Courtney Elizabeth Wilson | Free Poems
- the rhyme poems life
- lengthy suicide poems
- deep farewell poems
- goog bye
- rip friend poems
- ill paint these walls a new shade of red
- love is pain
- suicidal poems short
- good bye cries
- love poems/quotes
- Free you hurt me poems
- love quotes and poems for the one you love
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- poem for someone you miss
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- he broke my heart poem
- love is depressing
- u hurt me so much
- love photo
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- sweet rhyming poems
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- love make me hurt
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- good bye
- rhyme poem
- sorry poem
- long suicide poems
- short suicidal poems
- short life poems that rhyme
- rhyming poems about loneliness
- suicide poetry
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- goodbuy poems
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Red (Revised)
I’ll shoot a loaded gun,
Into my head,
As I paint these walls,
A new shade of red.
I’ll take a shot,
The one thing ending me,
I want you to know,
It’s you I’ll see.
Good-bye,
It’s just a simple ending,
Until the moment,
Hello, is no longer the beginning.
Life, there is no point,
Without you,
The last thing I hear,
One. loud. BOOM.
I believe it’s my fault,
I don’t truly know why,
I gave you my whole heart,
As I sit here and cry.
Tears are never-ending,
I don’t want this anymore,
I’m finished with living,
Yet I’m not quite sure.
We’re only sixteen,
Love isn’t real,
You told me,
That’s how you feel.
I’m not suicidal,
Too afraid to commit,
Yet, as I listen to our song,
I’m wondering if I’ll do it.
Through these tears,
One thing I clearly remember,
The words you used to say,
I’ll be yours, always and forever.
What happened to us?
What went wrong?
Why am I left crying?
While you moved along?
Death sounds so tempting,
I can’t begin to deal,
It seems like an answer,
Leaving no more pain to feel.
Everything’s so different,
No emotions, just so much pain,
Thoughts all begin with just words,
Actions become red falling rain.
Please, stop me from going away,
If you don’t, When I’m all alone,
I’m so…sorry,
You’re left on your own.
Now it’s time for my good-bye,
As red covers the purple and blue,
I never knew that losing love,
Would make me want to die for you.
But in reality,
I’m lying on the floor,
Barely able to breathe,
Looking for something to live for.
The hardest thing to do.
When you can’t live from day to day,
Is not pulling that trigger,
And choosing to stay.
THREE MONTHS OF PAIN AND DARKNESS
It hit me…HARD,
I didn’t want to deal with it,
I wanted everything back to the way it was before,
The heartbreak was KILLING me,
I imagined myself writing a letter to him,
I imagined sealing the letter in an envelope,
Writing his name across it in fancy letters.
With “I’m Sorry” written underneath,
I imagined kissing that letter one last time,
Placing it on the desk in front Of the TV,
I imagined picking up the pistol,
Loading it with the bullet,
I had previously carved his name into,
I would then record on video,
Saying my last ever words which would go something like this:
“I love you,
with everything I have,
With every single thing I had. Remember when you said we were too young to fall in love?
I think you were talking about yourself. I think that you were the one,
that wasn’t and isn’t ready for love.
No one’s too young for love,
At least if that’s what you’ve been wishing for,
Your whole life, like me.
I didn’t know how to act in a relationship,
But I do know one thing,
I’d do anything for you,
Even now.
This is the reason why,
I’m doing this,
I can’t take this heartbreak and depression,
I’ve been feeling without you.
I can’t take loving you this much,
Without being by your side.
I refuse to keep missing you
Not like this,
It hurts too much,
I have tried to get over you,
Tried my best to think,
No, I don’t care about you.
Done my best to try,
Not LOVE you so damn much!
But all in vain,
My memory is too vivid,
I still have every single,
Damn memory of us stuck in my heart, In my head,
They won’t leave,
A constant reminder of what WAS,
I just can’t deal with this anymore, I’m saying good-bye,
I’m so so sorry for still loving you,
While you didn’t feel the same.”
