My Life

I open my eyes
But maybe its better they stay closed
For what misery today will bring
I just don't know

Every day is like the one before
I find I'm more hurt and lost
Than ever before

I can't remember a time
Where I was happy and smiling
It feels like forever
That inside I've been dying

It's strange
But I've got use to it
Being this way
It's part of my life now
Depressed everyday

I thrive on the sadness
That tears at my heart
I find some sort of comfort in it
This pain that rips me apart

I was once smiling
Once warm
And so care free
Now I look at myself
And say
"What has happened to me?"

What made me this way?
So cold and lost
Were the memories so bad
That I forced them to be forgot

How I can brake free?
And leave this behind
I'm tired of being this way all the time

I just want to be held close
But I know I'll push everyone away
I'm too scared to let anyone in
Because I know no one will stay

How do you fix a soul
Which has pieces long gone
How do you fix a life?
That has gone so badly wrong

How do you save a guy?
Who can't save himself?
How can you hear him
When he silently cries for help?

How do you save me?
When I've fallen so far
How can you heal these wounds
Which have turned to scars?

This is who I am
Every day and every night
Sad isn't it?

- T T

Hey Girl

Hey girl! why dont you observe my love?
wherever I go I see you in front of me

you set my heart on fire
believe me I'm not a liar

the minute you think of me
I'll be there for you

I can be your crying soldier
you can cry on my shoulder

I can be your soul protector
I'll die preventing anythng from harming you

you're the greatest thing
that could happen in a lifetime
love is something nobody can control,
and like you always sweet

wherever you are or whatever you do
you'll be a person who touches my life forever

if you look in my eyes
you'll find them calling for you
if you listen to my heart
you'll hear it saying "I LOVE YOU"

- Mohamed Balsha

Wait for you

As feelings collide into my deep soul,
I try my best to always keep you in mind.
Just when I feel like you slowly slip away,
You seem to know exactly when to come back.
And when I cry for your love,
Somehow I feel you hear it.
Alone with desperation,
Waiting for you to forever be mine.
Longing to hear your voice,
Telling me how much you care.
To feel the touch
That makes me feel so safe.
Longing to kiss the lips
That takes my breath away.

The longing inside my heart and soul
Aches when you’re not near.
Pictures and thoughts of you
Stay inside my mind.
I can’t bear the fact that you’re
Not by my side.
My mind wonders uncontrollably
Of where you might be.
Pain is what I feel.
Pain.

Waiting to gaze into the eyes
That tells a future.
My heart softly whispers
The true meaning of love.
Faster and faster my heart beats
When you’re near.
Slower and slower it gets
When you’re faraway.

A thousand pages are needed
To tell you exactly how I feel,
That the love you give to me
Is the love that seems so real.
Gently touching me to ease my pain away,
I just can’t imagine how life would
Be without that touch.

- Vanessa

Emptiness

I looked into your eyes, you turned away.
I felt your hand, it was cold.

I tried to smile, you laughed.
I enjoyed your company, your mind was elsewhere.

I tried to hold you, you closed your arms.
I tried to impress you, you werent interested.

I close my eyes and see you, you see other men.
I liked talking about you, so did you.

I trust you, you ''need time''.
I like your faults, you remind me of mine.

I love you, your lust has diminished.
I gave you my heart, you took my soul.

- Haroon Mahmood

Peaceful Place

In my room, I sit tonight..
No lights, no noise..
Just in candle light.
Just need my time of solitude...
to detox the mind...
and for the soul to be soothed...
I let my problems float away...
as I relax my body...
and reflect on my ways...
I begin to lose myself...
in a peaceful place...
I close my eyes...
and for a minute life fades..
I drift into dreams...
of marvelous things...
Where the animals roam..
and the free bird flies...
that is where..
my restless heart lies...
In a place that I can call my own..
Where only the best of things are shown..
Where in the morning..
the sun shines bright...
and when darkness lurks..
the stars fill the sky..
Where the breeze is mellow...
and the skies are clear...
and the sound of nature...
is all I hear.
and my problems are gone...
but I know this sanctuary...
never really lasts that long..
cause my candle flickers out...
and I leave my special place...
and it gets dark and quiet..
no light upon my face..
Reality is back...
and yet I still smile...
cause my trip was mighty lovely..
even if it lasted just a little while..
So when life gets me down...
the lights go off, and my mind drifts away...
to again return...
to my special place....
Peaceful...
Dreamy..
Passionate..
...............free.

