever I go I see your face

With every glance

I see your smile

Every star I count

I try to count your love

With every step I take

I feel your steps by mine

Side by side

You are in my mind

I smile only for you

You are … Continue reading You Are In My heart

It seems as if there were no worry in the world

As I see you there

Inside the sunshine alone-happy

But then I realize….

No one knows how worried you are

About tomorrow

Day by day you think what to do

And try to see the future

Ahead of you.

… Continue reading In The Sunshine

Why when I chose to make the only exception, it turned out to be so wrong? I had closed my heart for so long but you came along and without thinking twice I let you in. When I thought I was so over shit, so over love a glance of you … Continue reading You are my only Exception

What did I do?!?!

I fell for his trap

I let him know too much.

I wasn’t cautious

Like everyone told me to be.

I thought it would make things better,

But now everything is worse.

It’s causing all my headaches.

It also hurt my heart.

Is it true that … Continue reading He is my dad

You are in my heart

Now and forever

You are in my heart

I never thought

You meant so much

So much to me

I never thought

I’d miss you

As much

As much as I do now

I always thought

It was just

Just something

That was lost, found

… Continue reading Lost and Found

In my heart there is only you

I think of you day and night

Never do my thoughts cease

Thinking about you Even in my sleep

I say your name

I see your face

But when I go near

It all disappears

And my tears

They flow

For you alone

… Continue reading I think of you

I wish I could be with you

Wherever you go

I wish I could make all your dreams come true

And…

Wipe out every fear you have

I wish I could be there to take

All your sorrows and worries away

I wish I could dry your tears that you … Continue reading I love only you

Pleas tell me you love me

As much as I love you

Pleas tell me you need me

As I need you

Without you my heart will be

Scatterd on the floor in pieces

To me you are my world

A part of me

Time passes with you in my thoughts

… Continue reading I truly love you

I know you know not what to say

If one you believe you knew

Turns out to be a stranger

Words can not come to mind

And your heart turns to anger

One lie can turn the truth upside down

For how can one tell the truth from lies

Inside … Continue reading Know not what to say

He said he loved me.

He said I was beautiful.

He said I made him laugh.

I thought he was telling the truth.

I was wrong.

I fell hard,

But he wasn’t there to catch me.

I fell hard.

I didn’t break any bones.

I didn’t get any cuts.

What … Continue reading He hurt my heart

We travel these roads of life, roads that seem to never end, roads that the destination looks to be right around the corner, and roads leading us to greed and glory, roads of enemies, family, and trusting friends, and roads we get lost on and find our way back to … Continue reading Lifes roads

As the gates of heaven open, I stop to think, this can’t be right, this can’t be the end, the lord won’t let me in for all wrong I have done.

When I turn to walk away I hear the voices of my lost love ones calling out to me … Continue reading Heavens gates

Your favorite smell is apricot

You want to relive the day that we got caught

Cuddling under the tallest apple tree

You hate the snow but love the rain

You tore through my heart like a hurricane

&& NOBODY KNOWS IT BUT ME

You hate the fact that you can’t … Continue reading && Nobody Knows It But Me

In a world of dreams I stand

I stand to see

To see if I can, but

when I come near it and reach

It’s taken away

Like wind

Blowing past me.

I do not know how to express

How to express my feelings though

In a world of dreams … Continue reading To Dream

I never really knew you. Time passed so fast. I never really got to spend my time, with you. I made a mistake that I thought you’d be around… For some time more. When I realized it, it was too late. You were gone, You left me and passed on. … Continue reading You Left Me And Passed On

Don’t be fooled by the mood The mood that shows harshness Growling Frowning Don’t be fooled by the mood The mood that shows integrity Bound to be found Bound to the ground Never to be seen Real…Fooling Because it always shows opposition Don’t be fooled by the mood The mood … Continue reading Do not Be Fooled By The Mood

