All Alone

I don't understand,
I don't know why,
why u did this to me,
why u wanted to die.
I can't understand,
cuz it hurts like hell,
to think u felt so terrible,
and couldn't even tell.
I won't understand,
it was just so wrong,
u didn't have to leave me,
as though u don't belong.
now I feel so empty,
and everywhere I turn,
there's always something missing,
for u I always yearn.
and it hurts me very much,
that u didn't say goodbye,
just left one day without me,
left me all alone to cry.
I don't understand,
why u felt things were that bad,
that u just gave up everything,
u ever knew or had.
I'm sorry I didn't know,
I'm sorry I wasn't there,
now I'm here all alone,
u left, it's just not fair.
I can't understand,
how could u die,
when I needed u so much,
in return, u left me to cry.
I will never understand,
why u took your life away,
I'll never make it without u,
it will never be ok..............

- Kathryn Chandler

Life Pain

Dark deep thoughts in which I fear,
Often wishing I could disappear,
Problems I cannot bear to solve,
Wishing I was no longer involved.

I wish I could fly so far away,
From painful dilemmas I face each day,
Or curl up tightly on the floor,
To cry out all the pain, once more.

Life hardly ever seems to be fair,
And you hurt end up hurting those who care,
I often think that life would be,
A hell of a lot better without me.

- Sara