All gone

Nothing matters
It’s all gone
I’m empty and she doesn’t care
It doesn’t matter
How I feel or what I say
She’s far away
And wouldn’t stay
No matter what I say
It wouldn’t matter anyway
I used to wait for the day
Just to hear her say
I miss you
Guess I was the biggest fool
Didn’t want to think you were cruel
I’m lonely now and broken
Left without even one token
Of love or caring
It all died on my birthday
How could I be so daring?
Thought you would understand
Why I was so upset
Instead you got mad at me
And hung up on me
It’s been a week
You wouldn’t even talk to me
How could you do that to me?
Nothing matters at all
I used to stand so tall
Now I wish for the stars
To cover up all these scars
Far away and small
Wonder if your thinking about me at all
Again I’m a fool for thinking
Guess I should be drinking
If only that were the way to get rid of my sadness
And bring me some gladness
Like I used to have
When I was with you
It was long ago
Why can’t I just let it go?
Like you have
You don’t feel me anymore
You’ve stopped keeping score
It’s all gone, as are you
Now I’m left with nothing to do
But brew
Over what once was
Just because
I’m an idiot and cared
And that is why I dared
To say what I said on my birthday
But I shouldn’t have shared
Because now I feel scared
And lost
And lonely
And hurt
And angry
And stupid
To think there ever was a cupid
For the two of us
Why did I make such a fuss?
It’s all over
I should just roll over
Because nothing matters anymore
You think I’m a bore
You think I’m a chore
And probably a whore
I can’t erase my mistakes
I believed you had forgiven me
I believed you loved me
And even when that part of it ended
I believed that at least there was something that mended
And that we had a friendship
You said you still adored me
You said that your heart still tightened
And that you would become frightened
When I was in trouble
And caught in some bubble
I believed you would help me
Get out of the rubble
Of this life that I live
In Binghamton while you are in Texas
Instead of staying close to me
You chose to make distance
I felt it but ignored it
I thought it was what you needed
I thought I would give it to you
Because you were my friend
And I loved you
I didn’t mind letting you go
I just didn’t want to lose you for good
Yet I did.
How could I know that you would
Let me go?
You let go fast
You forgot our past
Yes we had a past
A good past, a bad past
A past nonetheless
I understand you though
You don’t want to remember it
You’d rather forget what we had
It is easier that way
I understand that
Who would want to remember the hurt?
So you let me go fast and furious
Anytime I tried to talk about our past
You ran away fast
And I was left last
And I acted rash
It made me so sad though
That I was so slow
To recognize what you did
Long ago
And what others could see
But I never wanted it to be like that
And so I sat, and got fat
Denying what you could see
Which was what could again never be.
You saw the truth in front of us
Coming at us like a bus
About to hit
Difference between you and me was,
You got out of the way
And I chose to stay
In the way
Of a tragedy
Which was my soul shattered
You had sense enough to scatter
While I was like, "what's the matter"?
What a fool I was
Thinking that you still loved me like you once did
When instead you saw me as a kid
A fool and youngster
Naïve to the core
I have always been so unsure
This is not your problem though
And you made that clear
When you forgot all that I held dear

- Vanessa Maria R Torres

Before Old

Tryna Fake it
till I make it
standin here to make a show
to define you
and to study
just as far as you can go

do you seize me
how I like it
I'm so difficult
to read
like some paper
or a booklet
or a napkin
with a theme

here I'm standin
starin at you
lookin at you crossed the room
moppin floors
and changin pictures
if i kiss you
I will be doomed
won't this happen
or i show it
i regret
all my mistakes
wanna study
wanna get it
just before
its just too late

now you're leaving
I'm not leaving
starin at you as
you leave
one more shot
i don't have shots
so now I stand here
watch me bleed
cause i need you
wanna meet you
wanna know you
wanna hold
wanna stock you
wanna mock you
just before i get too old


now I'm washing all the
dishes
cleaning houses
cookin stoves
wish i moved
in your direction
now I got another load
much too laundry
much too cleaning
much too late to try again
when I see you
you'll be taken
so i guess
me
you
just friends

I will harass you
and embrace
you still
I'm slick I will get away
what I do
it might just harm you
i am
sure I will get away

I am charming
I am evil
you know me
i don't make sense
watch me
dancing
beneath roses
when I walk
behind your fence

yeah you see me
all around you
like a mellow
to a stove
why i tease you
with my clarence
now its me
and you alone

Am i crazy
you don't get it
what my poets
don't make sense
my names
ebony
mcmillan
I'm Highmaintenance
and intense

so define me
and come seize me
study lift
and over all
watch my safety tips
and safety net
cause one day I will fall

- Ebony Mcmillan

I thought

I thought your love would last forever
I thought the chapter of loneliness had ended
Did you not want us to start a journey
Did you not want happiness
I thought you were different
I thought your love was truth
Now I sit in the dark, drinking my sadness away
the bottle half empty and my heart aching
I got tangled in your arms and I saw my life in your eyes
What a mistake it was to think that your love would last forever
Now I want to ask you one thing
Did you know that your love would break my heart forever?

- Sonia Banda

Given Chance

Somehow it exists in my own little world
Knowing it will always be a curse without sign
Indeed, can only be seen and be understood
In someone's truthful sight and fearless tongue

Aware or unaware, indeed I made a mistake
Hopelessly without your guiding light
I am afraid, lost and greatly in disguise
Believe me if only I could undo the past
I will do it before your gentle heart starts to ache

Sooner or later I know my life would be in the next
Bear in mind without your sincerest forgiveness
I am miserable and in great loneliness
Without you, I know I will crawl
Before I will learn to walk again
Believe me when I say this to you
You are my life and I still needed you

If given a chance
From now on
I will hold your heart
As gently as I can
Just to love and keep you
Once again…
Forevermore…

- Herofil Olarte

My Life

I don't know what to do with my life
Do I settle down, become a good wife
Or do I follow my many dreams
As I listen to my family's screams
It's not an easy decision to make
And I could end up making a huge mistake
I don't want to disappoint anybody
Though, in the end I might disappoint everybody
I thought I had my future planned out
But now there are few things I'm sure about
I'm no longer sure what tomorrow will bring
Maybe new friends, a job, or a ring
My life has become one big blur
This is not the life I would prefer
I want to go back to when life was black or white
Back to when the right answer was bright
Back to the time when I knew what to do
And which of my friends I knew would stay true
I'm running out of time to make my decision
I hope my future is everything I envision
It's time for me to take a break
This is what Im thinking about as I lie awake
I do not know where I belong
I don't know if I can handle being wrong
I want to follow my heart wherever it may lead
Cause I know deep down it will let me succeed

- Breanne Cope