All gone

Nothing matters
It’s all gone
I’m empty and she doesn’t care
It doesn’t matter
How I feel or what I say
She’s far away
And wouldn’t stay
No matter what I say
It wouldn’t matter anyway
I used to wait for the day
Just to hear her say
I miss you
Guess I was the biggest fool
Didn’t want to think you were cruel
I’m lonely now and broken
Left without even one token
Of love or caring
It all died on my birthday
How could I be so daring?
Thought you would understand
Why I was so upset
Instead you got mad at me
And hung up on me
It’s been a week
You wouldn’t even talk to me
How could you do that to me?
Nothing matters at all
I used to stand so tall
Now I wish for the stars
To cover up all these scars
Far away and small
Wonder if your thinking about me at all
Again I’m a fool for thinking
Guess I should be drinking
If only that were the way to get rid of my sadness
And bring me some gladness
Like I used to have
When I was with you
It was long ago
Why can’t I just let it go?
Like you have
You don’t feel me anymore
You’ve stopped keeping score
It’s all gone, as are you
Now I’m left with nothing to do
But brew
Over what once was
Just because
I’m an idiot and cared
And that is why I dared
To say what I said on my birthday
But I shouldn’t have shared
Because now I feel scared
And lost
And lonely
And hurt
And angry
And stupid
To think there ever was a cupid
For the two of us
Why did I make such a fuss?
It’s all over
I should just roll over
Because nothing matters anymore
You think I’m a bore
You think I’m a chore
And probably a whore
I can’t erase my mistakes
I believed you had forgiven me
I believed you loved me
And even when that part of it ended
I believed that at least there was something that mended
And that we had a friendship
You said you still adored me
You said that your heart still tightened
And that you would become frightened
When I was in trouble
And caught in some bubble
I believed you would help me
Get out of the rubble
Of this life that I live
In Binghamton while you are in Texas
Instead of staying close to me
You chose to make distance
I felt it but ignored it
I thought it was what you needed
I thought I would give it to you
Because you were my friend
And I loved you
I didn’t mind letting you go
I just didn’t want to lose you for good
Yet I did.
How could I know that you would
Let me go?
You let go fast
You forgot our past
Yes we had a past
A good past, a bad past
A past nonetheless
I understand you though
You don’t want to remember it
You’d rather forget what we had
It is easier that way
I understand that
Who would want to remember the hurt?
So you let me go fast and furious
Anytime I tried to talk about our past
You ran away fast
And I was left last
And I acted rash
It made me so sad though
That I was so slow
To recognize what you did
Long ago
And what others could see
But I never wanted it to be like that
And so I sat, and got fat
Denying what you could see
Which was what could again never be.
You saw the truth in front of us
Coming at us like a bus
About to hit
Difference between you and me was,
You got out of the way
And I chose to stay
In the way
Of a tragedy
Which was my soul shattered
You had sense enough to scatter
While I was like, "what's the matter"?
What a fool I was
Thinking that you still loved me like you once did
When instead you saw me as a kid
A fool and youngster
Naïve to the core
I have always been so unsure
This is not your problem though
And you made that clear
When you forgot all that I held dear

- Vanessa Maria R Torres

Beautiful Wife

For my beautiful wife

You come to me like a shining star from the starry sky
Giving me guiding light and inspiration is my darkest night
Making me sing a new melody at lonesome days as it passes by
Taking away weariness, with your beautiful smiles

You’re the sunshine that sprouts seeds at twilight of my life
That brings new vision, new challenges to live without strife
As your nocturnal cries awaken the birds to fly high and be free
Unafraid of whatever strong winds that may come their way

You’re the rain that washes away the pain of my haunting past
Keeping me dry with your warm thoughts and lively eyes
Where colorful butterflies give beautiful thoughts for tomorrow
That paints enchanting, magnificent rainbow in my new heaven

Thy laughter and mimicry is a cool breeze that fans streams
To perk up waterfalls around me to strum sonorous rhythm
Sharing sonata to the valleys and hills that are dry and lifeless
Liken to my heart that needs love, sympathy, care and praises

Oh! How blessed am I to have you my beautiful wife
Abundant oasis of hope that waters henceforth life’s emptiness
Ushering in more blessings of love, peace and success in me
Had been elusive in years I lived in lifelessness and shame!

- Herofil Olarte

A Hug

Hugs can be brief and pleasant
or they can be lasting and warm.
But whether the hug be short or long,
it can ease the darkest storm.

A hug is to make you feel safe
and to let you know I care.
It's to make the fearful moments,
a little easier to bear.

When I have my arms around you,
I feel no worries or alarm.
It's then I know without a doubt,
to you there can come no harm.

But if we were to look more closely,
the truth we'd clearly see.
The hugs we share to comfort you,
are really helping me.

Your hugs fill an empty place,
that's been in my heart for years
A hug from you is the best way,
to dry up these age old tears.

