Beautiful Wife

For my beautiful wife

You come to me like a shining star from the starry sky
Giving me guiding light and inspiration is my darkest night
Making me sing a new melody at lonesome days as it passes by
Taking away weariness, with your beautiful smiles

You’re the sunshine that sprouts seeds at twilight of my life
That brings new vision, new challenges to live without strife
As your nocturnal cries awaken the birds to fly high and be free
Unafraid of whatever strong winds that may come their way

You’re the rain that washes away the pain of my haunting past
Keeping me dry with your warm thoughts and lively eyes
Where colorful butterflies give beautiful thoughts for tomorrow
That paints enchanting, magnificent rainbow in my new heaven

Thy laughter and mimicry is a cool breeze that fans streams
To perk up waterfalls around me to strum sonorous rhythm
Sharing sonata to the valleys and hills that are dry and lifeless
Liken to my heart that needs love, sympathy, care and praises

Oh! How blessed am I to have you my beautiful wife
Abundant oasis of hope that waters henceforth life’s emptiness
Ushering in more blessings of love, peace and success in me
Had been elusive in years I lived in lifelessness and shame!

- Herofil Olarte

A Hug

Hugs can be brief and pleasant
or they can be lasting and warm.
But whether the hug be short or long,
it can ease the darkest storm.

A hug is to make you feel safe
and to let you know I care.
It's to make the fearful moments,
a little easier to bear.

When I have my arms around you,
I feel no worries or alarm.
It's then I know without a doubt,
to you there can come no harm.

But if we were to look more closely,
the truth we'd clearly see.
The hugs we share to comfort you,
are really helping me.

Your hugs fill an empty place,
that's been in my heart for years
A hug from you is the best way,
to dry up these age old tears.

- Bart Adams

My Life

I open my eyes
But maybe its better they stay closed
For what misery today will bring
I just don't know

Every day is like the one before
I find I'm more hurt and lost
Than ever before

I can't remember a time
Where I was happy and smiling
It feels like forever
That inside I've been dying

It's strange
But I've got use to it
Being this way
It's part of my life now
Depressed everyday

I thrive on the sadness
That tears at my heart
I find some sort of comfort in it
This pain that rips me apart

I was once smiling
Once warm
And so care free
Now I look at myself
And say
"What has happened to me?"

What made me this way?
So cold and lost
Were the memories so bad
That I forced them to be forgot

How I can brake free?
And leave this behind
I'm tired of being this way all the time

I just want to be held close
But I know I will push everyone away
I'm too scared to let anyone in
Because I know no one will stay

How do you fix a soul
Which has pieces long gone
How do you fix a life?
That has gone so badly wrong

How do you save a guy?
Who can't save himself?
How can you hear him
When he silently cries for help?

How do you save me?
When I've fallen so far
How can you heal these wounds
Which have turned to scars?

This is who I am
Every day and every night
sad isn't it?

- T T

Long For

Sittin alone,
In artificial light,
Tryin to make it,
Through one last night.

A mix of emotions,
A heart full of woe,
Wondering where,
All this will go.

I felt it was right,
From the very first day,
But in just one second,
That was taken away.

I'm left here alone,
In fear and in pain,
Hoping the chance,
Will come back again.

I feel as though,
I've been taken apart,
Pieced back in the wrong sequence,
Missing half of my heart.

Sitting here blindly,
In search of my mind,
But the harder I look,
The less I can find.

What once came naturally,
Was cruelly taken away,
I've lost all trace of colour,
The world is now grey.

In seconds I fell,
From positive thoughts,
The creative talent,
That this one being brought.

But being out of my life,
Has left me so bare,
I have lost inspiration,
I'm left in confused despair.

I'm in my bed,
I toss and turn,
My eyes are red,
They're sore, they burn.

The same thoughts,
Run through my mind,
Of someone who,
Is warm and kind.

I feel him slide,
His hand in mine,
And remember when,
We met first time.

Now that's over,
I'm here alone,
Paranoia,
What have I done?

I'm all alone, I've lost my smile,
Wishing you had stayed a while,
Instead you ignore me when you like,
And fill my head with all your shit.

I'm over you, I'm out of love,
I'm lying here, I've had enough,
It's been a while, but I'm okay,
I take life as it comes each day.

But when I feel I've let you go,
You tell me that you've missed me so,
And once again I'm in your trap,
Even though you don't want me back.

So now I'm hooked just as before,
I lie here alone upon my floor,
Thinking of nothing else but you,
Adoration that's so confused.

I think I'm okay, and that life will go on,
But each night it's the same when I'm alone,
You say you care, and I believe each word,
But now I'm telling myself I've had enough.

I'm living in the past, life was better then,
I need you, we're supposed to be friends,
But each day you say you don't have the time,
Is when I realize that I have been blind.

