Monthly Archives: January 2011

I’m not a person anymore Who can dig me out? It’s not worth wondering Because i’ll survive Surviving your illness That’s shuns onto my brain It hurts and it hurts again Everything around me No one can see Except for you and I I see the matrix and not you … Continue reading Conviction? or not?

Ever wondered to be free from everyone alone at midnight under the stars rain starts falling under the full moon hoping to never leave Changed everything as it seems For once you get the taste of …….. Midnight

Despair everywhere Horrifying dreams left to spare Watch others despite you Hoping there would come a new One thing left in thought Why me? Why must others hate me? Where is that key? Key to happiness and joy Why must it hide from me I’m no threat It should be … Continue reading Why me?

Pain.. It is something I do not take lightly. It breaks and tears, and teases and touches, Not delicate but forceful and aggressive. It tears at me, always laughing at me. Mocking my cries while I slowly start breaking. Pain.. You are better than nothing I’d rather have you than … Continue reading Pain, You are better than nothing

Never fall for someone who isn’t willing to catch you. The only thing it’s going to do is break your heart into pieces. I learned that the hard way. I fell in for you, my good friend. Crush my soul, why don’t you? Now not only am I heart broken, … Continue reading Never Fall

My heart pours out, My emotions spilled about.

My heart and tears, it never mirrors.

Why don’t you feel the same? The same emotions never came.

How can I care about you, when you can’t care too?

It’s only me, why can’t you see I’m not immature like I used … Continue reading See No Emotions

my poems are mainly a mixture of my own emotions whith that of a friend.just wanne say to u cj cutting urself for them aint worth it but i know ur pain and wount leave ur side

Hiding behind the shadow of the blackest of your clothes Thinking so deep You get lost In your own thought The thought of tender pain eased by the blood oozing out You can not handle the pain inside It drives you crazy It hurts so deep So much And they … Continue reading Hidden Pain

The tears they flow Hidden from the world that they don’t know They see me smiling happily laughing at their jokes And joking about their sarcasm Hidden from them that they don’t know My tears My loneliness My pain My fear Hidden from them They don’t know How I feel … Continue reading Inside I feel alone

Have you cried and cried? Felt the torment inside? With your heart thrown against the wall? But the tears are failing to fall? There are Angels by your side, Catching those tears you haven’t cried. For those tears are worth much more than you know! If used for cries of … Continue reading Save your tears!

Her the girl that loves you, her the girl that needs you, her the girl that wishes you will accept her the way she is, her the one that cries all the times, her the one who dreams about you every night, her the one who wishes to be yours, her … Continue reading Her the girl

Life is like a rose which comes out as a bud…….. it blossoms and spreads its fragrance and glory. Sun shines and rain showers but it stands there, bearing and overcoming………… Many seasons pass by; many wind touches by. But like the flowers of lovers, It stands high…… The time … Continue reading Life is like a rose

The girl you’ve always wanted is the girl I try to be I mold and shape and pray and wish, but that’s just not me I try to forgive and be loving, but it’s just so hard you say it shouldn’t be a challenge, but I, you see, am emotionally … Continue reading The girl you have always wanted

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When looking through my book of life, I can really understand…the reasons many things went wrong, all came to me first-hand.

It started at the age of 9, at a time my eyes were very blind…my Mom & Dad had lots of friends, … Continue reading Behind A Wall

We’re like the thorns on the roses we’ve always been lies and false hopes but I love you and I always have you’re that little text that makes me smile two minutes later, another that ruined my day but I love you and I always have you kiss my lips … Continue reading You and I

I saw you, I liked you, then I fell in love with you, this is how it started, I thought you were perfect, and i’ll have no regrets, I didn’t expect that you didn’t have any respect, and I won’t accept a guy like you, who put me through, pain … Continue reading My Lil Toy Gun

Feeling like My feet aren’t touching The ground Feeling like The world is moving Forward Without a sound I’m here But I’m not Memories from long ago Dare and try To knock me Onto the ground Time is moving Forward I feel so lost Wishing I could Remember Without the … Continue reading Not Really Here

Winter has come & already I want it gone, tears keep going on & on, trying to give up on my stupid life, can’t see the reason to live, not tonight, As I looked up at the moon I knew that soon I wouldn’t be here, so I will try … Continue reading The words left unspoken

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I pray that we can make it through each day, We just might have to throw all the stress away, Going down the path of love, Up ahead there’s us above, Nothing more than the power of hate, Can take my mate and … Continue reading Power of love

I can’t take this hate, pain, heartache, and loneliness. I want to show who I really am. Instead I pretend to be happy even if I’m not. I’m numbing the pain just to hide it to everyone. I feel so much hate Everyday I live Hate Me! No one ask … Continue reading HATE ME

Institutionalised and working nine to five. No time- we live by day by day stresses, Poverty and governmental blunders still rife.

With latest youth schemes that are just a fad. The normal are struggling to get by, The rich bankers, getting richer, still bitter and sad.

A back to front … Continue reading Todays world?

I wrote this for a close friend having relationship issues. I also tried to open her eyes to reality, too many people hurt her. inspirational advise givin.

Love is still just a word, slightly overused I have a late curfew but that privilege gets abused sometimes it’s cool just to kick it but I like to party I get clowned for my intelligence, they always call me “Smarty” I want to grow up and leave this small … Continue reading I want to leave this small town

Your lack of compassion for others is evident now your facade is crumbling, better find someone new to copy, to befriend, to tell them your secrets and talk about how I moved on because I’m such a bad person, and my personality sucks, and yeah that’s true. But dude, it’s whatever … Continue reading You do not deserve friendship

For which once was placed in thin air, Easy grabbing for someone to bear! Was placed in glass, easy to break, Just pick it up, yours to take! Now is chained in a lockbox made of steel, …Needing a locksmith’s tools or key to feel! It is encased in … Continue reading Access to my heart!

