All gone

Nothing matters
It’s all gone
I’m empty and she doesn’t care
It doesn’t matter
How I feel or what I say
She’s far away
And wouldn’t stay
No matter what I say
It wouldn’t matter anyway
I used to wait for the day
Just to hear her say
I miss you
Guess I was the biggest fool
Didn’t want to think you were cruel
I’m lonely now and broken
Left without even one token
Of love or caring
It all died on my birthday
How could I be so daring?
Thought you would understand
Why I was so upset
Instead you got mad at me
And hung up on me
It’s been a week
You wouldn’t even talk to me
How could you do that to me?
Nothing matters at all
I used to stand so tall
Now I wish for the stars
To cover up all these scars
Far away and small
Wonder if your thinking about me at all
Again I’m a fool for thinking
Guess I should be drinking
If only that were the way to get rid of my sadness
And bring me some gladness
Like I used to have
When I was with you
It was long ago
Why can’t I just let it go?
Like you have
You don’t feel me anymore
You’ve stopped keeping score
It’s all gone, as are you
Now I’m left with nothing to do
But brew
Over what once was
Just because
I’m an idiot and cared
And that is why I dared
To say what I said on my birthday
But I shouldn’t have shared
Because now I feel scared
And lost
And lonely
And hurt
And angry
And stupid
To think there ever was a cupid
For the two of us
Why did I make such a fuss?
It’s all over
I should just roll over
Because nothing matters anymore
You think I’m a bore
You think I’m a chore
And probably a whore
I can’t erase my mistakes
I believed you had forgiven me
I believed you loved me
And even when that part of it ended
I believed that at least there was something that mended
And that we had a friendship
You said you still adored me
You said that your heart still tightened
And that you would become frightened
When I was in trouble
And caught in some bubble
I believed you would help me
Get out of the rubble
Of this life that I live
In Binghamton while you are in Texas
Instead of staying close to me
You chose to make distance
I felt it but ignored it
I thought it was what you needed
I thought I would give it to you
Because you were my friend
And I loved you
I didn’t mind letting you go
I just didn’t want to lose you for good
Yet I did.
How could I know that you would
Let me go?
You let go fast
You forgot our past
Yes we had a past
A good past, a bad past
A past nonetheless
I understand you though
You don’t want to remember it
You’d rather forget what we had
It is easier that way
I understand that
Who would want to remember the hurt?
So you let me go fast and furious
Anytime I tried to talk about our past
You ran away fast
And I was left last
And I acted rash
It made me so sad though
That I was so slow
To recognize what you did
Long ago
And what others could see
But I never wanted it to be like that
And so I sat, and got fat
Denying what you could see
Which was what could again never be.
You saw the truth in front of us
Coming at us like a bus
About to hit
Difference between you and me was,
You got out of the way
And I chose to stay
In the way
Of a tragedy
Which was my soul shattered
You had sense enough to scatter
While I was like, "what's the matter"?
What a fool I was
Thinking that you still loved me like you once did
When instead you saw me as a kid
A fool and youngster
Naïve to the core
I have always been so unsure
This is not your problem though
And you made that clear
When you forgot all that I held dear

- Vanessa Maria R Torres

A Hug

Hugs can be brief and pleasant
or they can be lasting and warm.
But whether the hug be short or long,
it can ease the darkest storm.

A hug is to make you feel safe
and to let you know I care.
It's to make the fearful moments,
a little easier to bear.

When I have my arms around you,
I feel no worries or alarm.
It's then I know without a doubt,
to you there can come no harm.

But if we were to look more closely,
the truth we'd clearly see.
The hugs we share to comfort you,
are really helping me.

Your hugs fill an empty place,
that's been in my heart for years
A hug from you is the best way,
to dry up these age old tears.

- Bart Adams

Sexual Attention

hes my drug
and im addicted
it seems unreal
it seems conflicted
the way that he touches
it seems so real
and how his attentions
to stumble and seal
he tells me things
i wanna hear
it doesnt mean nothing
an thats what i fear
the way that he kisses
he kisses like a pro
sometimes when he leaves
i miss him so
im obsessed
with his passion i can't get enough
sometimes it gets easy
sometimes it gets rough
just knowing he wants me to give him
my all
his fingers my lips
they feel like claws
i swear i do love him
because hes so real
but im not sure
if he knows how i feel
hes all about
affection
protection
and sex
even though he keeps contact
with one of his ex
whenever were out
we pretend we are strangers
just knowing my heart
could just be in danger
he makes me feel
like
I will never die
just knowing hes known to
make me cry
even though hes suspicious
i can't let him go
the truth should be spoken
i love him so
the way we touch
our lips meet slow
the way that he holds me i can't let go
the main idea
i had to mention
the way he can touch
its like sexual attention

- Ebony McMillan

I thought

I thought your love would last forever
I thought the chapter of loneliness had ended
Did you not want us to start a journey
Did you not want happiness
I thought you were different
I thought your love was truth
Now I sit in the dark, drinking my sadness away
the bottle half empty and my heart aching
I got tangled in your arms and I saw my life in your eyes
What a mistake it was to think that your love would last forever
Now I want to ask you one thing
Did you know that your love would break my heart forever?

