Life is deceiving

You take one quick look and you think you know me
but you dont
you take a quick look at my page
and you judge me
idiot
young
depress
and you get that right
Why?
because its my words thats written on there
but if you were to look at my pictures
you think
shy
innocent
and smart
Looks are deceiving
life is ending and your pain is just beginning
of the ending

Special Love

I've never really understood
Nor thought it could be real
For the special love you've shown
Can't be measured in distance nor in time

Each moment with you
Seems timeless and filled with hope
You give me life and indeed
You are my life forevermore

No matter what, no matter where
All I ever hoped and prayed
Is for us to be always together
From this day until our next journey
For I belong to you and you
Were destined to be with me

- Herofil Olarte

My Life

I don't know what to do with my life
Do I settle down, become a good wife
Or do I follow my many dreams
As I listen to my family's screams
It's not an easy decision to make
And I could end up making a huge mistake
I don't want to disappoint anybody
Though, in the end I might disappoint everybody
I thought I had my future planned out
But now there are few things I am sure about
I am no longer sure what tomorrow will bring
Maybe new friends, a job, or a ring
My life has become one big blur
This is not the life I would prefer
I want to go back to when life was black or white
Back to when the right answer was bright
Back to the time when I knew what to do
And which of my friends I knew would stay true
I am running out of time to make my decision
I hope my future is everything I envision
It's time for me to take a break
This is what I think about as I lie awake
I do not know where I belong
I don't know if I can handle being wrong
I want to follow my heart wherever it may lead
Cause I know deep down it will let me succeed

- Breanne Cope

What I Feel

I searched among the many memories
In my head to see if I could find,
A little something that would say
Just what was on my mind.

However there isn't one,
That captured it just right,
For no one can comprehend,
Just what I'd like to say.

I even find it difficult
To try to write it down,
Even in this very poem
For how shall I portray you?

This beautiful girl that I admire
To say I have feelings for you,
More than my heart can maintain,
Just enough to fill an ocean.

When I think about you,
I close my eyes and what I see,
Is someone I adore
A person who is beautiful,
Just by what I see inside.

Mere words cannot describe
The main qualities you show,
The love and caring nature that
You share with those you know
Causing my heart to appreciate you even more.

Now that you finished my poem,
Maybe you will notice all the love,
That I have for you for it's
Just what I feel.

- Teris Vinson

Untitled

Dead like a rose, cut like a wrist
Guarantee I wont be missed
Cold like winter, stale like bread
You'll be better off when I am dead
Useless like trash, worthless like shit
I am going bit by bit
mean like a bitch, empty like a hole
life is taking its toll
hard like bricks, screwed over like betrail
all I ever do is fail
mad as hell miserable like a rainy day
I dont deserve the suns ray
black as my soul, clumsy like a fall
HONESTLY IM NO GOOD AT ALL

- Caroline Logan

Be Free

I wish you were there
Just to show that you care
But you already have someone
And I am left with none

Just to be with you once more
Is something my heart longs for
I can't get you out of my head
Go haunt somebody else instead

I am so very confused
My heart has become bruised
I want you to be here
And take away all my fear

I wish I could see the future
And maybe get some closure
I miss you more than ever before
I want to be the one you adore

Why cant things just work out
You're the one I don't want to be without
If it is not supposed to be
Then get outta my head and let me be free

- Breanne Cope

New Life

unexpectedly
without warning
a world
I'm no longer winning

It rains
It stops
then you smile

one fine day
in my sweetest
morning delight
sleepless even
at night

without a fight,
you conquered me
where dreams
seem so right

you give life
and add colors
in my dying sight
I feel the adrenalin
in my veins
my heart goes faster
as you appear
you let time
pause and disappear

your lovely face
at first sight
lasts forever

your passion
captured me by heart
the day you smiled
making life worth
to survive

oh dear God,
let me have you
as I grow old
through this life
my loveliest sight
who gives light

don't ever go,
let your light
shine the path
of my long lost life

for I will be
the knight
who try to fight
and love you
with all his might

for I will offer you
my life, my heart
just to have you
at this side
to be my precious
and only life

dear God, let
my one and only
heavenly light
who shines, give hopes
in my darkest fight be
the only meaning
and center
of my one last
new life...

- Herofil Olarte

I wish u knew

I wish u knew
All the feelings I feel for u
When Im sad, You make me happy
When Im mad, You make me calm
When Im scared, You make me feel safe
When I cry, You make me smile
On a rainy day, Your my sunshine !
Your the one I think of every night
And I am NOT giving up on us
WITH OUT a FIGHT !!!!!

for u scott

- Caroline Logan

Someday

I imagine the future
It is just a thought
When will I see you again?
Or is there just sadness brought

I just think of stuff
That could of happened or never had
Just thinking about all this stuff
Makes me feel really sad

I thought someday you'd actually like me
But gosh was I so dumb
I always thought every day
When will that someday come?

