The darkness surrounds me,
almost comforting me,
as I sit and get used to the emptiness that swells inside,
I begin to realize how alone I am.
the darkness is my only friend,
always there always embracing me.
I fight it but it only make me want it more,
the more I wish I could see the blacker it gets.
no thought any more fits,
the insanity of the night creeps,
and from my chest my blackness seeps.
I walk hoping this is just a tunnel,
that the further I walk itll be a funnel,
eventually leading me to the light.
I fall to my knees and pull my hair,
the endless night is not fair.
all my seams begin to tear,
and my dreams begin to blow away.
the tears build in my eyes,
a drop falls to the ground,
and flickers a bit of light.
I look up to see a sliver of hope rising,
the immaculate blue light drenches my face like water,
and the moon rises to the sky.
the brightness seems to good to be true,
the hope once lost begins to reform,
my mind an emotional storm,
begins to ease,
I begin to stand and feel the breeze,
I spread my arms wide and embrace the light,
I than realize i have not lost my sight.
The moon my savior,
Leads me to a new life,
away from all the strife,
She is the reason for my smile.
Will you forgive me my love
For I intend to break your heart
You don’t deserve such cruelty
But my heart I must follow.
You are but a fine lover ever so Tender
Ever so True
You give your all
You give with no reservation
My heart mourns for you
I Will miss you so.
But I have to do what I have to do.
So far away from you
Don’t ask me why
‘Cos I won’t tell
Somethings are better left unsaid
You won’t understand if I told you now.
Do forgive me my love
I know you’ll hurt, I hurt too.
We will hurt, maybe for a while
Or even much longer
we will heal as time go by.
Try not to hate me, I do this out of love
For I have to do what I have to do.
Don’t ask me what
if I told you, you would not understand.
Breaking your heart seemed the only way
I will try to break it as gently as I can
Don’t try to look for me ‘cos you won’t find me
For I will be gone far away
so far away from you.
If you find another
Please don’t hold back
Not all will be like me
Not all will break your heart like I am doing right now.
My head is pounding
My heart is aching
I don’t know why
I feel so lonely
For a while I was lost
I could not feel a thing
I tried so hard, but I could not fake
Cos I don’t fake.
It hurt so much
It does hurt bad
Sometimes I cry
Sometimes I smile
Sometimes I get scared if losing you.
Is this LOVE,what I feel?
It can’t be…
I need to wake up!
This can’t be happening to me.
I hate it and I love it.
But I don’t want it.
It is too deep.
It kind of hurt in a pleasant way.
I wanna wake up.
Wake without this feelings.
Come to think of it.
you might not even feel this way about me.
Maybe It is Just a joke to you.
Maybe I took you way to seriously.
I think I will pretend it is a joke too.
We are both acting.
That way it might hurt less
and it might be easier
Well I might not feel like so tomorrow
Cos tomorrow is full of surprises.
Maybe it is okay to feel this way once a while
Maybe I am missing you so much
It can be so lonely …
So frustrating too… So much uncertainty…
Fear of what lies ahead…
Maybe I Just let things be
One day at a time.
What will be will be
I will hold on to the knowledge that for now,
What we feel is real.
Even if it fades…
I will forever cherish the fact that it was, and it was as real as can be.