Is it weird to feel
As if i’ve lost my mind?
And is it odd not to know
About everything I find?
Everyday I feel more wrong
Everything moves and shifts
Like I don’t really fit
It’s like I don’t belong.
Can anyone tell me
Does anyone see
How I’m messing up
Or even what’s becoming of me?
The more I think
The more it seems
Like somethings really right
But then I see
And then I know
The true messed up sight
It’s hard to know
Just whats real
If I’m crazy or not
Even though nothing else
Is like the peace i’ve sought!
I can’t stop feeling
I’ll end up kneeling
To what I hate the most
To what I’m forbidden to hate
I have to remember the truth when it’s truthless
I have to endure when things get ruthless..
Velvet tangled intertwine
That at least must be a sign?
I’m alone when I least expect to be
I look around and there’s nothing to see
I try to escape but I’m locked in
I’m trapped in the confines of sin
I listen but there’s nothing to hear
I try but there’s no one near!
I listen again and the pain sets
The realization that I paid my debts..
The payment was the thing I valued most
I give up searching from coast to coast
I finally see the signs
That my mind has deserted me.
With all the pain that I’ve been through
It makes me wonder just who knew
The secrets I died to keep inside
The things I tried so hard to hide..
I wish to live my life in ways
That don’t leave me lost in tears..
I need to find my peace in days
That sensitize my fears!
Forever trapped I seem to be
In these twisting forms of me
Everything changing but never lost
Is this what comes before the cost?