I am sorry

Sorry for irritating all,
Sorry for disappointing all.
I did not think of doing all this,
I did not mean to do all this

I tried my best,
I did my best.
But I failed,
But I was unsuccessful.

What I did in the end was the only way,
What I did in the end was the only solution.
I had no other choice,
I had no other alternative.

My mind was full of thoughts,
My mind was confused.
I hope all will forgive me,
I hope all will forget what I have done.

Can my actions really be forgiven?
Can my actions really be forgotten?
I am remorseful,
I am sorry.

- Wanji Bunji

Forever and Always

Just when I thought it was bad
It got worse
You made me believe again

I hurt you in a way unforgivable
But somehow you made me pay for it
With hurt
With misery
So much that when food touches my lips
It sends message to my mind to refuse it

I pushed you away
It was all my fault
But to give me hope again
Its unfair

You gave me hope
When I needed to be mad
And now I’ve made a decision
That I was supposed to make
But now I don’t want to
Because it means you out of my life
Which I never wanted you to be
But it hurts so much
I can’t look into your eyes
Without seeing her

This is wrong

I wish I was mad
Cause when I was
It made it easy
Easy To forget
Easy To move on
Easy To realise I have other things to look forward to
But now I can’t turn away
Because I want to see your eyes again
I want to wake up next to you
I want your stupid jokes and laughs in my life
I can’t turn back and regret

Everyone says I can do better
But they have no idea how madly in love I am
You have so many faults
And were so opposite
And I can’t believe that I feel this way about you
I never saw this coming

But now I had you in my life
Your everything
Everything I could ever dream of
Everything I could ever hoped for
I need you again
Forever and always.

- Anita Walsh

They hate me

My Shadow wants to eat me
My Heart wants to burst
My liver wants to leave me
My eyes Pray that I die
My lungs want to Suffocate me
Everything I am Hates me
whats wrong with that
My Name Lost itself in my insanity
Im so Nameless I forget
All this Hating
Im losing this civil war
Im losing in this Little life of mine
I pray that it will just Die

- Jackie Hergh

How

What to say to the person that loved you once??
How do you explain to yourself
that it's not how it used to be???
How do you not get nervous when you see him?
How do you walk away and try not to cry??
How can you look at him
and not remember what it was like??
How can you not think of him
for the rest of the day??
How do you pretend you don't care
when you hear from him??
How do you go to bed
and not think of all those good times you spent with him??
How can you not smile when you remember
how he used to make you laugh??
How are you going to spend the cold winter without him??
It's just not the same...
how do you believe all the shit he did to you??
Why are you still nice to him??
After all you cried…
Why do you still smile at him?
How do you not think of him
when you listen to that "stupid song"??
How do you make yourself understand
that the love is gone??
How do you make the pain go away??
How do you explain to yourself
that you are not the girl he has been waiting for??
How do you forget all those promises
and pretend like he never said them??
How can you erase all the memories??
How can you pretend like nothing ever happened??
How??

- Silvia C

Start New

Love Lasting,
I guess you could call it a thing,
4 yrs it carried,
And now it's all trying to be buried,
My first real love,
Got lost above,
And threw everything away,
There was nothing more to say,
After so many times he broke my heart,
It was like a shooting dart,
So many times,
So many crimes,
To much to handle,
So now here I am starting brand new,
Always wondering how I really got threw,
Now it's hard to trust,
Even though I know I must,
But after the past,
How long will the truth last,
I always get hurt,
I always feel like I'm just dirt,
Are there people out there that are true,
I truly wish I knew,
I want to be happy,
And not sappy,
I want someone to be true to me,
Please help me see,
Make me believe there's good not only bad,
Because bad is all I ever had,
I always go for those bad boys,
That are like little toys,
That just play and play,
And there's nothing you can say,
There's nothing you can do,
Or they'll just forget all about you and be like who?
Like they never knew,
I just want to live my life,
And stop being stabbed with a knife,
Right where my heart is.
I just need to free my mind,
And really look what I need to find,
Im sick of being sad,
And that's what I feel like that all I have ever had,
Now I want to start brand new,
And find my one true Boo.

- Kristen A Szymanski

Move On

Questions in my heart
bothering me all day and night
I dont know when to start
asking this person why
I know I cant, coz I'm shy

Please give me a clue
coz these questions are glued
I dont know why I am so worried
I think this has been burried
so deep that no one can dig

I cant get it out of my mind
I just need him here by my side
I cant believe this
why am I so obsessed?
and Im so clueless

Moving on is my only option
to forget this emotion
eventhough without an answer
with this question bothering me everywhere
but I cant do it, I swear.

- Princess Peralta

First Love

I can't get you out of my head
Its weighing my body down like lead
Im thinking about you twenty-four/seven
You used to make me feel like I was in heaven
My heart feels like its breaking
I cant stop it from aching
Why can't I move on from you
We have already said adieu
I didn't want to give you my heart
It began to happen from the start
You were my first and so far only love
In the end you pushed me away with a shove
You've hurt me too much to go back to you
Yet I cant stop thinking of all we've been through
I remember us laying out under the stars
Jumping away from each other when we heard the cars
When you held me in your arms you kept me warm
I was protected from everything, even a storm
You made me laugh, you made me smile
My time with you was completely worthwhile
I have tried so hard to forget and move on
I hate knowing from my life you are gone
I trusted you with everything I had
Because, boy, you made me so glad
I don't think I will ever forget you
We were great together, us two.

- Breanne Cope

Last Chance

Deeper each day and more above
As days went by and I remembered
For ever and ever your love is so tender
But I guess the day just had to come
The day you and I would be done
I don't understand why this is
But it was your choice for this
See you ended it and not me
I guess that is why I don't see
And now you want your separate way
I've been dreading all along for this day
I feel like maybe you have found another one
Somebody else that can say they have won
If this is true then let it be
But let you know he will never be me
This is you because forever is way too long
But I don't think one month sums up the song
And for you it did it wrapped it up
I guess true love does not come in a cup
So have fun with what you do
And know that your "one" got away from you
The fun we had will never be loss
In good and bad times and through a cross
So go have fun live your life and forget
And please never say you regret
Because here is your last chance your final shot
But your "forever" already came last month
Im sorry for putting you through this pain
It was not intentional and hard to sustain
Just know that I will always love you
Will you please love me too?

- Emanuel Sifuentes

Lost You

How can I take back the pain
Nothing is quite the same
I'm hurt without you now
To forget you ....... someone show me how
I didn't know what to do
And now I am here with-out you
You are now with her
And I am here to suffer
How can I make myself understand I lost you
When all I can feel is love for you.

- Julie Ann Martinez

Miss You

I miss you till we meet again

I will never forget the day
the day you left me behind to stay
that night we met meant so much to me
never thought I'd fall but now I see
how much I loved you
but never had a clue
as to how much I'd be missin you
never wanted to say goodbye
all I could do was cry
when we hugged that night
never wanted to let you out of my sight
now i guess its too late
to show you how i really feel
maybe someday, someway we'll meet again
but until then
I miss you

- Taylor