Long For

Sittin alone,
In artificial light,
Tryin to make it,
Through one last night.

A mix of emotions,
A heart full of woe,
Wondering where,
All this will go.

I felt it was right,
From the very first day,
But in just one second,
That was taken away.

I'm left here alone,
In fear and in pain,
Hoping the chance,
Will come back again.

I feel as though,
I've been taken apart,
Pieced back in the wrong sequence,
Missing half of my heart.

Sitting here blindly,
In search of my mind,
But the harder I look,
The less I can find.

What once came naturally,
Was cruelly taken away,
I've lost all trace of colour,
The world is now grey.

In seconds I fell,
From positive thoughts,
The creative talent,
That this one being brought.

But being out of my life,
Has left me so bare,
I have lost inspiration,
I'm left in confused despair.

I'm in my bed,
I toss and turn,
My eyes are red,
They're sore, they burn.

The same thoughts,
Run through my mind,
Of someone who,
Is warm and kind.

I feel him slide,
His hand in mine,
And remember when,
We met first time.

Now that's over,
I'm here alone,
Paranoia,
What have I done?

I'm all alone, I've lost my smile,
Wishing you had stayed a while,
Instead you ignore me when you like,
And fill my head with all your shit.

I'm over you, I'm out of love,
I'm lying here, I've had enough,
It's been a while, but I'm okay,
I take life as it comes each day.

But when I feel I've let you go,
You tell me that you've missed me so,
And once again I'm in your trap,
Even though you don't want me back.

So now I'm hooked just as before,
I lie here alone upon my floor,
Thinking of nothing else but you,
Adoration that's so confused.

I think I'm okay, and that life will go on,
But each night it's the same when I'm alone,
You say you care, and I believe each word,
But now I'm telling myself I've had enough.

I'm living in the past, life was better then,
I need you, we're supposed to be friends,
But each day you say you don't have the time,
Is when I realize that I have been blind.

You think you care about me, but this is a lie,
You try to be nice, and I always ask why,
This is not what you want, deep down inside,
And it's me that gets hurt every single time.

So leave me alone, I need time to myself,
In times of need, it was you that helped,
But you've hurt me now, and things will change,
Right now, I don't want to hear your name.

Everything you say, seems genuine to me,
But I'm hooked on you, it's easy to see.
I wish things were simple like the start,
but you messed me about, And broke my heart.

I know I will forgive you, and be okay in time,
I never fully believed you'd ever be mine,
But I'm still feeling this everyday,
Wishing things hadn't gone this way.

I need time alone, so I can move on,
And accept the fact, that I'm not the one,
So leave me to grieve at my own accord,
I don't want to hear from you. Not one word.

As tiredness dries up these heavy eyes,
I sit alone but I can't cry
The night is still and house is quiet,
I feel aggressive, my head's a riot.

My music plays too soft to hear,
MY happy thoughts just disappear,
I sit alone, I feel the cold,
I long for the past, I'm getting old.

I tap the keys, they echo loud,
I'm tryin so hard to make no sound,
But everyone's asleep, they cannot hear.
They do not know that I'm here.

The silence carries through the night,
The darkness blinds my only sight,
I sitting here wishing for the day,
To take the pain and suffering away.

I'm moving on, I'm starting again,
I'm not sure, if we should be friends.

I look at him, and see the past,
Wishing time would move on fast.

But blocking him out seems extreme,
And I'm not convinced it would help me.

I need to think this over, but it's a mess,
I'm still being in love. I confess.

Lies, deception, and more and more lies,
Or was it all just a painful disguise?
He loves me, but can't seem to work it out.
I question him to relieve my doubt.

But every single comment fogs my mind,
I remember him being warm and kind,
His answers are as confused as me,
The truth is something I will never see.

Wishing for clarity, and a little light,
To help me through each sleepless night,
I always believed he was the one for me,
But obviously that's not how it'll be.

- Sara

Wait for you

As feelings collide into my deep soul,
I try my best to always keep you in mind.
Just when I feel like you slowly slip away,
You seem to know exactly when to come back.
And when I cry for your love,
Somehow I feel you hear it.
Lonely with desperation,
Waiting for you to forever be mine.
Longing to hear your voice,
Telling me how much you care.
To feel the touch
That makes me feel so safe.
Longing to kiss the lips
That takes my breath away.

The longing inside my heart and soul
Aches when you’re not near.
Pictures and thoughts of you
Stay inside my mind.
I can’t bear the fact that you’re
Not by my side.
My mind wonders uncontrollably
Of where you might be.
Pain is what I feel.
Hurt.

Waiting to gaze into the eyes
That tells a future.
My heart softly whispers
The true meaning of love.
Faster and faster my heart beats
When you’re near.
Slower and slower it gets
When you’re faraway.

A thousand pages are needed
To tell you exactly how I feel,
That the love you give to me
Is the love that seems so real.
Gently touching me to ease my pain away,
I just can’t imagine how life would
Be without that touch.

