There is so much pain in my heart

There is so much pain in my soul

My body is aching and my mind is breaking

Is there no end in this pain that I am given every day

Will I ever be able to be happy on the inside

Will my heart ever be able to give so much love as it used to

Will my mind ever have the same concepts as it had before all of this

Will I ever be able to forget about you

The day we had to part

I knew I would never be the same again

I knew that the happiness and my smile I would show to others

would only be a facade just to hide the pain inside of me

The day we left each other was not only the day I said goodbye to my love

But it was the day I said goodbye to my love, my soul, my happiness and my joy

I said goodbye to my hopes and my dreams

I have changed so much, not because I wanted to but because I feel I have no purpose and no happiness in my life

How can I explain to those around me that I can never be who I used to be

There is so much pain inside of me

There is so much pain in my heart and soul

My body is aching and my mind is breaking

What should I do if I can’t be with you

If I have no choice what should I do

I can’t be who I was meant to be

I can’t be who I want to  be

And now

Just because I am not with you

I can’t live my life