Gone but There

Day by day,
Night by night,
I'd never let,
Him out of sight.

Creep out of bed,
Open the door,
Just see him,
There once more.

Back to bed,
And off to sleep,
But in my dream,
I weep and weep.

I wake up fast,
And run next door,
The bed is vacant,
He's gone once more.

I take a seat,
And smell the air,
Physically gone,
But spiritually there.

- Sara

Betrayed

Stuck deep inside my own thoughts,
Questions tieing my mind in knots,
Feeling alone and feeling afraid,
But most of all, feeling betrayed.

The guy that always used to be there,
The only one i felt that truly cared,
Stabs my back and tells me lies,
And leaves me here alone to cry.

Then he comes home and tries to make up,
But deep down inside I am still hurt,
Using precious time he cannot see,
Not realising this crushes me.

- Sara

Confused Life

Like a flower,
Too late to bloom,
Things happen too fast,
They happen too soon.
Decisions yet,
Still undecided,
Feeling confused,
And under minded.
Feeling big,
But metaphorically small,
Wishing I,
Wasn't here at all.
Worst of all,
Feeling cheated,
Wishing I were,
Undefeated.
But life hits us,
At a great force,
When we think it can't,
Life WILL get worse.

- Sara

Little Trust

Being best friends from the very start,
But now we are continually drifting apart,
Finding things out from everyone else,
When it was always me you used to tell.

The one in which I'd always confide,
But now you can't seem to make up your mind,
To tell me now or to tell me not?
The little trust that I've now got.

Each truth you told me was repayed,
We shared our secrets, back in the day,
But now it's just a guessing game,
It's pissing me off, I'm full off shame.

But why should I feel the fault is mine,
When I kept your secrets every time,
If you can't trust me, that is fine,
Don't tell me your secrets, I won't tell you mine.

- Sara

Real Dream

The same thoughts running through her mind,
Of someone who is warm and kind,
Wishing the past was once more,
As she lays alone, curled, on the floor.

The tears slowly wet her cheeks,
As she counts the past in terms of weeks,
Drawing faint hearts on the page,
Knowing that this would always age.

But failing to see why things would fold,
Looking deeply depressed and feeling cold,
Thinking things just aren't right,
As she lays alone all through the night.

She closes her eyes and drifts to sleep,
Seeing him with every heartbeat,
Touching his lips and holding him so,
Telling him she'll never let go.

She looks into his deep, dark eyes,
And knows the past wasn't hidden in lies,
Their lips touch gently and in she leans,
This seams so real, it can't be a dream.

It feels as though this should be fate,
But soon enough she slowly awakes,
To lay alone and still on the floor,
Wishing to have this back once more.

- Sara

Life Pain

Dark deep thoughts in which i fear,
Often wishing i could disappear,
Problems I cannot bear to solve,
Wishing i was no longer involved.

I wish i could fly so far away,
From painful dilemmas I face each day,
Or curl up tightly on the floor,
To cry out all the pain, once more.

Life hardly ever seems to be fair,
And you hurt end up hurting those who care,
I often think that life would be,
A hell of a lot better without me.

- Sara

Dying Flower

The flower that once stood tall and strong,
Is dying now, but what went wrong?
A lack of love was in the air,
The fact of knowing no one cares,
Day by day a petal drops,
Lying on mud like heavy thoughts,
Like blood stops pumping through one's veins,
The withering plant no longer gains,
The vital things to survive alone,
But in the wind loneliness is blown,
Brown dead leaves are hanging low,
The flower will no longer grow,
Instead it droops into the ground,
Where in death the only joy is found.

- Sara