End of love

I walked before he could walk from me,
I tried not to love, for fear he was pretending,
I tried not to care, while he moved on from girl to girl,
Tried not to fear the tear of my heart, while he flirted.

Well now my hearts broken,
And I'm left with the tears I cry,
I'm left alone, guess it was all my fault.
I shouldn't have let you go,
and should have let you know..

That I'd do anything for you,
I'd set the world on fire, if you asked me too,
I'd spend a whole day, just dreaming of your face,
And I'd waste paper, just scribbling your name.

I know I messed up big this time around,
And I know, that you really don't care about me, anymore,
I know you love flirting and one night stands,
but just hear me out baby, try to understand.
I miss you, I love you, I want you back,
Baby can't you see all that?

Can't you see that I've changed, from better to worse,
that I've gone down a road, I haven't been before,
And that I'm scared, cause I don't know what to do,
get drunk get high, cut the pain away,
its all I can do, anymore.. Baby I'm so scared..
I lost the only thing I cared about.

So when you hear this, know I did care,
that I was just so scared,
Im sorry for all I did wrong, Im sorry for all I didn't love,
Im sorry for all I didn't notice, your sweetness..
Baby I miss you every day, and every night..
I miss being able to talk to you, all the time,
but I miss how distant we've become.

So forgive me, for singing this song,
cause baby, I knew all along,
this love story, would come to an end,
The end just came sooner than I ever expected.

So with these last words, I end this song,
I end this wonderful love..
Now begins the heartbreak and sadness, lonely nights.
The End of everything, I ever wanted or had.
It's the end now.

- Misty-Day Elizabeth

Long For

Sittin alone,
In artificial light,
Tryin to make it,
Through one last night.

A mix of emotions,
A heart full of woe,
Wondering where,
All this will go.

I felt it was right,
From the very first day,
But in just one second,
That was taken away.

I'm left here alone,
In fear and in pain,
Hoping the chance,
Will come back again.

I feel as though,
I've been taken apart,
Pieced back in the wrong sequence,
Missing half of my heart.

Sitting here blindly,
In search of my mind,
But the harder I look,
The less I can find.

What once came naturally,
Was cruelly taken away,
I've lost all trace of colour,
The world is now grey.

In seconds I fell,
From positive thoughts,
The creative talent,
That this one being brought.

But being out of my life,
Has left me so bare,
I have lost inspiration,
I'm left in confused despair.

I'm in my bed,
I toss and turn,
My eyes are red,
They're sore, they burn.

The same thoughts,
Run through my mind,
Of someone who,
Is warm and kind.

I feel him slide,
His hand in mine,
And remember when,
We met first time.

Now that's over,
I'm here alone,
Paranoia,
What have I done?

I'm all alone, I've lost my smile,
Wishing you had stayed a while,
Instead you ignore me when you like,
And fill my head with all your shit.

I'm over you, I'm out of love,
I'm lying here, I've had enough,
It's been a while, but I'm okay,
I take life as it comes each day.

But when I feel I've let you go,
You tell me that you've missed me so,
And once again I'm in your trap,
Even though you don't want me back.

So now I'm hooked just as before,
I lie here alone upon my floor,
Thinking of nothing else but you,
Adoration that's so confused.

I think I'm okay, and that life will go on,
But each night it's the same when I'm alone,
You say you care, and I believe each word,
But now I'm telling myself I've had enough.

I'm living in the past, life was better then,
I need you, we're supposed to be friends,
But each day you say you don't have the time,
Is when I realize that I have been blind.

You think you care about me, but this is a lie,
You try to be nice, and I always ask why,
This is not what you want, deep down inside,
And it's me that gets hurt every single time.

So leave me alone, I need time to myself,
In times of need, it was you that helped,
But you've hurt me now, and things will change,
Right now, I don't want to hear your name.

Everything you say, seems genuine to me,
But I'm hooked on you, it's easy to see.
I wish things were simple like the start,
but you messed me about, And broke my heart.

I know I will forgive you, and be okay in time,
I never fully believed you'd ever be mine,
But I'm still feeling this everyday,
Wishing things hadn't gone this way.

I need time alone, so I can move on,
And accept the fact, that I'm not the one,
So leave me to grieve at my own accord,
I don't want to hear from you. Not one word.

