How

What to say to the person that loved you once??
How do you explain to yourself
that it's not how it used to be???
How do you not get nervous when you see him?
How do you walk away and try not to cry??
How can you look at him
and not remember what it was like??
How can you not think of him
for the rest of the day??
How do you pretend you don't care
when you hear from him??
How do you go to bed
and not think of all those good times you spent with him??
How can you not smile when you remember
how he used to make you laugh??
How are you going to spend the cold winter without him??
It's just not the same...
how do you believe all the shit he did to you??
Why are you still nice to him??
After all you cried…
Why do you still smile at him?
How do you not think of him
when you listen to that "stupid song"??
How do you make yourself understand
that the love is gone??
How do you make the pain go away??
How do you explain to yourself
that you are not the girl he has been waiting for??
How do you forget all those promises
and pretend like he never said them??
How can you erase all the memories??
How can you pretend like nothing ever happened??
How??

- Silvia C

The One

You're the One

You’re the one I wanted to trust
You’re the one I wanted to see
You’re the one I wanted to kiss
You’re the one I really missed

You’re the one who made me smile
You’re the one who made me laugh
You’re the one who made me happy
You’re the one who would think this sappy

You’re the one that kept me hoping
You’re the one that kept me dreaming
You’re the one that kept me going
You’re the one that left me unknowing

You’re the one who could keep me warm
You’re the one who could keep me safe
You’re the one who could always be there
You’re the one who I thought would care

You’re the one I always thought the best of
You’re the one I always wanted to be with
You’re the one I always was disappointed by
You’re the one I knew would make me cry

You’re the one that was my hardest goodbye
You’re the one that I knew it had to end
You’re the one that would hurt the most
You’re the one that I had held so close

- Breanne Cope

Three Mothers

That day, two people died.
No she was alone in the car.
(Thank God for that, some said)
But a tiny life vaporized
Far, far away.
Sniffles, tears, mourns, sighs,
Man in the hall
Baby in the bedroom.
The maid rocks and strokes,
The baby knows better.
“Oh, she’s dead! The love of my life!
Twenty years I have loved her! Twenty!”

A week later, she moved in.
Prettier than the first, the baby thought.
Reds, pinks, oranges flutter about
A touch of lipstick, a dab of rouge
We have a party to attend, after all,
(There’s always a party)
And you’re not invited!
Wails go unheeded
Feminine tantrums pampered.
Diapers everywhere
What’s the maid for, after all?
All alone at night?
You know I’m scared of the dark.
What happened to the occasional cuddles?
The tickles, the giggles, the tucking in?
A separate room?
Privacy?
(What’s that?)
Whims are adored,
Milk bottles ignored
(It was only an inch away)
The maid’s here overtime
At least she smiles
I thought he liked me…
I could be wrong.
He seems happier
But I miss the first smiles,
The first park totters
The first family videos-the laughs, the love
I want to be a part,
The toys are cute,
They’re still not you.

Arguments erupt,
Fights pick up,
He screams, she screams,
There’s banging and clanging.
There’s more fluttering-scarves, skirts, photo-frames,
A swish of black, a begging follower
The door slams
Cries, screams, pleadings
(No! No! Don’t go!)

He bursts in
(It’s nice to see him again)
It’s all because of you!
You won’t stop crying, wailing.
Why don’t you shut up?
See what you’ve done!
Now another’s gone.
Guilty hugs, fake apologies ensue,
Reminiscences of old.
(Where were you all this time?)

The maid was early
(The baby glad)
But she stood perplexed in the hall
Don’t leave me, too!
She blushes and tugs at her plait
Man smiles
(Relieved)
She trots into my room
And my six month old hazels
Beheld my third mother.

- Suchaita Tenneti

Emptiness

I looked into your eyes, you turned away.
I felt your hand, it was cold.

I tried to smile, you laughed.
I enjoyed your company, your mind was elsewhere.

I tried to hold you, you closed your arms.
I tried to impress you, you werent interested.

I close my eyes and see you, you see other men.
I liked talking about you, so did you.

I trust you, you ''need time''.
I like your faults, you remind me of mine.

I love you, your lust has diminished.
I gave you my heart, you took my soul.

- Haroon Mahmood

Broken Man

When a man looks into your eyes and smiles,
it means hes laughing inside at himself.

When a man holds your hand,
it means hes let go of everything else in life.

When a man holds you close,
it means hes hurting inside.

When a man doesnt talk over you,
it means he loves your voice.

When a man says your name,
It means hes forgotten his own.

When a man is shy around you,
he wants to say your beautiful.

But most of all When a man says he cares you,
it means he needs nothing in life, but you.

- Haroon Mahmood

First Love

I can't get you out of my head
Its weighing my body down like lead
I think about you twenty-four/seven
You used to make me feel like I was in heaven
My heart feels like its breaking
I cant stop it from aching
Why can't I move on from you
We have already said adieu
I didn't want to give you my heart
It began to happen from the start
You were my first and so far only love
In the end you pushed me away with a shove
You've hurt me too much to go back to you
Yet I cant stop thinking of all we've been through
I remember us laying out under the stars
Jumping away from each other when we heard the cars
When you held me in your arms you kept me warm
I was protected from everything, even a storm
You made me laugh, you made me smile
My time with you was completely worthwhile
I have tried so hard to forget and move on
I hate knowing from my life you are gone
I trusted you with everything I had
Because, boy, you made me so glad
I don't think I'll ever forget you
We were great together, us two.

- Breanne Cope

Why

I dont know why i am who i am
I dont know why i dont give a damn
I dont know why i hate to be alone
I dont know why i hate my own home
I dont know why i always have to lie
I dont know why i always wanna cry
I dont know why my patience runs on empty
I dont know why but bitch dont tempt me!
I dont know why i think im so ugly.
I dont know why i love to be funny.
I dont know why my friends are my life
I dont know why i stay up all night
I dont know why i like to stand out
I dont know why when i talk i seem to shout
I dont know why i laugh my problems away
I dont know why bad memories seem to stay
I dont know why i fucking hate my dad
I dont know why i love making him mad
I dont know why i cant stand my mother
I dont know why i have an autistic brother (not in a bad way)
I dont know why i end up wit bogus guyz
I dont know why my dreams could reach the sky
I dont know why i listen to rock bands
I dont know why id rather sit than stand
I dont know why id trade a skirt for some jeans
I dont know why im always so mean
I dont know why i gave this poem a try
I dont know why im always asking why!!!
- Brittany Tinkham