They wonder why I cry Why I keep myself away Away from them Locked into myself Deep inside they know the truth But they are too ashamed Afraid Afraid of what may be If truth is revealed I can’t call them my own No trust is there in me For … Continue reading They Wonder Why

It hurts in my heart to know that you can never love me. I wish I could end the pain, but I can’t escape from the life I live here on earth. I want to die but would you really miss me, would you care if I was gone? I … Continue reading May you find true happiness I once felt

I am broken inside I am torn apart You said you would never leave my side but now you turned against me and didn’t even say a proper goodbye you think you know the truth but you know not you know not how I stood up for you to the … Continue reading I cannot believe this reality

Fool! I said to myself

But my heart keeps on hurting

Is it because of? the feeling of constant rejection?

Or the illusion of love that has gone…

Maybe I’m dancing with sorrow right now,

But still…. I know and I am hoping that tomorrow…

Or the next day… I’ll … Continue reading The Unnamed Feeling

Love Me for Who I am

Why are you trying to see what is inside of me,

Love Me for Who I am

If you look and listen then it would be easy for you to see.

Love Me for Who I am

I hope that you see that everyone … Continue reading Love Me for Who I am

I look up

I see my reflection

I’m not going to give up

Come on

Open up

I don’t want to fail

Give all my strength to believe

I can do it

Just don’t think negative

Please love me

Tell me that I will make it

I give faith

I … Continue reading Dreaming, Wishing, Hoping

Free of life

Free of lies

Free of pain

Free of everything

But it’s just a dream I always  wish

No one to see me

No one knows

No one matters

As I cry alone silently

Leaving myself in the darkness

In the world that’s cold

Giving up hope

Dreaming … Continue reading Alone I Stand

What’s the point of life?

When it doesn’t make sense.

Why do we live.

If all we do is die?

What’s the point anymore?

I’m so bored with this circle we’re in.

I try my best in everything.

It’s never good enough.

I try in school.

It’s never good enough.

I try at home.

It’s never good enough.

I try in life.

I’m not enough.

:'(

I fell in love with the first hello, I cried when you said goodbye,

I tried so hard to get you back. I began to realize you would not be back.

I cried for days and that’s the truth, I thought that I could deal with you,

I figured out that … Continue reading It was only a dream <3

As you hold me close, don’t let me go,

don’t leave my side, your in my mind,

kissing those sweet soft lips,

and wanting more and more,

I thought that it was just a crush,

but it has become more than that,

I think it is love, some how it … Continue reading I think it is love

Close your eyes Don’t stare at me ‘Coz I don’t wanna see The pain you have The emotions you feel When you stare at me And know that it can’t be The bond we share Is meant to stay As it is now And never developed…Into something real I don’t … Continue reading Do not stare at me

3 / 5 ( 1 vote )

Do you care?

Because it seems like you don’t.

I used to think we were inseparable.

Then you went and deceived me.

So I must ask,

Do you even care anymore?

You act like you don’t.

You don’t tell me things that are … Continue reading Do You Even Care?

5 / 5 ( 1 vote )

Behind this smile, are infinite words  that wait to be spoken

behind this smile, is a prayer that wished to be heard

behind this smile, is a burning desire to be with you

behind this  smile, is a silent whisper to your heart … Continue reading Behind this smile

5 / 5 ( 1 vote ) Christmas is coming again, The seasons filled with joy, Santa leaves presents for good little girls and boys The family goes to get a Christmas tree, Everyone that is, Except for me, It’s a family tradition, But that’s come to pass, I sit … Continue reading Christmas

I thought I had a friend,

Someone who truly cared.

She lied and gossiped and ruined my day

I thought that she cared.

Whoever planted that rumor

Was a stinking lying cheat.

I think it was the same girl

Who this poem is about.

She’s a snake in the grass.

… Continue reading Poser

Have you got no heart No feeling nor shame Have you not ever thought…..Of the pain? The pain you give to others The shame you bring to them The unentles wounds you cause Which can never truly heal They stay as they were brought by you….to my heart They catch hold … Continue reading NO HEART

5 / 5 ( 2 votes )

I feel like we’re drifting.

