All gone

Nothing matters
It’s all gone
I’m empty and she doesn’t care
It doesn’t matter
How I feel or what I say
She’s far away
And wouldn’t stay
No matter what I say
It wouldn’t matter anyway
I used to wait for the day
Just to hear her say
I miss you
Guess I was the biggest fool
Didn’t want to think you were cruel
I’m lonely now and broken
Left without even one token
Of love or caring
It all died on my birthday
How could I be so daring?
Thought you would understand
Why I was so upset
Instead you got mad at me
And hung up on me
It’s been a week
You wouldn’t even talk to me
How could you do that to me?
Nothing matters at all
I used to stand so tall
Now I wish for the stars
To cover up all these scars
Far away and small
Wonder if your thinking about me at all
Again I’m a fool for thinking
Guess I should be drinking
If only that were the way to get rid of my sadness
And bring me some gladness
Like I used to have
When I was with you
It was long ago
Why can’t I just let it go?
Like you have
You don’t feel me anymore
You’ve stopped keeping score
It’s all gone, as are you
Now I’m left with nothing to do
But brew
Over what once was
Just because
I’m an idiot and cared
And that is why I dared
To say what I said on my birthday
But I shouldn’t have shared
Because now I feel scared
And lost
And lonely
And hurt
And angry
And stupid
To think there ever was a cupid
For the two of us
Why did I make such a fuss?
It’s all over
I should just roll over
Because nothing matters anymore
You think I’m a bore
You think I’m a chore
And probably a whore
I can’t erase my mistakes
I believed you had forgiven me
I believed you loved me
And even when that part of it ended
I believed that at least there was something that mended
And that we had a friendship
You said you still adored me
You said that your heart still tightened
And that you would become frightened
When I was in trouble
And caught in some bubble
I believed you would help me
Get out of the rubble
Of this life that I live
In Binghamton while you are in Texas
Instead of staying close to me
You chose to make distance
I felt it but ignored it
I thought it was what you needed
I thought I would give it to you
Because you were my friend
And I loved you
I didn’t mind letting you go
I just didn’t want to lose you for good
Yet I did.
How could I know that you would
Let me go?
You let go fast
You forgot our past
Yes we had a past
A good past, a bad past
A past nonetheless
I understand you though
You don’t want to remember it
You’d rather forget what we had
It is easier that way
I understand that
Who would want to remember the hurt?
So you let me go fast and furious
Anytime I tried to talk about our past
You ran away fast
And I was left last
And I acted rash
It made me so sad though
That I was so slow
To recognize what you did
Long ago
And what others could see
But I never wanted it to be like that
And so I sat, and got fat
Denying what you could see
Which was what could again never be.
You saw the truth in front of us
Coming at us like a bus
About to hit
Difference between you and me was,
You got out of the way
And I chose to stay
In the way
Of a tragedy
Which was my soul shattered
You had sense enough to scatter
While I was like, "what's the matter"?
What a fool I was
Thinking that you still loved me like you once did
When instead you saw me as a kid
A fool and youngster
Naïve to the core
I have always been so unsure
This is not your problem though
And you made that clear
When you forgot all that I held dear

- Vanessa Maria R Torres

How

What to say to the person that loved you once??
How do you explain to yourself
that it's not how it used to be???
How do you not get nervous when you see him?
How do you walk away and try not to cry??
How can you look at him
and not remember what it was like??
How can you not think of him
for the rest of the day??
How do you pretend you don't care
when you hear from him??
How do you go to bed
and not think of all those good times you spent with him??
How can you not smile when you remember
how he used to make you laugh??
How are you going to spend the cold winter without him??
It's just not the same...
how do you believe all the shit he did to you??
Why are you still nice to him??
After all you cried…
Why do you still smile at him?
How do you not think of him
when you listen to that "stupid song"??
How do you make yourself understand
that the love is gone??
How do you make the pain go away??
How do you explain to yourself
that you are not the girl he has been waiting for??
How do you forget all those promises
and pretend like he never said them??
How can you erase all the memories??
How can you pretend like nothing ever happened??
How??

- Silvia C

Key to Love

You kept your love behind a gate
your love tried to escape but you kept at bay
so I lay at the gate day by day
waiting for your love to escape
the day you gave me the key
I fell on my knees
and prayed that this was the right key
I just need you to see
that one day the 3 keys you hold will be mine too
Renita you can have my key too

- Exzaviera McGowan

Wait for you

As feelings collide into my deep soul,
I try my best to always keep you in mind.
Just when I feel like you slowly slip away,
You seem to know exactly when to come back.
And when I cry for your love,
Somehow I feel you hear it.
Lonely with desperation,
Waiting for you to forever be mine.
Longing to hear your voice,
Telling me how much you care.
To feel the touch
That makes me feel so safe.
Longing to kiss the lips
That takes my breath away.