I imagined myself taking the gun, Putting it to my broken heart,
And hearing two last sounds…
“Click, boom”
I didn’t want to imagine what would happen,
After I was found,
The only thing I did think,
Maybe…just maybe,
He’d realize a little too late,
That he loved me,
And regret,
Breaking my heart.
Fuck Love <\3
I’m losing myself,
Completely broken and destroyed,
Somebody kill me,
This pain is becoming a void.
It is my fault,
I ruined everything,
I understand,
I revealed flaws that I should’ve been burying.
If I wasn’t so f*cked up,
You’d still be mine,
I told you things,
That crossed the line.
We became too close,
That’s what you said,
F*ck your lies,
Kill me dead.
You said,
I don’t feel the same,
I cried out three words,
All in vain.
You said forever,
I believed what I’d heard,
You said I love you,
I believed every word.
I messed up,
Gave you my heart,
I believed forever,
From the very start.
Words. . .just. . .words,
They tell me,
It was never,
Really meant to be.
Pray. . . ask. . . no pain,
I want it how it should’ve been,
Can’t we please. . . please?
Just try again?
I’m crying,
Stuck breathless on the floor,
Every sweet memory,
Left me wishing for more.
What could’ve happened,
To you. . .To us?
Why are you okay?
Yet, I’m hurt so much?
A couple shots,
Get me through,
But when I’m sober,
My hearts on you.
All this pain,
Will it ever go away?
All this emptiness,
I need you. . . please stay.
You said we’re too young,
I only mumbled one reply,
I won’t stop loving you,
Til the day I die.
This I know now,
You were my best mistake,
The pain you gave me,
My only true heartache.
I cannot let go,
Will never forget,
You were mine once,
And will be again.
Red
I’ll point a gun,
At my head,
As I Paint these walls,
A new shade of red.
I’ll take a shot,
Ending me,
Then you’ll know,
It’s you I’ll see.
Good-bye,
A simple word,
It means nothing,
Until, it’s the last you’ve heard.
Life, there is no point,
Without you,
The last thing I hear,
One. loud. BOOM.
I feel like it’s my fault,
I don’t understand,
At least when I’m gone,
You’ll know where we stand.
Tears are never-ending,
I don’t want this anymore,
I’m done with living,
But I’m not quite sure.
We’re only sixteen,
Love isn’t real,
You told me,
That’s how you feel.
I’m not suicidal,
Too afraid to commit,
Yet, at this moment,
I’m scared I’ll do it.
Through these tears,
One thing I clearly remember,
The words you used to say,
I’ll be yours, always and forever.
What happened to us?
What went wrong?
Why am I left crying?
While you moved along?
Death sounds so tempting,
I can’t deal,
It is my only option,
Then no more pain to feel.
There’s something wrong,
no feelings at all,
Today, I need somebody,
Please, stop me from this fall.
If you don’t,
When I’m all alone,
Im sorry my love,
You’re on your own.
So now it’s good-bye,
As red covers the wall,
Just know,
That you were my downfall.
But in reality,
I’m lying on the floor,
Barely able to breathe,
Looking for something to live for.
The hardest thing to do.
When you can’t live from day to day,
Is not pulling that trigger,
And choosing to stay.
Why You?
You made me fall for you,
I believed your lies,
You made me hurt inside,
I fell for your disguise.
I blame you,
For every mistake,
I blame you,
For every fake.
It was my fault,
For leading you on,
It was your fault,
For believing my con.
Wishing there was more,
Hurting so badly,
Wishing it was you,
Hurting for me.
Why can’t you care?
You shattered me,
Why don’t you try,
Why can’t you see?
I didn’t want you,
You weren’t mine,
I didn’t need you,
You crossed that line.
You took something special,
Yet don’t care,
You took my innocence,
I didn’t want you there.
I try hating you,
My heart breaks,
I try forgetting you,
My body shakes.
Questions surround me,
What did I do?
Sadness envelopes me,
Why was it you?