You think you care about me, but this is a lie,
You try to be nice, and I always ask why,
This is not what you want, deep down inside,
And it's me that gets hurt every single time.

So leave me alone, I need time to myself,
In times of need, it was you that helped,
But you've hurt me now, and things will change,
Right now, I don't want to hear your name.

Everything you say, seems genuine to me,
But I'm hooked on you, it's easy to see.
I wish things were simple like the start,
but you messed me about, And broke my heart.

I know I will forgive you, and be okay in time,
I never fully believed you'd ever be mine,
But I'm still feeling this everyday,
Wishing things hadn't gone this way.

I need time alone, so I can move on,
And accept the fact, that I'm not the one,
So leave me to grieve at my own accord,
I don't want to hear from you. Not one word.

As tiredness dries up these heavy eyes,
I sit alone but I can't cry
The night is still and house is quiet,
I feel aggressive, my head's a riot.

My music plays too soft to hear,
MY happy thoughts just disappear,
I sit alone, I feel the cold,
I long for the past, I'm getting old.

I tap the keys, they echo loud,
I'm tryin so hard to make no sound,
But everyone's asleep, they cannot hear.
They do not know that I'm here.

The silence carries through the night,
The darkness blinds my only sight,
I sitting here wishing for the day,
To take the pain and suffering away.

I'm moving on, I'm starting again,
I'm not sure, if we should be friends.

I look at him, and see the past,
Wishing time would move on fast.

But blocking him out seems extreme,
And I'm not convinced it would help me.

I need to think this over, but it's a mess,
I'm still being in love. I confess.

Lies, deception, and more and more lies,
Or was it all just a painful disguise?
He loves me, but can't seem to work it out.
I question him to relieve my doubt.

But every single comment fogs my mind,
I remember him being warm and kind,
His answers are as confused as me,
The truth is something I will never see.

Wishing for clarity, and a little light,
To help me through each sleepless night,
I always believed he was the one for me,
But obviously that's not how it'll be.

- Sara

The One

You're the One

You’re the one I wanted to trust
You’re the one I wanted to see
You’re the one I wanted to kiss
You’re the one I really missed

You’re the one who made me smile
You’re the one who made me laugh
You’re the one who made me happy
You’re the one who would think this sappy

You’re the one that kept me hoping
You’re the one that kept me dreaming
You’re the one that kept me going
You’re the one that left me unknowing

You’re the one who could keep me warm
You’re the one who could keep me safe
You’re the one who could always be there
You’re the one who I thought would care

You’re the one I always thought the best of
You’re the one I always wanted to be with
You’re the one I always was disappointed by
You’re the one I knew would make me cry

You’re the one that was my hardest goodbye
You’re the one that I knew it had to end
You’re the one that would hurt the most
You’re the one that I had held so close

- Breanne Cope

First Love

I can't get you out of my head
Its weighing my body down like lead
Im thinking about you twenty-four/seven
You used to make me feel like I was in heaven
My heart feels like its breaking
I cant stop it from aching
Why can't I move on from you
We have already said adieu
I didn't want to give you my heart
It began to happen from the start
You were my first and so far only love
In the end you pushed me away with a shove
You've hurt me too much to go back to you
Yet I cant stop thinking of all we've been through
I remember us laying out under the stars
Jumping away from each other when we heard the cars
When you held me in your arms you kept me warm
I was protected from everything, even a storm
You made me laugh, you made me smile
My time with you was completely worthwhile
I have tried so hard to forget and move on
I hate knowing from my life you are gone
I trusted you with everything I had
Because, boy, you made me so glad
I don't think I will ever forget you
We were great together, us two.

- Breanne Cope

My Nobody

I had NOBODY to love me
NOBODY who cared
when I cried
NOBODY was there
there was NOBODy to trust
there was NOBODY to keep me warm
to protect me from the cold.
I had NOBODY to love my strengths
but also except my flaws
I had NOBODY to lean on
who was there to break my falls
Im so happy
Im so lucky
this is because...I found my NOBODY
- Brittany Tinkham

Real Dream

The same thoughts running through her mind,
Of someone who is warm and kind,
Wishing the past was once more,
As she lays alone, curled, on the floor.

The tears slowly wet her cheeks,
As she counts the past in terms of weeks,
Drawing faint hearts on the page,
Knowing that this would always age.

But failing to see why things would fold,
Looking deeply depressed and feeling cold,
Thinking things just aren't right,
As she lays alone all through the night.

She closes her eyes and drifts to sleep,
Seeing him with every heartbeat,
Touching his lips and holding him so,
Telling him she'll never let go.

She looks into his deep, dark eyes,
And knows the past wasn't hidden in lies,
Their lips touch gently and in she leans,
This seams so real, it can't be a dream.

It feels as though this should be fate,
But soon enough she slowly awakes,
To lay alone and still on the floor,
Wishing to have this back once more.

- Sara