- Sonia Banda

Given Chance

Somehow it exists in my own little world
Knowing it will always be a curse without sign
Indeed, can only be seen and be understood
In someone's truthful sight and fearless tongue

Aware or unaware, indeed I made a mistake
Hopelessly without your guiding light
I am afraid, lost and greatly in disguise
Believe me if only I could undo the past
I will do it before your gentle heart starts to ache

Sooner or later I know my life would be in the next
Bear in mind without your sincerest forgiveness
I am miserable and in great loneliness
Without you, I know I will crawl
Before I will learn to walk again
Believe me when I say this to you
You are my life and I still needed you

If given a chance
From now on
I will hold your heart
As gently as I can
Just to love and keep you
Once again…
Forevermore…

- Herofil Olarte

Start New

Love Lasting,
I guess you could call it a thing,
4 yrs it carried,
And now it's all trying to be buried,
My first real love,
Got lost above,
And threw everything away,
There was nothing more to say,
After so many times he broke my heart,
It was like a shooting dart,
So many times,
So many crimes,
To much to handle,
So now here I am starting brand new,
Always wondering how I really got threw,
Now it's hard to trust,
Even though I know I must,
But after the past,
How long will the truth last,
I always get hurt,
I always feel like I'm just dirt,
Are there people out there that are true,
I truly wish I knew,
I want to be happy,
And not sappy,
I want someone to be true to me,
Please help me see,
Make me believe there's good not only bad,
Because bad is all I ever had,
I always go for those bad boys,
That are like little toys,
That just play and play,
And there's nothing you can say,
There's nothing you can do,
Or they'll just forget all about you and be like who?
Like they never knew,
I just want to live my life,
And stop being stabbed with a knife,
Right where my heart is.
I just need to free my mind,
And really look what I need to find,
Im sick of being sad,
And that's what I feel like that all I have ever had,
Now I want to start brand new,
And find my one true Boo.

- Kristen A Szymanski

Old Mice Creed

I used to pass on this old street
Where old men hang and talk sweet
Their truth and wisdom always make me sweat
No one dares to listen, no one gives a shit

Bullshit!
I'm too good for this!

Too proud, too wise, like mice
Before my life falls like dice…
Hit the bottom and roll over like ice
I will take the mysterious advice

With weary eyes of dying mice
Regrets felt in the soft-spoken wise
A piece of Christ, a peace will rise
It's no surprise, takes a lot of sacrifice

Don't have to be crucified
Don't have to be terrified
Just find the right guide
And take the ride…

No matter how cursive the citywide
You'll always find your way in the countryside
Where simplicity and fulfillment derived
And real life hide in beautiful someone's side

I don't know how to get there
I'm just here listening
To the old mice creed
As I seat along the old street
Where I used to pass and say Bullshit!

- Herofil Olarte

Life No Regret

To love another
you must first love yourself...
but how do you love yourself
when you are a stranger in your own eyes...
your greatest fear is yourself...
waiting on a hero that will never come...
is it worth going on...
but if you look deep enough
you will see the truth...
that the hero lies in you...
life is not how hard it hits you down
it is whether you get back up again...
you can't always get what you want...
and you can't appreciate life until you've been burned...
stay in the race because you will only look back
and regret what might have been...BUT...
never regret anything that made you SMILE...

- Shy

Little Trust

Being best friends from the very start,
But now we are continually drifting apart,
Finding things out from everyone else,
When it was always me you used to tell.

The one in which I'd always confide,
But now you can't seem to make up your mind,
To tell me now or to tell me not?
The little trust that I've now got.

Each truth you told me was repayed,
We shared our secrets, back in the day,
But now it's just a guessing game,
It's pissing me off, I'm full off shame.

But why should I feel the fault is mine,
When I kept your secrets every time,
If you can't trust me, that is fine,
Don't tell me your secrets, I won't tell you mine.

- Sara