I’m addicted to you
I’m addicted to the leap my heart does when I hear your name
I’m addicted to your hugs
The bad things about addictions,
When they put you up on a cloud,
You always fall,
You always crash.
When I crash,
I crash hard.
You make me so happy,
And only you can make me so sad.
I never fail to answer you.
I want to believe it will change
But I’m stuck in a cycle
And I don’t know my way out.
Your smile is intoxicating
Leaving me wanting more
You seem to be okay with that
Letting me be the hopelessly sad girl.
Why is there always someone better than me?
Am I not pretty enough?
I’m still addicted to you.
Fooling myself into a light at the end of the tunnel.
Grappling hopelessly at the thought you might choose me.
But this isn’t a fairy tale.
I should just go, right?