My Life

I open my eyes
But maybe its better they stay closed
For what misery today will bring
I just don't know

Every day is like the one before
I find I'm more hurt and lost
Than ever before

I can't remember a time
Where I was happy and smiling
It feels like forever
That inside I've been dying

It's strange
But I've got use to it
Being this way
It's part of my life now
Depressed everyday

I thrive on the sadness
That tears at my heart
I find some sort of comfort in it
This pain that rips me apart

I was once smiling
Once warm
And so care free
Now I look at myself
And say
"What has happened to me?"

What made me this way?
So cold and lost
Were the memories so bad
That I forced them to be forgot

How I can brake free?
And leave this behind
I'm tired of being this way all the time

I just want to be held close
But I know I will push everyone away
I'm too scared to let anyone in
Because I know no one will stay

How do you fix a soul
Which has pieces long gone
How do you fix a life?
That has gone so badly wrong

How do you save a guy?
Who can't save himself?
How can you hear him
When he silently cries for help?

How do you save me?
When I've fallen so far
How can you heal these wounds
Which have turned to scars?

This is who I am
Every day and every night
sad isn't it?

- T T

Him

Anger, rage, false accusations,
This situation is so frustrating,
Fear and terror of what will become,
Loving him, like he's the one.

Broken hearts, and restless minds,
Thinking I must be going blind,
Sorrow and depression once again,
Wishing he would be my friend.

Flashbacks, memories, things were said,
Repeating themselves over in my head,
tryin desperately to move on from this,
But faithfully wanting to be his.

- Sara

Life is deceiving

You take one quick look and you think you know me
but you dont
you take a quick look at my page
and you judge me
idiot
young
depress
and you get that right
Why?
because its my words thats written on there
but if you were to look at my pictures
you think
shy
innocent
and smart
Looks are deceiving
life is ending and your pain is just beginning
of the ending

- Jackie Hergh

Real Dream

The same thoughts running through her mind,
Of someone who is warm and kind,
Wishing the past was once more,
As she lays alone, curled, on the floor.

The tears slowly wet her cheeks,
As she counts the past in terms of weeks,
Drawing faint hearts on the page,
Knowing that this would always age.

But failing to see why things would fold,
Looking deeply depressed and feeling cold,
Thinking things just aren't right,
As she lays alone all through the night.

She closes her eyes and drifts to sleep,
Seeing him with every heartbeat,
Touching his lips and holding him so,
Telling him she'll never let go.

She looks into his deep, dark eyes,
And knows the past wasn't hidden in lies,
Their lips touch gently and in she leans,
This seams so real, it can't be a dream.

It feels as though this should be fate,
But soon enough she slowly awakes,
To lay alone and still on the floor,
Wishing to have this back once more.

- Sara