I've waited and waited
Each and everyday
But everytime I looked at you
You just looked away

Everytime I tried to talk to you
You would just ignore
I thought we were good friends
So what did you do that for?

But then I realized since you found out
I really loved you so
You seemed like you hated it
And you wished you didnt know

I felt so stupid right then
And I felt very num
For right then I realized
That someday would never come

- Mystery Mandy

New Start

For those who are suicidal

I know your thoughts I feel your pain,
but to kill yourself theres nothing to gain.
Let him or her see your smile so bright,
Even if you have to wear it with a fight.
Don't cry over them for it's their loss,
Just rid your life and become your own boss.
You are far too sweet and you have a big heart,
And with them out of your life you can have a new start.

- Deb

Stay

These past weeks have been confusing
I hope it is not you that I am losing
Sometimes I get scared and have some fears
These fears quite often lead to tears
The fights, the words can hurt so much
When all I want is to feel your touch
Not the touch of your physical part
But more the touch of emotional heart
Sometimes it seems like we both doubt
But you're the one I cannot live without
Some things we say don't sound the same
Like saying good bye to just a name
We look at each other and it is love that we see
But look deeper and see what I'm trying to be
I'm trying to be the person you never had
To put a smile on your face even when you're sad
I want to be there for you through thick and thin
Especially when stress causes your head to spin
I want to be that person that you go to
And make you feel better by saying I love you
Because love is not just a word to me
It means much more than words of three
It is more a feeling that I cannot explain
It's a feeling at times that I cannot sustain
But love is different when I'm with you
It feels immense and feels so true
Please don't worry it will be just fine
Give me your hand and put your heart to mine
We have something that most people don't know
And because of that our love will grow
So baby please trust that you are the best
Very unique and far different from the rest
Do not take this poem in a negative way
All I want is for you to stay
Our love is complete, and so strong
There is no way we will go wrong
Let's make a one from the number two
Stare in each others eyes and say I LOVE YOU!!!

- Emanuel Sifuentes

Last Chance

Deeper each day and more above
As days went by and I remembered
For ever and ever your love is so tender
But I guess the day just had to come
The day you and I would be done
I don't understand why this is
But it was your choice for this
See you ended it and not me
I guess that is why I don't see
And now you want your separate way
I've been dreading all along for this day
I feel like maybe you have found another one
Somebody else that can say they have won
If this is true then let it be
But let you know he will never be me
This is you because forever is way too long
But I don't think one month sums up the song
And for you it did it wrapped it up
I guess true love does not come in a cup
So have fun with what you do
And know that your "one" got away from you
The fun we had will never be loss
In good and bad times and through a cross
So go have fun live your life and forget
And please never say you regret
Because here is your last chance your final shot
But your "forever" already came last month
I'm sorry for putting you through this pain
It was not intentional and hard to sustain
Just know that I will always love you
Will you please love me too?

- Emanuel Sifuentes

Sadist

You called me your wife
and said I'm your life
The first day you called me
made me feel so happy

You kissed me on the first meeting
thinking its not wrong
Everyday you called me without fail
and i thought you were after me like a tail

When we met again
you tried to do things that were not right
Sooner or later,
you stopped your love

I thought of a reason,
and i realised after you touched me
all you could do was drifting away

Im starting to hate you
Im sorry but its true
You told me plenty of lies
and did those pathetic tries

Your killing me deep inside
with hundreds and thousands
of stabbing knives!

And now your gonna regret,
because your in trouble
come begging me Baby
try your best and dont be a pest
FOR ALL I CARE!

Im goin on a new path
for my new love
and i swear,
I will never find a sadist like you!

- sugarPRINCESS Nisha

Pain no more

I hate the way i feel everyday,

I hate to say i aint goin to stay,

I'm slowly goin to fade,

I cant take no more of this pain,

It's all too much nothin to gain,

i plan my escape,

then i will feel free and alive,

with no more tears to cry

- David

Much Love

Alex,
I love u with all my heart,
Till the very end.
Even though my heart will never mend.
I trust u with all my heart,
I always have, since the start.
U make me feel like flying,
While deep inside im dying.
Hearts and such, darling dear,
When your around, I never fear.
Alex honey, I love u so much,
And I always will crave your touch

