Peaceful Place

In my room, I sit tonight..
No lights, no noise..
Just in candle light.
Just need my time of solitude...
to detox the mind...
and for the soul to be soothed...
I let my problems float away...
as I relax my body...
and reflect on my ways...
I begin to lose myself...
in a peaceful place...
I close my eyes...
and for a minute life fades..
I drift into dreams...
of marvelous things...
Where the animals roam..
and the free bird flies...
that is where..
my restless heart lies...
In a place that I can call my own..
Where only the best of things are shown..
Where in the morning..
the sun shines bright...
and when darkness lurks..
the stars fill the sky..
Where the breeze is mellow...
and the skies are clear...
and the sound of nature...
is all I hear.
and my problems are gone...
but I know this sanctuary...
never really lasts that long..
cause my candle flickers out...
and I leave my special place...
and it gets dark and quiet..
no light upon my face..
Reality is back...
and yet I still smile...
cause my trip was mighty lovely..
even if it lasted just a little while..
So when life gets me down...
the lights go off, and my mind drifts away...
to again return...
to my special place....
Peaceful...
Dreamy..
Passionate..
...............free.

- Brittany Tinkham

My Nobody

I had NOBODY to love me
NOBODY who cared
when I cried
NOBODY was there
there was NOBODy to trust
there was NOBODY to keep me warm
to protect me from the cold.
I had NOBODY to love my strengths
but also except my flaws
I had NOBODY to lean on
who was there to break my falls
Im so happy
Im so lucky
this is because...I found my NOBODY
- Brittany Tinkham

Please dont's

1.Please dont call
Cause ill think u still care
go ahead pick up the phone
only if u dare!
2. Please dont hug me
cause i dream of your touch
with 1 stroke of your finger my emotions risk so much!
3. Please dont say i love you
cause ill think you really d
Even though i said im done with your games
I find myself falling again 4 u
- Brittany Tinkham

Dear Mom

Hey mom its me.."your little gurl"
The one whom you've abandoned in this world
Ever since i was little i've learned to live without you
You've always let me down so now i always doubt you.
I cried for your attention, till i was blue in the face
but you and him drowned me in all of your disgrace
You never showed me compassion, you never showed me love
but now it came to bite you when push came shove.
Don't act like your the boss, you were never really there
Don't act like you know, when I know that you dont care.
Im just a stick of dynamite with a very very short fuse.
Im no longer your scapegoat,the one whom you abuse
Its all your fault you add fuel to the fire
Im done with your shit now im down to the wire!
but now im done cause it hurts to remember
p.s. oh! and when you get this......
dont respond back to sender!!!!
Sincerely,
Your no longer daughter!
- Brittany Tinkham

Why

I dont know why i am who i am
I dont know why i dont give a damn
I dont know why i hate to be alone
I dont know why i hate my own home
I dont know why i always have to lie
I dont know why i always wanna cry
I dont know why my patience runs on empty
I dont know why but bitch dont tempt me!
I dont know why i think im so ugly.
I dont know why i love to be funny.
I dont know why my friends are my life
I dont know why i stay up all night
I dont know why i like to stand out
I dont know why when i talk i seem to shout
I dont know why i laugh my problems away
I dont know why bad memories seem to stay
I dont know why i fucking hate my dad
I dont know why i love making him mad
I dont know why i cant stand my mother
I dont know why i have an autistic brother (not in a bad way)
I dont know why i end up wit bogus guyz
I dont know why my dreams could reach the sky
I dont know why i listen to rock bands
I dont know why id rather sit than stand
I dont know why id trade a skirt for some jeans
I dont know why im always so mean
I dont know why i gave this poem a try
I dont know why im always asking why!!!
- Brittany Tinkham