As a floater I will fly gracefully and so free But Hoping and praying someone will take hold of me.. As a window with my curtains pulled opened wide I sit patiently for someone to look inside! As a tree growing with my roots planted strong …Honest, Loyal and … Continue reading If you want me!

This is written for a Poetry Contest with the topic: what is the meaning of True Love to me.

At times in a relationship not everything goes perfect, But also at times it’s realized that it is worth it. These are the times when our hearts are full of love and yearning, It also causes us to live together and go through life learning. When we know that these … Continue reading Love, A Great Vision of Art

Blues skies turn to gray, all my wishes gone away, you’re with her & Im alone, wishing that you will pick up the phone, all my messages you ignore, not a hey when I walk by, no more flowers, cards, & gifts you forgot completely about me, & it hurts … Continue reading I want you back

My mom had told me from a start to let you go, to take a break, and walk away from you, I didn’t wanna listen ’cause I thought she was wrong, I didn’t want to believe in reality, I wanted to keep dreaming in my own fairytale, where it was … Continue reading Wish to be whom I used to be </3

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Love is like a window from which I peer! My heart longs for what now is a fear! Everything is so beautiful from where I stand! But will it provide my soul with its demand! I can open the window and let love … Continue reading Window Pain!

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Apologies mean nothing because I mean nothing to you your friendship was fake, we’re so thru I hate you for believing the lies I hate that you never take my side you don’t ask how I feel you say I’m not real but … Continue reading Apologies Mean Nothing

A little prayer I say today for god to take my life away to end this misery I live each day to give me a blissful end to this pain every night as I lay awake the disease inside me starts to quake in my misery I go away a … Continue reading End this pain

If I didn’t love you would it make a difference? what happened to us now? my love for you has grown fonder of the way you look at me. my fears are gone by your touch. when you hold me, i’m at peace. the love we share shines bright as … Continue reading If I did not love you

I’m gonna draw a picture, one with a twist Done with a razor and on my wrist First, it will start off with a small line Which will be made into a plus sign Then I’ll draw a heart with a dash To show he’s just a piece of trash … Continue reading Death Of A Poor Soul

My eyes burn with exhaustion. Even in this haze of Prozac and cheap liquor, the thought of you won’t leave my mind. You’re driving me crazy; why did I leave you?

Love? Love. I have killed love, By not having you in my life.

You are all I think about. … Continue reading Taran

You wanted me We were happy everything we could be we took that last step that one last move you changed your mind and left me behind

Don’t you think I was too young too young to be messed with you tricked me you played your 17 year old game … Continue reading I want you

Wishing for answers to questions that I may never know i’ve always struggled when it comes to letting go I searched so long for mutuality, something I can’t find in you why keep wishing on stars, if those wishes don’t come true I have a simple question i’d like you … Continue reading Parting words

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Forever is today, today is all we have so I regret nothing and take nothing back I give life what i’ve got, the same is true with love and I believe in peace, olive branches and doves I believe in myself so others … Continue reading Life is short

Let’s just take our chances watch the ocean as it dances climb the mountain ranges embrace the forest as it changes all I ever want to do is spend every waking minute with you eating chocolate chip icecream and bagels talking as long as we are able until I have to fall … Continue reading Chocolate Chip Icecream and Bagels

Im so glad you’re back in my life you said sorry and I just could not walk away from you I love you too much to do that … everyone deserves second chances so I gave you your second chance … I hope you don’t ruin it ?

My Life is My Heart and My Soul, My Life, It’s Short! My Heart grows old! My Soul is a gaping hole! My Spirit is My Mind, and Body! …My spirit is lost! My Mind tells lies! My Body Trembles and cries! My Future is Fate and My Decision! My … Continue reading Find someone dear

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You’re A Beautiful treasure That I’m glad I could find Because you’re a girl That’s one of a kind You’re the one that makes my heart sing you’re more beautiful than dream You will always be my queen That will never change I … Continue reading Be mine

Wishful thinking kept me drinking saw me sinking HELP stupid lies make me cry no surprise USED TO IT awful feeling heart WAS healing left here kneeling WHY still bleeding on the floor doesn’t matter anymore why is love such a bore? YAWN same old routine say what you mean … Continue reading Nowhere Near Done

You’re everything I’ve waited for, but nothing I’ll ever have Everything that I could need and it’s just too bad I want you to stop being scared, but I am scared too At least tell me why I keep coming back to you

Too much. Too fast. Too soon. Won’t … Continue reading Too Much Too Fast

False hope and force fed lies When will I ever open my eyes? Is it because I’m lonely? Or because I’m broken? When will I stop leaving my heart wide open?

When will you stop leading me on? I try so hard and then you’re gone. You make me believe … Continue reading Alone Again

Why did I have to meet you? I wish I never had. How could I fall in love? I knew it would end bad. So many words I should scream in your face. Too far away; Love was a chase.

So many emotions, can’t focus on one. Wishing, pointlessly, that … Continue reading Atrophy

You build me up to break me down I just wanted you around Against their word, against all odds I pray you’ll keep me in your thoughts

Now I break free; Release me

Close your eyes, now soundly sleep Hold close the secrets that you keep A losing hand, we … Continue reading Release

You seem to have it figured out But I can’t tell what you’re about If I go on word of mouth I’m sure that I’d be missing out

You must practice new, exciting ways To be the highlight of my day Can’t you see that I am completely hooked on … Continue reading But I Am Just Another Girl