I’m Not Sorry!

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Im sorry I failed you, if thats what I did.

Im sorry I wasn’t good enough to help you.

Im sorry your problems beat my own.

Im sorry I have a temper.

Im sorry I’m a human being, with feelings of my own.

If you can’t accept my apology, I won’t bother with you anymore.

You left me alone, brokenhearted, staring at your retreating figure.

I’m lonely without you, yet I’m relieved.

Relieved to ease some of the burden on my shoulder.

I have suicidal thoughts.

Yes, because of you I think of committing suicide.

Because of you, I’m more depressed than not.

Because of you, my own friends pity me.

Because of you, I have a therapist, because my life is a living hell.

I thank you for the pain you put me through.

It’s made me stronger, less gullible to your lies.

I can’t believe that you had the nerve to lie to me, after all this time.

It hurts me to admit, that I’ll most likely forgive you by the end of the day.

But it’s true, I can’t fully hate you.

Yes, there are moments, but not all the time.

You don’t know any of this, and I doubt you’d care.

You know what? I’m not sorry.

But honestly? I miss you.

But I’m NEVER coming back to you, you heartbreaker.

And that is all you need to know.

12 thoughts on “I’m Not Sorry!”

  1. I believe forgiving makes us happier. You deserve happiness. It’s never worth being unhappy or even more for someone else who made you so. I don’t think that anyone would intentionally make you unhappy; there’re just complex reasons and things just don’t work out as expected. For this reason, forgiving is not to forgive him but to make yourself happier. Because all you want is to be happy. Forgiving is a shortcut.

      1. This applies to suicidal thoughts too. We deserve being alive and happy. Suicide is not the answer to end pain, a solution not verified. Even if it ended pain, it would end your happiness too and you would lose all what you had. You wouldn’t have Internet access anymore and you wouldn’t have LoveisLonely to publish poems anymore and many many more…

  2. Sorry to hear that this person lied to you! It is very tough to be a in relationship that you care deeply about to realize that the person does not feel the same or can do something to hurt you!. I am glad that you stopped blaming yourself, as you did in the beginning of the poem and ending by saying that you are not sorry!!!!

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