Devil in my mind, motherhood in my heart.
Your name I had already chose…
Rage is what I feel at moment
I failed!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes I am repeating I failed!!!!!!!!!
Don’t tear it down, what’s left of me.
Making my heart a better place, trying to smile more often
Those are just a disguise, a mask that I hide under
In you, I’m still tangled up
I dreamed about your first smile, your first word…
My joy, you were supposed to be, between all these sorrows and heartaches
But I didn’t know how to stand up for you
Am I cursed for being too weak at times?
I missed out on you!!!!!!!!
My unborn child
How would you look?
Would you have your mommy’s full lips?
or your daddy’s large smile?
All are mysteries now…
I wish I had the strength
The power of forgetting and letting go…
but hey I guess I have to live with it
And feel lucky that I am still breathing…
Courage I still need…
dignity I am still fighting for…
but I will find my way…
If I am lucky enough my way I will definitely find…
It was so touching and heartwarming… I almost had tears in my eyes… My heart skipped a beat when I was reading through the lines… Motherhood such a blessed thing in this world. Respect to you for letting out such beautiful words through this poem!
thank you. glad you like it