I love u sooooooooo much Alex

- Caroline Logan

True Love

Words will never describe how much I love you
You're the greatest and our love is true
These past months have been confusing
I hope it is not you that I am losing
At times I break into tears
Because in my mind I have fears
They are in my head, and over and over they play
When all I want, is for you to stay
We both seem to be sensitive now
But why now? And how?
We fight so much over little things
Then the next minute your giving me wings
It might not seem that way all the time
But when I do one thing wrong, it's a big crime
I know I mean everything to you
And trust me baby, I love you too
We will get through this
By talking or maybe a simple kiss
Our love is so strong
And there is no way we will go wrong
Please trust me and have no doubt
Because it is you, that I cannot live without
You bring me happiness and sunshine
All I ever wanted is for you to be mine
Now I have you, and I'm doing wrong
I guess emotionally I'm not that strong
I'll do anything for you sweetie pie
I'll get down on my knees, and even die
How can I treat you this way, so bad
It makes me so mad, but yet so sad
I used to be so perfect and so nice
I would never ever think twice
But now I feel like I'm the worse
It feels like maybe it's a curse
You don't understand how much I try
And sometimes I ask myself why?
Inside I know its my fault, and my problem
And you probably ask yourself, How do I stop 'em
My heart is crying in the middle of a smile
This has been happening for while
I am not lying and this is true
But the reason is not you
So instead of walking away
Think twice, and stay
Because great things are destined to happen
Just be patient, and don't ask when?
Baby you are my heart
And without my heart, I will fall apart

- Emanuel Sifuentes

Have I

Have I told you that I love you
have I told you that I care.
Have I told you that I can’t stop thinking of you,
your eyes your smile your hair.
Have I told you that I want to be with you
and that you will always be mine?
Have I told you that I want to stay with you
until the end of time?

- Christopher Hosking

Love Race

Why is that i can not find love
so I look to the heavens above
free as a dove
feeling like it was never meant to be
I see you with him
but u tell me its nothing
or am i just nothing to you
Its like im in a race with way too many
when im ahead its still feel like im going too slow of a pace
so i ask myself are you the one that im willing to face

- Exzaviera McGowan

Just for you

For the first time i feel afraid
I'm afraid you'll turn away
I'm wishing time would stay
whenever you are here

Because being with you
Is all I always wanna be
No one else but you
Has meant this much to me

I can't pretend anymore
I have to let you know
How much you meant to me
For i am yours forevermore

I may not have much in this world
Money, looks nor fame
But this i assure you
This heart, this poor heart
Would only beat just for you

no one else but
Just you...

- Herofil Olarte

My Nobody

I had NOBODY to love me
NOBODY who cared
when i cried
NOBODY was there
there was NOBODy to trust
there was NOBODY to keep me warm
to protect me from the cold.
I had NOBODY to love my strengths
but also except my flaws
I had NOBODY to lean on
who was there to break my falls
Im so happy
Im so lucky
this is because...I found my NOBODY
- Brittany Tinkham

Why

I dont know why i am who i am
I dont know why i dont give a damn
I dont know why i hate to be alone
I dont know why i hate my own home
I dont know why i always have to lie
I dont know why i always wanna cry
I dont know why my patience runs on empty
I dont know why but bitch dont tempt me!
I dont know why i think im so ugly.
I dont know why i love to be funny.
I dont know why my friends are my life
I dont know why i stay up all night
I dont know why i like to stand out
I dont know why when i talk i seem to shout
I dont know why i laugh my problems away
I dont know why bad memories seem to stay
I dont know why i fucking hate my dad
I dont know why i love making him mad
I dont know why i cant stand my mother
I dont know why i have an autistic brother (not in a bad way)
I dont know why i end up wit bogus guyz
I dont know why my dreams could reach the sky
I dont know why i listen to rock bands
I dont know why id rather sit than stand
I dont know why id trade a skirt for some jeans
I dont know why im always so mean
I dont know why i gave this poem a try
I dont know why im always asking why!!!
- Brittany Tinkham

Snow

Under a subdued sun,
Basking in its glory
Purity at it's best,
The snow tells a story.

I'm glanced at in awe,
As if a blooming flower,
The heavens, my origin,
I'm compared to shining stars.

My airs are always chilly,
My temperature frozen cold
I breathe mists of water,
And always play outdoors.

Passer-by's perceive me
As a stunning view,
Earth, my destination,
Rainbow is my hue.

The moon is my companion,
The trees sell me their souls,
I spread my white feathers,
Over plains, mountains and moors.

I'm trodden upon and molested
I'm shoved and heaped aside,
Yet humanity foresees my coming,
As the best of winter times.

- Sonia Doreen Paul

Gone but There

Day by day,
Night by night,
I'd never let,
Him out of sight.

Creep out of bed,
Open the door,
Just see him,
There once more.

Back to bed,
And off to sleep,
But in my dream,
I weep and weep.

I wake up fast,
And run next door,
The bed is vacant,
He's gone once more.

I take a seat,
And smell the air,
Physically gone,
But spiritually there.

- Sara

Life Pain

Dark deep thoughts in which i fear,
Often wishing i could disappear,
Problems I cannot bear to solve,
Wishing i was no longer involved.

I wish i could fly so far away,
From painful dilemmas I face each day,
Or curl up tightly on the floor,
To cry out all the pain, once more.

Life hardly ever seems to be fair,
And you hurt end up hurting those who care,
I often think that life would be,
A hell of a lot better without me.

- Sara