I shut my eyes and once again the pleasure strangles me

I’m standing closer to the edge then I should be allowed

I’ve reconsidered and I’ve contemplated letting go!

I want to shock the system, do something unknown!

The thoughts in my head aren’t natural.

Someone needs to explain to me how the world works

And who HE is to think he can control me..

I’m floating farther away from my friends

Friends who used to be close as sisters

One forbidden to speak to me, and she’s not complaining

Others changed beyond recognition, or is it me changing?

I’m sure a part of me has died; for I can’t find the old me..