- Vanessa

My Life

I don't know what to do with my life
Do I settle down, become a good wife
Or do I follow my many dreams
As I listen to my family's screams
It's not an easy decision to make
And I could end up making a huge mistake
I don't want to disappoint anybody
Though, in the end I might disappoint everybody
I thought I had my future planned out
But now there are few things I'm sure about
I'm no longer sure what tomorrow will bring
Maybe new friends, a job, or a ring
My life has become one big blur
This is not the life I would prefer
I want to go back to when life was black or white
Back to when the right answer was bright
Back to the time when I knew what to do
And which of my friends I knew would stay true
I'm running out of time to make my decision
I hope my future is everything I envision
It's time for me to take a break
This is what Im thinking about as I lie awake
I do not know where I belong
I don't know if I can handle being wrong
I want to follow my heart wherever it may lead
Cause I know deep down it will let me succeed

- Breanne Cope

Move On

Questions in my heart
bothering me all day and night
I dont know when to start
asking this person why
I know I cant, coz I'm shy

Please give me a clue
coz these questions are glued
I dont know why I am so worried
I think this has been burried
so deep that no one can dig

I cant get it out of my mind
I just need him here by my side
I cant believe this
why am I so obsessed?
and Im so clueless

Moving on is my only option
to forget this emotion
eventhough without an answer
with this question bothering me everywhere
but I cant do it, I swear.

- Princess Peralta

Last Chance

Deeper each day and more above
As days went by and I remembered
For ever and ever your love is so tender
But I guess the day just had to come
The day you and I would be done
I don't understand why this is
But it was your choice for this
See you ended it and not me
I guess that is why I don't see
And now you want your separate way
I've been dreading all along for this day
I feel like maybe you have found another one
Somebody else that can say they have won
If this is true then let it be
But let you know he will never be me
This is you because forever is way too long
But I don't think one month sums up the song
And for you it did it wrapped it up
I guess true love does not come in a cup
So have fun with what you do
And know that your "one" got away from you
The fun we had will never be loss
In good and bad times and through a cross
So go have fun live your life and forget
And please never say you regret
Because here is your last chance your final shot
But your "forever" already came last month
Im sorry for putting you through this pain
It was not intentional and hard to sustain
Just know that I will always love you
Will you please love me too?

- Emanuel Sifuentes

Sadist

You called me your wife
and said I'm your life
The first day you called me
made me feel so happy

You kissed me on the first meeting
thinking its not wrong
Everyday you called me without fail
and I thought you were after me like a tail

When we met again
you tried to do things that were not right
Sooner or later,
you stopped your love

I thought of a reason,
and I realised after you touched me
all you could do was drifting away

Im starting to hate you
Im sorry but its true
You told me plenty of lies
and did those pathetic tries

Your killing me deep inside
with hundreds and thousands
of stabbing knives!

And now your gonna regret,
because your in trouble
come begging me Baby
try your best and dont be a pest
FOR ALL I CARE!

Im goin on a new path
for my new love
and I swear,
I will never find a sadist like you!

- SugarPRINCESS Nisha

Much Love

Alex,
I love you with all my heart,
Till the very end.
Even though my heart will never mend.
I trust you with all my heart,
I always have, since the start.
You make me feel like flying,
While deep inside Im dying.
Hearts and such, darling dear,
When your around, I never fear.
Alex honey, I love you so much,
And I always will crave your touch

I love you sooooooooo much Alex

- Caroline Logan

Life No Regret

To love another
you must first love yourself...
but how do you love yourself
when you are a stranger in your own eyes...
your greatest fear is yourself...
waiting on a hero that will never come...
is it worth going on...
but if you look deep enough
you will see the truth...
that the hero lies in you...
life is not how hard it hits you down
it is whether you get back up again...
you can't always get what you want...
and you can't appreciate life until you've been burned...
stay in the race because you will only look back
and regret what might have been...BUT...
never regret anything that made you SMILE...

- Shy

Betrayed

Stuck deep inside my own thoughts,
Questions tieing my mind in knots,
Feeling lonely and feeling afraid,
But most of all, feeling betrayed.

The guy that always used to be there,
The only one I felt that truly cared,
Stabs my back and tells me lies,
And leaves me here alone to cry.

Then he comes home and tries to make up,
But deep down inside I am still hurt,
Using precious time he cannot see,
Not realising this crushes me.

- Sara

Life Pain

Dark deep thoughts in which I fear
Often wishing I could disappear,
Problems I cannot bear to solve,
Wishing I was no longer involved.

I wish I could fly so far away,
From painful dilemmas I face each day,
Or curl up tightly on the floor,
To cry out all the hurt, once more.

Life hardly ever seems to be fair,
And you hurt end up hurting those who care,
I often think that life would be,
A hell of a lot better without me.

- Sara