Will you forgive me my love
For I intend to break your heart
You don’t deserve such cruelty
But my heart I must follow.
You are but a fine lover ever so Tender
Ever so True
You give your all
You give with no reservation
My heart mourns for you
I Will miss you so.
But I have to do what I have to do.
So far away from you
Don’t ask me why
‘Cos I won’t tell
Somethings are better left unsaid
You won’t understand if I told you now.
Do forgive me my love
I know you’ll hurt, I hurt too.
We will hurt, maybe for a while
Or even much longer
we will heal as time go by.
Try not to hate me, I do this out of love
For I have to do what I have to do.
Don’t ask me what
if I told you, you would not understand.
Breaking your heart seemed the only way
I will try to break it as gently as I can
Don’t try to look for me ‘cos you won’t find me
For I will be gone far away
so far away from you.
If you find another
Please don’t hold back
Not all will be like me
Not all will break your heart like I am doing right now.
My head is pounding
My heart is aching
I don’t know why
I feel so lonely
For a while I was lost
I could not feel a thing
I tried so hard, but I could not fake
Cos I don’t fake.
It hurt so much
It does hurt bad
Sometimes I cry
Sometimes I smile
Sometimes I get scared if losing you.
Is this LOVE,what I feel?
It can’t be…
I need to wake up!
This can’t be happening to me.
I hate it and I love it.
But I don’t want it.
It is too deep.
It kind of hurt in a pleasant way.
I wanna wake up.
Wake without this feelings.
Come to think of it.
you might not even feel this way about me.
Maybe It is Just a joke to you.
Maybe I took you way to seriously.
I think I will pretend it is a joke too.
We are both acting.
That way it might hurt less
and it might be easier
Well I might not feel like so tomorrow
Cos tomorrow is full of surprises.
Maybe it is okay to feel this way once a while
Maybe I am missing you so much
It can be so lonely …
So frustrating too… So much uncertainty…
Fear of what lies ahead…
Maybe I Just let things be
One day at a time.
What will be will be
I will hold on to the knowledge that for now,
What we feel is real.
Even if it fades…
I will forever cherish the fact that it was, and it was as real as can be.
It is will be a distant memory – what we shared, what we loved, you and I
All will be gone as the days roll by,
all will be but faint memories.
* * *
I am happier now, I can’t complain
Life has been fair and this is true
Now and then memories of you flood my mind
It does hurt I must confess.
* * *
Here I am all alone in the park, ‘our park’
Sitting on the bench. ‘our bench’
The autumn breeze slapping gently on my skin,
blowing the dry brown leaves that were once so green, here and there
A reminder of how we used to be, you and me.
Here I am sitting on ‘our bench’,
our favourite spot in the park
watching the ducks scramble to be fed by passers-by
We fed them too- You and I,
We had fun doing so
I see the swans,
your favourite swans
floating graceful on the pond, ’our pond’
You did name one after me.
When the sun shines,
it reminds me of our walk through this park, ‘Our park’
Hand in hand, side by side -You and I
We Sway to the left, we sway to the right- you and I in our little world.
You were ever so sweet
Your sweet smiles make me forget all my worries
Yes! You had such effect on me
I never had thought a day like this would come
when I, would all by myself sit on this bench. ‘Our bench’.
Looking back I smile to myself
yes! Sweet memories
I do wonder at-times what life would have been if we were….
Maybe it is for the best
we had to part ways you and me.
I wish my whole life away
Everything’s so dull and grey
The pain is unheard of
The emptiness of no love
The shattering of loneliness
The crashing of sadness
It all comes to an end
The day I can no longer bend
And put a gun to my head
Pull the trigger and end up on my bed
Everything’s be said
Nothing can mend
So to go my soul I will send