- Brittany Tinkham

Goodbye Love

Here in your arms.
Im where I wanna be.
Everything I know
Is reflected in you and me
The waves crash on our feet
I see you drifting away
Don't chase him says my brain
But my heart feels a different way
Everything I know
Everything I see
Everything I feel
Its all
You and me
You're farther away now
I can't see into your eyes
But I know that our souls
Keep us safe
Together forever
So when you feel alone
Think about today
How we watched the sunset
And the waves drift you slowly away
I will try to be strong
But it won't last for long
Because you were too good to be true
When it was you and I
Well now your gone
And I never said goodbye
So goodbye my love
Goodbye my friend
Goodbye my lover
This is truly the end.

- Bengi

Untitled

Dead like a rose, cut like a wrist
Guarantee I wont be missed
Cold like winter, stale like bread
You'll be better off when I am dead
Useless like trash, worthless like shit
I am going bit by bit
mean like a bitch, empty like a hole
life is taking its toll
hard like bricks, screwed over like betrail
all I ever do is fail
mad as hell miserable like a rainy day
I dont deserve the suns ray
black as my soul, clumsy like a fall
HONESTLY IM NO GOOD AT ALL

- Caroline Logan

Snow

Under a subdued sun,
Basking in its glory
Purity at it's best,
The snow tells a story.

I'm glanced at in awe,
As if a blooming flower,
The heavens, my origin,
I'm compared to shining stars.

My airs are always chilly,
My temperature frozen cold
I breathe mists of water,
And always play outdoors.

Passer-by's perceive me
As a stunning view,
Earth, my destination,
Rainbow is my hue.

The moon is my companion,
The trees sell me their souls,
I spread my white feathers,
Over plains, mountains and moors.

I'm trodden upon and molested
I'm shoved and heaped aside,
Yet humanity foresees my coming,
As the best of winter times.

- Sonia Doreen Paul

Unrequited Love

I gaze at you from afar
Wishing I was her
the pretty girl you cherish
its more than I can bear

You said you loved me once
but that was all an lie
you left me here alone
now all I can do is cry

You picked me up and used me
as I was love sick fool
then you went back to your lover
the prettiest girl in school

now youve forgotten about me
but I cant let you go
boy you belong with me
I just cannot take no

so Im lying here in my bedroom
taking my last few gasps
Thinking of my soulmate
and the love that didnt last

- Lilly Jones

My Heart

With all my heart

I can still remember the days
I've been hurt so many times
A hopeless world of broken promises
So much suffering and the pain still remains
Knowing I like you and I've taken the risk
So confused and I don't know how to deal with it
For I know you feel the same, you've been hurt too

Why trust and love seem fading in our world?
Does good deed now seek an audience?
Like charity waits for its final recognition
Need some time for awhile before it heals
Even though the scars will remind me of you
I've gambled everything, my hope
My life in the palm of your powerful words

You've given me wings and took me high
Like an angel lifting a human soul to heaven
Afraid, yes I am but trusted you with all my heart
Suddenly in our journey you let go for no reason
Letting me fall in bottomless pit of unknown abyss
If only you took me where you are
I am sure I could love you with all my heart

Now I am crawling in the valley of death
Without no one to hold neither to cry on
All I got is my dying dreams and a token of hope
I drink with my tears to just quench my thirst
Oh, shameless agony of a begging heart
Take me to the light, so I may find my way
Let the sky dim for it's burning me, so I may rest
And may the rain pour from careless heaven
So I may wash away the dust of my shivering soul
And hide away my worthless tears of my misery

Someday, somehow things will fall into its places
I bear that in mind for you are being treasured
Where the maker would take me to my final destiny
I would proudly say, I've loved and saved one soul, just one
A life who dares to make a difference in my journey
In a world built for those who understand
The worth of a meaningful living
No matter how unbelievable or crazy I am to those
Who ever understand the fulfillment and joy it brings
For I will still love and to trust someone
Whatever that might be and even it will take away
The last breath of my dying lost soul

- Herofil Olarte