Like you aren’t even listening.

I feel like it’s impossible.

Like our relationship is toss-able.

I feel like you don’t care.

Like what was, isn’t there.

I feel like we’re drifting.

Our relationship is shifting.

I feel so alone.

… Continue reading D r i f t i n g

Am I that ugly?

Am I that undesirable?

Am I that unfortunate when it comes to love?

Does the time of having someone who could accept me for being me will ever come?

Am I ever going to meet that person?

Does the hurt that I am feeling right now … Continue reading I am hurting

I’ve been lonely for a long time And I can’t remember when I ever had a feeling That lasted till no end I’ve had a miserable life With memories that haunt me I’ve been the one in all the jokes and pranks I’ve been in and out of groups Trying to find myself But … Continue reading I have been lonely

Who can it be The perfect guy Where will I find him The perfect guy Tall and skinny Blue or brown eyes What will he look like The perfect guy Stars in the sky Or sun shining above When will I meet him The perfect guy I bumped into him Outside in the … Continue reading The Perfect Guy

5 / 5 ( 1 vote ) Why bother with life When all you get is pain Nothing good ever happens It’s all the same People breaking your heart But then you wonder why Why do you even care Why do you always cry People say things Just to get … Continue reading Depression

Cold-blooded killer you’ve become, drenched in my blood you gaze at what you’ve done.

I lie before you, stricken with sorrowful cries of despair. I beg you to help me, to stop and leave me be!

Whatever happened to the love of my life? Whatever happened to “I love you more … Continue reading I’m going to miss you

Laughter is the joy of our lives.

Without laughter the world would be dull.

Your friends make you laugh.

Your family makes you laugh.

Laughter is all around us.

Just laughing once can make your day.

It sure makes mine.

You always need someone to make you laugh.

Sitting on my bed I look outdoors See the snow falling And hope there’s a snowstorm I jump outta bed And run outside Put my face in the air And let the time pass by I wish you were here So we could play in the snow Just you and me So I could let … Continue reading I wish you were here

Do you ever wonder What it’s like To think your ugly Day and night To have your self esteem Way down low To think nobody will ever like you To like someone But think later on Are they interested in me Or not at all To talk to them And … Continue reading Do you ever wonder?

To be happy means taking away my pain, from the day I saw you…you’ve caused my tears to rain. You started some shit of an emotional hell, sometimes I know I will never be well. You scream and you yell and I cry and I feel torn, sometimes I wish … Continue reading Pain

Love is so great!

Whether you find new love

Or ignite an old flame.

Love is wonderful!

The sparkly feeling in your chest that feels like a butterfly

is stuck in your heart!

I love love!

It breaks open into your life!

Once you’ve felt love,

You’ll do anything,

Go anywhere,

Be anyone,

… Continue reading I love love!

I thought I lost you forever,

but we still had that click.

I know I made a mistake.

Well, so did you.

It’s great to have you back.

I won’t let this happen again.

I just got you back.

I now know that it’s love.

For both of us.

No … Continue reading We Both Won In The End

Hands are for helping Hands are to hold Hands are always there for you Young or old Hands can be comforting Hands can be pain Hands can be great friends Or not even have a name Hands can be big Or hands can be small Hands can be romantic Or … Continue reading Hands

People make mistakes And I know But what I do It’s just for show The messes I have I know who to blame The only one Who controls my ways I don’t do much But when I do It always ends With an argument Between me and you I say Im sorry All the time But never … Continue reading Apology

In a different country In a different land Someone is crying And no help from another hand I feel their misery, I feel their pain, I wish I could do something, Even though I don’t know their names, Stop your crying Dear friend of mine, I’ll be your heart, soul, and mind, We don’t know each other, … Continue reading A helping hand

Some days are good Other days…. not so well Sometimes I hide how I feel And no one can ever tell I hate how I feel When ever I think of you But every time you flirt with someone I just don’t know what to do I had a misunderstanding … Continue reading Doubts

What do you do, When so called friends, Are the ones who hurt you. What do you do, When you’re the one, That the guy you like is all over, But your friends aren’t there when he is. What do you do, When you just want to cry. What do … Continue reading Confusion

It’s people like you,

That drive me insane.