As tiredness dries up these heavy eyes,
I sit alone but I can't cry
The night is still and house is quiet,
I feel aggressive, my head's a riot.

My music plays too soft to hear,
MY happy thoughts just disappear,
I sit alone, I feel the cold,
I long for the past, I'm getting old.

I tap the keys, they echo loud,
I'm tryin so hard to make no sound,
But everyone's asleep, they cannot hear.
They do not know that I'm here.

The silence carries through the night,
The darkness blinds my only sight,
I sitting here wishing for the day,
To take the pain and suffering away.

I'm moving on, I'm starting again,
I'm not sure, if we should be friends.

I look at him, and see the past,
Wishing time would move on fast.

But blocking him out seems extreme,
And I'm not convinced it would help me.

I need to think this over, but it's a mess,
I'm still being in love. I confess.

Lies, deception, and more and more lies,
Or was it all just a painful disguise?
He loves me, but can't seem to work it out.
I question him to relieve my doubt.

But every single comment fogs my mind,
I remember him being warm and kind,
His answers are as confused as me,
The truth is something I will never see.

Wishing for clarity, and a little light,
To help me through each sleepless night,
I always believed he was the one for me,
But obviously that's not how it'll be.

- Sara

Blood stained heart

My blood stained heart will always show
From so much hurt he did not know
They said love would make you cry
They didn't warn me it made you wanna die

My blood stained heart everyone will see
What your love can truely be
And once you hear what's to be said
Your eyes will soon be red

My blood stained heart is turning blue
Cause my heart is hurting through and through
I wish it didn't hurt so bad
Cause all it does is make me sad

My blood stained heart will always remind me
Of the love which is now behind me
When we broke up all it caused was pain
And out of that pain was there anything to gain?

- Miranda Belcher

Life is deceiving

You take one quick look and you think you know me
but you dont
you take a quick look at my page
and you judge me
idiot
young
depress
and you get that right
Why?
because its my words thats written on there
but if you were to look at my pictures
you think
shy
innocent
and smart
Looks are deceiving
life is ending and your pain is just beginning
of the ending

- Jackie Hergh

Heart Never Mend

I have cried so many tears
and faced so many fears
all my feelings I have burned
its the way I have learned
to cope with what Ive been through
except no-one knew
Im trying to pick myself up
but Im stuck
my heart bruised and broken
my words go unspoken
a frown comes to my face
and a tear takes place
my heart is crying in a smile
this has been happening for a while
how can I take back the pain
when nothing is quite the same
I love you with all my heart
till the very end
even though my heart will never mend

- Caroline Logan

New Start

For those who are suicidal

I know your thoughts I feel your pain,
but to kill yourself theres nothing to gain.
Let him or her see your smile so bright,
Even if you have to wear it with a fight.
Don't cry over them for it's their loss,
Just rid your life and become your own boss.
You are far too sweet and you have a big heart,
And with them out of your life you can have a new start.

- Deb

Boys

Boys, destroy our dreams in teams,
Boys, make alot of noise,
Boys, tear our hearts apart,
Boys, cause fear when they are near
Boys, cause hurt, and are as bad as dirt
Boys, cause pain just for their own gain
Boys, play games with us which cause permanent stains
Boys, gave me all these scars, which I hide in jars,

I can never predict what a boy will do or when,
And yet I still love them.

- Caroline Logan

Lost You

How can I take back the pain
Nothing is quite the same
I'm hurt without you now
To forget you ....... someone show me how
I didn't know what to do
And now I am here with-out you
You are now with her
And I am here to suffer
How can I make myself understand I lost you
When all I can feel is love for you.

- Julie Ann Martinez

Pain no more

I hate the way I feel everyday,
I hate to say I aint going to stay,
I'm slowly going to fade,
I cant take no more of this pain,
It's all too much nothing to gain,
I plan my escape,
then I will feel free and alive,
with no more tears to cry

- David

Life Pain

Dark deep thoughts in which I fear
Often wishing I could disappear,
Problems I cannot bear to solve,
Wishing I was no longer involved.

I wish I could fly so far away,
From painful dilemmas I face each day,
Or curl up tightly on the floor,
To cry out all the hurt, once more.

Life hardly ever seems to be fair,
And you hurt end up hurting those who care,
I often think that life would be,
A hell of a lot better without me.

- Sara