My Life

I open my eyes
But maybe its better they stay closed
For what misery today will bring
I just don't know

Every day is like the one before
I find I'm more hurt and lost
Than ever before

I can't remember a time
Where I was happy and smiling
It feels like forever
That inside I've been dying

It's strange
But I've got use to it
Being this way
It's part of my life now
Depressed everyday

I thrive on the sadness
That tears at my heart
I find some sort of comfort in it
This pain that rips me apart

I was once smiling
Once warm
And so care free
Now I look at myself
And say
"What has happened to me?"

What made me this way?
So cold and lost
Were the memories so bad
That I forced them to be forgot

How I can brake free?
And leave this behind
I'm tired of being this way all the time

I just want to be held close
But I know I'll push everyone away
I'm too scared to let anyone in
Because I know no one will stay

How do you fix a soul
Which has pieces long gone
How do you fix a life?
That has gone so badly wrong

How do you save a guy?
Who can't save himself?
How can you hear him
When he silently cries for help?

How do you save me?
When I've fallen so far
How can you heal these wounds
Which have turned to scars?

This is who I am
Every day and every night
Sad isn't it?

- T T

They say

They say love is different not just a thing
They say you can have it you just have to pray
They say it comes in different shapes and sizes
They say you can get lucky or you can just find it
They say love is something like a trapped box
Easy to get in
But
Hard to get out
When you love someone it’s like a
No doubt
Then it ends the love you had
Then you sit there and think at how mad and sad
U were at her, U were at him
But the real reason you’re sad and mad is because
It came to an end
The wonderful relationship that had no time
To begin.

- Shaylan Williams

Blood stained heart

My blood stained heart will always show
From so much pain he did not know
They said love would make you cry
They didn't warn me it made you wanna die

My blood stained heart everyone will see
What your love can truely be
And once you hear what's to be said
Your eyes will soon be red

My blood stained heart is turning blue
Cause my heart is hurting through and through
I wish it didn't hurt so bad
Cause all it does is make me sad

My blood stained heart will always remind me
Of the love which is now behind me
When we broke up all it caused was pain
And out of that pain was there anything to gain?

- Miranda Belcher

I thought

I thought your love would last forever
I thought the chapter of loneliness had ended
Did you not want us to start a journey
Did you not want happiness
I thought you were different
I thought your love was truth
Now I sit in the dark, drinking my sadness away
the bottle half empty and my heart aching
I got tangled in your arms and I saw my life in your eyes
What a mistake it was to think that your love would last forever
Now I want to ask you one thing
Did you know that your love would break my heart forever?

- Sonia Banda

Start New

Love Lasting,
I guess you could call it a thing,
4 yrs it carried,
And now it's all trying to be buried,
My first real love,
Got lost above,
And threw everything away,
There was nothing more to say,
After so many times he broke my heart,
It was like a shooting dart,
So many times,
So many crimes,
To much to handle,
So now here I am starting brand new,
Always wondering how I really got threw,
Now it's hard to trust,
Even though I know I must,
But after the past,
How long will the truth last,
I always get hurt,
I always feel like I'm just dirt,
Are there people out there that are true,
I truly wish I knew,
I want to be happy,
And not sappy,
I want someone to be true to me,
Please help me see,
Make me believe there's good not only bad,
Because bad is all I ever had,
I always go for those bad boys,
That are like little toys,
That just play and play,
And there's nothing you can say,
There's nothing you can do,
Or they'll just forget all about you and be like who?
Like they never knew,
I just want to live my life,
And stop being stabbed with a knife,
Right where my heart is.
I just need to free my mind,
And really look what I need to find,
Im sick of being sad,
And that's what I feel like that all I have ever had,
Now I want to start brand new,
And find my one true Boo.

- Kristen A Szymanski

I wish u knew

I wish u knew
All the feelings I feel for you
When Im sad, You make me happy
When Im mad, You make me calm
When Im scared, You make me feel safe
When I cry, You make me smile
On a rainy day, Your my sunshine !
Your the one I think of every night
And I am NOT giving up on us
WITH OUT a FIGHT !!!!!

For you Scott

- Caroline Logan

Someday

I imagine the future
It is just a thought
When will I see you again?
Or is there just sadness brought

I just think of stuff
That could of happened or never had
Just thinking about all this stuff
Makes me feel really sad

I thought someday you'd actually like me
But gosh was I so dumb
I always thought every day
When will that someday come?

I've waited and waited
Each and everyday
But everytime I looked at you
You just looked away

Everytime I tried to talk to you
You would just ignore
I thought we were good friends
So what did you do that for?

But then I realized since you found out
I really loved you so
You seemed like you hated it
And you wished you didnt know

I felt so stupid right then
And I felt very num
For right then I realized
That someday would never come

- Mystery Mandy

Stay

These past weeks have been confusing
I hope it is not you that I am losing
Sometimes I get scared and have some fears
These fears quite often lead to tears
The fights, the words can hurt so much
When all I want is to feel your touch
Not the touch of your physical part
But more the touch of emotional heart
Sometimes it seems like we both doubt
But you're the one I cannot live without
Some things we say don't sound the same
Like saying goodbye to just a name
We look at each other and it is love that we see
But look deeper and see what I'm trying to be
I'm trying to be the person you never had
To put a smile on your face even when you're sad
I want to be there for you through thick and thin
Especially when stress causes your head to spin
I want to be that person that you go to
And make you feel better by saying I love you
Because love is not just a word to me
It means much more than words of three
It is more a feeling that I cannot explain
It's a feeling at times that I cannot sustain
But love is different when I'm with you
It feels immense and feels so true
Please don't worry it will be just fine
Give me your hand and put your heart to mine
We have something that most people don't know
And because of that our love will grow
So baby please trust that you are the best
Very unique and far different from the rest
Do not take this poem in a negative way
All I want is for you to stay
Our love is complete, and so strong
There is no way we will go wrong
Let's make a one from the number two
Stare in each others eyes and say I LOVE YOU!!!