That make me punch and scream,

And cause myself pain.

Im just a hormonal teenager,

With a life full of doubts,

That’s where the knife comes in.

I slice up and down,

And in and out.

All there is, is drama,

And many … Continue reading Drama

Someday I’ll find my way to you

But it’s just a fact if I see you

Someday I might be dreaming

Someday I might be thinking

Reaching out to you

Reaching to my heart

What do I desire most?

What do I want?

Most important of all

I want you … Continue reading I just want to say, I love you.

This is a world of darkness

Yet, it is a world of brightness.

People wonder in days

Animals look for months

I am here walking on my own

I am here to find my path

Where do I go?

Where do I stay?

Is there something I called home?

Is … Continue reading Lost

A guy that I used to hate,

Has a crush on me.

When I broke up with my boyfriend,

He took the chance to ask me out.

I didn’t know what to do.

If I said yes,

I would be called a sl*t,

For moving on so fast.

I thought … Continue reading Give Him A Chance

Someone told me you were trouble,

told me to walk away with my head held high.

I didn’t want to listen because I thought they were wrong,

I thought I knew you better than anyone.

I didn’t want to believe in the reality that was happening,

I was stuck in … Continue reading Love dreamer

He fell for the way she made him feel as if he could do anything,

He loved the way he could do anything with her by his side.

Now she’s gone; he feels like he is useless.

He used to love to stare into her deep blue eyes,

He used to love the way she stared into his,

… Continue reading Young love

Maybe the thought of having someone

who could accept me for being me

made me fall in this abyss of pain and sorrow

I know I can get through this excruciating pain

and God will lift all the hurt

Time will heal all the bruises of my … Continue reading Healing

On a beach In the sun In the rain Or in the snow I’ll always have your hand And I want you to know Im not the kind of girl Who will use you Im not the kind of girl That will cheat If you want to be just friends That’s … Continue reading I want you to know

Foggy distraction cripples my footpath Fresh scars I’m drowning in their bloodbath Deep terrible pain, it’s almost unbearable The curse you had caused is non-repairable Your sweet poison is my absolute redemption Your charming eyes are my ultimate addiction

Hear the sound of my heart as it’s breaking down Read … Continue reading Descended Wish

I’m lost in the crowd With nowhere to go Some days are dreary And I just want it to storm People say things behind my back People say things to my face Whether it’s nice Whether it’s mean People just say it so they can feel free People judge me for … Continue reading Nobody Knows

I was lonely.

Had very few friends.

None of them understood my life.

They would either scold me,

Or walk away.

Even without a goodbye.

I met two people,

who now mean the world to me.

I am proud to call them my friends!

They understand me.

They will always … Continue reading Friends Who Finally Understand

Light seeps beneath my wings that give plight to the heavens above…

blessings to move on, reach high above my head and reach the stars.

I’m not beneath you nor are you

but you seem to have chosen your fate…

it’s neither my nor your love

it’s only God who … Continue reading Light

It was the right thing to do.

I was getting hurt.

We may be hurt,

But it’s ok.

We will be alright.

We both cried.

I broke your heart.

It was you or me.

You abused me.

You blackmailed me.

If you want me back you have to change.

I … Continue reading Letting Go

Love spins. Emotions change. I know you may not love me, but that’s not important. Loving isn’t about being in a relationship, kissing or hugging. Loving is about caring. If you care then you love. It’s important to remember the good times and forget the bad. In order to survive … Continue reading Caring

Snow, you make the nature so pure; Blanketing the world, you seem so sure. Everywhere you go, you come with the cold, Yet you drift in the wind carelessly, so.