The longing inside my heart and soul
Aches when you’re not near.
Pictures and thoughts of you
Stay inside my mind.
I can’t bear the fact that you’re
Not by my side.
My mind wonders uncontrollably
Of where you might be.
Pain is what I feel.
Hurt.

Waiting to gaze into the eyes
That tells a future.
My heart softly whispers
The true meaning of love.
Faster and faster my heart beats
When you’re near.
Slower and slower it gets
When you’re faraway.

A thousand pages are needed
To tell you exactly how I feel,
That the love you give to me
Is the love that seems so real.
Gently touching me to ease my pain away,
I just can’t imagine how life would
Be without that touch.

- Vanessa

Blue

The Color is Blue

Maybe it's true when you're blue
You seem to exist in a world
Just within you
Unnoticed and unheard
In a place as careless
As me and of course
As you… isn't it that true?
Cruel moments maybe realized
If only ego knew how far it would go
Before it learns to blend
In harmony of endless regrets
That plays a sound in the heart
Without its sweetest melody
Waiting to be set free
No matter how hopeless
And no longer with thee...

- Herofil Olarte

Someday

I imagine the future
It is just a thought
When will I see you again?
Or is there just sadness brought

I just think of stuff
That could of happened or never had
Just thinking about all this stuff
Makes me feel really sad

I thought someday you'd actually like me
But gosh was I so dumb
I always thought every day
When will that someday come?

I've waited and waited
Each and everyday
But everytime I looked at you
You just looked away

Everytime I tried to talk to you
You would just ignore
I thought we were good friends
So what did you do that for?

But then I realized since you found out
I really loved you so
You seemed like you hated it
And you wished you didnt know

I felt so stupid right then
And I felt very num
For right then I realized
That someday would never come

- Mystery Mandy

Wait for Love

Love is such a strong word but I cant help but thinking about it
everytime I see you I just want to shout it
Im just here waiting for your call
save me from walking this empty hall
Because thats how I feel when your not with me
I feel empty as you can see
And now Im here waiting for you
just to tell you I love you

- Michael Szwed

Life No Regret

To love another
you must first love yourself...
but how do you love yourself
when you are a stranger in your own eyes...
your greatest fear is yourself...
waiting on a hero that will never come...
is it worth going on...
but if you look deep enough
you will see the truth...
that the hero lies in you...
life is not how hard it hits you down
it is whether you get back up again...
you can't always get what you want...
and you can't appreciate life until you've been burned...
stay in the race because you will only look back
and regret what might have been...BUT...
never regret anything that made you SMILE...

- Shy

Tears of Sadness

feeling sad
left out
not known why
now tears start
to fill my eyes with sadness
why did I deserve this pain
after spilling my feeling to you
I wait for your call
and your text
still nothing
I just fall asleep
feeling sad
hoping happiness
would come
after I wake up
but still no sign of you
longing
to hear your voice
to rescue me from this
tears of sadness
hurt that you cause
waiting and waiting
as tears start
to roll down my face
I lie here
tears falling down endlessly
as sadness takes over once again
so I cry myself to sleep
hoping to feel better
when I wake.........

- Patrick Madison

Miss Dad

I would call out "Daddy"
when was angry, scared or sad.

When I thought Jennifer was hogging you,
you would stay with me like glue.

You'd talk to me, tell me don't be scared,
I could always tell you cared.

When my friends were mad at me you'd stay throughout the night,
you would be there for me and hold me tight.

You were someone I loved that I could call,
you would help me when I would fall.

You'd kiss my boo boo and make it better,
when I went to camp you'd write me a letter.

You would write how much you loved me
and said that with you I wish I could be.

While I was reading I would grin
as I would wish the same back to him.

We would play games for hours on end,
whenever I had a broken heart you would mend.

In restaurants while waiting to go,
we would play tic-tac-toe to get three in a row.

I wish that you would walk through the door,
because I miss you more and more.

I know that you are in a better place,
but I am selfish in this case.

I wish that I could have you back in my arms,
to see your special smile and charms.

I miss your smile, your care, your love.
You remind me of a precious dove.

I love you with all my heart,
but you've known that from the start.

I know the world will still go on,
even though my loved one's gone.

- Lauren R