- Emanuel Sifuentes

Unforgotten Memories

As I sit here all alone.
Trying to reminisce days that passed.
Joyful memories engraved in our hearts.
Pain and sadness that crossed our path.
Somehow it seems like a fantasy.
Fairy tales from a child's memory.
That all ends happily ever after.
Dreams I encounter whenever I am asleep...
All seem like real to me.
But sometimes feel as empty as me.
When morning comes I must wake.
Then my dreams would slowly fade.
Dreams of you and me together
How I would love to sleep forever.
To hold on to my precious dreams.
And never let it slip through my hand
But as I try to wake dreams slowly fade.
Even as it slowly fades.
I know in my heart it would stay.
Just as the autumn leaves would lie on the ground.
And as it slowly returns when spring arrives.
Love forgotten in the passing of time.
Pain and sadness scarred by time.
A dagger pierced straight at my heart.
Longing for someone to pull it apart.
Then you came and gave me a chance.
A chance to mend a broken heart.
Memories would stay right here with me.
And let it be part of the sky.
An endless sky with no boundaries.
Filled by my unforgotten memories.

- Ronald Florence Abas

True Love

Words will never describe how much I love you
You're the greatest and our love is true
These past months have been confusing
I hope it is not you that I am losing
At times I break into tears
Because in my mind I have fears
They are in my head, and over and over they play
When all I want, is for you to stay
We both seem to be sensitive now
But why now? And how?
We fight so much over little things
Then the next minute your giving me wings
It might not seem that way all the time
But when I do one thing wrong, it's a big crime
I know I mean everything to you
And trust me baby, I love you too
We will get through this
By talking or maybe a simple kiss
Our love is so strong
And there is no way we will go wrong
Please trust me and have no doubt
Because it is you, that I cannot live without
You bring me happiness and sunshine
All I ever wanted is for you to be mine
Now I have you, and I'm doing wrong
I guess emotionally I'm not that strong
I'll do anything for you sweetie pie
I'll get down on my knees, and even die
How can I treat you this way, so bad
It makes me so mad, but yet so sad
I used to be so perfect and so nice
I would never ever think twice
But now I feel like I'm the worse
It feels like maybe it's a curse
You don't understand how much I try
And sometimes I ask myself why?
Inside I know its my fault, and my problem
And you probably ask yourself, How do I stop 'em
My heart is crying in the middle of a smile
This has been happening for while
I am not lying and this is true
But the reason is not you
So instead of walking away
Think twice, and stay
Because great things are destined to happen
Just be patient, and don't ask when?
Baby you are my heart
And without my heart, I will fall apart

- Emanuel Sifuentes

Devoted

I spent time thinking of you
And how much I love you
Hours and hours a day
Just staring into the blue
I spend days hoping you love me
And hoping you will see
That I love you
More than anybody
I spend weeks smiling
As you return one to me
I sparkle inside
I still hope you will see.
I spend my life thinking of you
And loving you forever
And just dreaming
How we go right together.
But then I realize
I'm just sadly devoted to you
Devoted to you

- Hollimer Saffron

Tears of Sadness

feeling sad
left out
not known why
now tears start
to fill my eyes with sadness
why did I deserve this pain
after spilling my feeling to you
I wait for your call
and your text
still nothing
I just fall asleep
feeling sad
hoping happiness
would come
after I wake up
but still no sign of you
longing
to hear your voice
to rescue me from this
tears of sadness
pain that you cause
waiting and waiting
as tears start
to roll down my face
I lie here
tears falling down endlessly
as sadness takes over once again
so I cry myself to sleep
hoping to feel better
when I wake.........

- Patrick Madison

Miss Dad

I would call out "Dad"
when was angry, scared or sad.

When I thought Jennifer was hogging you,
you would stay with me like glue.

You'd talk to me, tell me don't be scared,
I could always tell you cared.

When my friends were mad at me you'd stay throughout the night,
you would be there for me and hold me tight.

You were someone I loved that I could call,
you would help me when I would fall.

You'd kiss my boo boo and make it better,
when I went to camp you'd write me a letter.

You would write how much you loved me
and said that with you I wish I could be.

While I was reading I would grin
as I would wish the same back to him.

We would play games for hours on end,
whenever I had a broken heart you would mend.

In restaurants while waiting to go,
we would play tic-tac-toe to get three in a row.

I wish that you would walk through the door,
because I keep missing you more and more.

I know that you are in a better place,
but I am selfish in this case.

I wish that I could have you back in my arms,
to see your special smile and charms.

I miss your smile, your care, your love.
You remind me of a precious dove.

I love you with all my heart,
but you have known that from the start.

I know the world will still go on,
even though my loved one's gone.

- Lauren R