You are now gone with the wind, will never return, you had left forever but don’t forget that life is clever, we will still be close somehow, near my heart you stand, with me here until the end.

I remember the time when you were called dragon because you ate … Continue reading Somewhere special called My heart

They’re noticing my sadness, the hurt and the pain. They keep asking questions! Just leave me alone! I don’t wanna talk. I’m keeping it inside. I don’t care if I shouldn’t. I can’t help it. No one needs to know. No one will care. No one will ever care! Just … Continue reading Leave Me Alone!

My life is falling apart. Where did all the good things go? I’m losing my love. Who can help me? I help everyone. They say I understand. Where is my help? Who understands me? I have lost some friends. Soon they will all be gone. I will be all alone. … Continue reading They are All Gone

When I’m near you, you make me laugh about the small things! You are my cat loving, Irish-Brit. You smile and make stupid jokes that make me laugh through the dumbness. You let me mess up your hair and hug you tight. I feel like a better person when you … Continue reading Pennys

3.5 / 5 ( 2 votes )

Memories of my past were so cruelly hunting me… some nights I used to sit alone.. he was sleeping so peacefully by my side And I loved to sit beside, watching him… that presence was more than enough for me.. then I would … Continue reading Angels love

Their love can’t always be there, no matter how hard they try. Sometimes you need something or someone to keep you occupied. They will always come back. Don’t let it break your heart. Just remember they will return. I’m sorry I can’t do much. You just need to wait, but … Continue reading Love Lost

All the people in the world love you; you’re so great! Your hair of brown that’s curled Your smile is top rate! I’m proud to call you friend; I hope our friendship won’t ever end. This is an ode to Kat, And let’s just end it like that.

3 / 5 ( 2 votes )

Leave me alone. I don’t deserve attention. I’m a nobody. Alone, forget me. So, why do I get weird looks? If I just don’t belong. If I’m not worth the trouble. If I’m really just a nobody. Can’t you tell I’m hiding? From … Continue reading ATTENTION BULLIES! This is how you make me feel.

How come you lie? How come I’m not a spy? How come when you leave I cry? How come people don’t fly? How come people die? How come I have an eye? How come it doesn’t seem like we try? How come I can’t tie a tie? How come I … Continue reading How come?

What do you do when there’s nothing left to take? & what should you do when your feeling’s gone away? & what should you say when there are words left unspoken and what could you do when your heart’s completely broken? I need to know what’s left to do when … Continue reading What is left to do when he is gone

Hollow dreams, broken memories, silenced cries for help… my skin is cold, my lips dry, my mind draws blanks over and over again. I lay there beneath the light of the stars and the moon. I gaze beyond the darkness waiting, waiting, just waiting for someone to realize that I’m … Continue reading Silenced

My love lies alone. Broken Sitting in its regrets of unforgotten sorrow Depressed. My heart is locked. Nobody is here to unlock the world of an undefined soul. Alone Walking in this world of forbidden freedom Walking in the world of stress. Water bleeds from my eyes. Blood drips from … Continue reading Nothing can save me

Trapped in a forbidden relationship Trying your best to escape this emotional hell Being someone you aren’t to please the blind, lonely idiot you call your lover. But, you can’t leave. That idiot holds the key to your freedom. Im a caged animal with no chances of being free. Only … Continue reading Trapped in a forbidden relationship

He says that he loves me. Every day! He tells me he needs me. What do I say? I tell him I love him, I need him forever. We both know this won’t last. We tell each other we will be forever. We know we won’t. We live in the … Continue reading Is he the one?

It was because of you, I woke up terrified to go to school. It was because of you, I never said anything out of line. It was because of you, I never had a real friend. It was because of you, I never knew my true self. It was because … Continue reading It was because of you

5 / 5 ( 1 vote )

Don’t wake me up im dreaming about her Don’t touch my heart its beating for her Don’t talk to me my ears are listening to her

Lost in her world and I don’t wanna escape paradise Trapped in her maze and I adore … Continue reading Delighted Darkness