- Bart Adams

Alone by myself

Alone,
By myself.
With no one to talk to,
With no one to share my troubles with.

In a crowded room,
In a crowded group.
Always alone in the corner,
Always alone at the back.

With all of them in pairs
With all of them hand in hand.
With happiness written on their faces,
With joy emitting from them.

While I am here with no one,
While I am here without smiles.
My heart is full of emptiness,
My heart is full of coldness.


Can you help me?
Can you heal my heart?
Do you know how I feel?
Do you know the taste of being alone?

- Wanji Bunji

I thought

I thought your love would last forever
I thought the chapter of loneliness had ended
Did you not want us to start a journey
Did you not want happiness
I thought you were different
I thought your love was truth
Now I sit in the dark, drinking my sadness away
the bottle half empty and my heart aching
I got tangled in your arms and I saw my life in your eyes
What a mistake it was to think that your love would last forever
Now I want to ask you one thing
Did you know that your love would break my heart forever?

- Sonia Banda

Untitled

Dead like a rose, cut like a wrist
Guarantee I wont be missed
Cold like winter, stale like bread
You'll be better off when I am dead
Useless like trash, worthless like shit
I am going bit by bit
mean like a bitch, empty like a hole
life is taking its toll
hard like bricks, screwed over like betrail
all I ever do is fail
mad as hell miserable like a rainy day
I dont deserve the suns ray
black as my soul, clumsy like a fall
HONESTLY IM NO GOOD AT ALL

- Caroline Logan

All Alone

I don't understand,
I don't know why,
why you did this to me,
why you wanted to die.
I can't understand,
cuz it hurts like hell,
to think you felt so terrible,
and couldn't even tell.
I won't understand,
it was just so wrong,
you didn't have to leave me,
as though you don't belong.
now I feel so empty,
and everywhere I turn,
there's always something missing,
for you I always yearn.
and it hurts me very much,
that you didn't say goodbye,
just left one day without me,
left me all alone to cry.
I don't understand,
why you felt things were that bad,
that you just gave up everything,
you ever knew or had.
Im sorry I didn't know,
Im sorry I wasn't there,
now I'm here all alone,
you left, it's just not fair.
I can't understand,
how could you die,
when I needed you so much,
in return, you left me to cry.
I will never understand,
why you took your life away,
I will never make it without you,
it will never be ok..............

- Kathryn Chandler

Wait for Love

Love is such a strong word but I cant help but thinking about it
everytime I see you I just want to shout it
Im just here waiting for your call
save me from walking this empty hall
Because thats how I feel when your not with me
I feel empty as you can see
And now Im here waiting for you
just to tell you I love you

- Michael Szwed

Unforgotten Memories

As I sit here all alone.
Trying to reminisce days that passed.
Joyful memories engraved in our hearts.
Hurt and sadness that crossed our path.
Somehow it seems like a fantasy.
Fairy tales from a child's memory.
That all ends happily ever after.
Dreams I encounter whenever I am asleep...
All seem like real to me.
But sometimes feel as empty as me.
When morning comes I must wake.
Then my dreams would slowly fade.
Dreams of you and me together
How I would love to sleep forever.
To hold on to my precious dreams.
And never let it slip through my hand
But as I try to wake dreams slowly fade.
Even as it slowly fades.
I know in my heart it would stay.
Just as the autumn leaves would lie on the ground.
And as it slowly returns when spring arrives.
Love forgotten in the passing of time.
Hurt and sadness scarred by time.
A dagger pierced straight at my heart.
Longing for someone to pull it apart.
Then you came and gave me a chance.
A chance to mend a broken heart.
Memories would stay right here with me.
And let it be part of the sky.
An endless sky with no boundaries.
Filled by my unforgotten memories.

- Ronald Florence Abas

Why

I dont know why i am who i am
I dont know why i dont give a damn
I dont know why i hate to be alone
I dont know why i hate my own home
I dont know why i always have to lie
I dont know why i always wanna cry
I dont know why my patience runs on empty
I dont know why but bitch dont tempt me!
I dont know why i think im so ugly.
I dont know why i love to be funny.
I dont know why my friends are my life
I dont know why i stay up all night
I dont know why i like to stand out
I dont know why when i talk i seem to shout
I dont know why i laugh my problems away
I dont know why bad memories seem to stay
I dont know why i fucking hate my dad
I dont know why i love making him mad
I dont know why i cant stand my mother
I dont know why i have an autistic brother (not in a bad way)
I dont know why i end up wit bogus guyz
I dont know why my dreams could reach the sky
I dont know why i listen to rock bands
I dont know why id rather sit than stand
I dont know why id trade a skirt for some jeans
I dont know why im always so mean
I dont know why i gave this poem a try
I dont know why im always asking why!!!
- Brittany Tinkham